sometimes i wonder, if i really can make it in my life. things happen out of the most extraordinary, and it's hard to predict when unexpected things will befall on me. am i just pure suay or what? i have so many things running through my mind and they can't seem to stop. they're just like flashbacks. i'm really disappointed in myself manz. grade sucks, i -vomits- at almost everything. i need motivation, strength and power... and money.