Somehow, I don't feel like presenting tomorrow's GSC answers. I've been presenting- for 3 days! Entre, MR and tmr! Gees.

I don't even feel like doing the ppt and the questions. There's a sense of losing motivation, and I don't look forward for tomorrows.

Last week - baddddd week.

Was giving up my choice? No. I was forced to give up. I needed xx badly, but xx wasn't there. I was forced to give up, really. Imagine three weeks. Who can take it? UGL sommore. When I said those words, deep within me, I felt so depressed. I was hestitating whether to press "send". Eventually I did. I was thinking, what if I were a little more patient? Would there be a change or would it be still the same? Second chance didn't work. It didn't turn out the way I expected. It was about the same like the other time. It's been one month since I last saw xx. Okayyy those who know what I'm trying to say thinks that I'm stupid lah, but I really don't know manz.

I haven't been smiling, haven't been happy either. Happy occasions doesn't last long. I don't believe in second chances already, after this incident. Things had been too easy and difficult for me. I hate to be "busy-free".

Too free = tendency to think a lot.

Busy = No time to think but focus a lot more on work.

I haven't spend time with myself though. I just need to think through things that are troubling me. It just happened yesterday. I just started these thinkings. Harmful to health huh.

I suddenly miss the days during primary school. I used to go to school early in the morning and have netball training and have some friendly matches with my friends. Sighs. Those were the days. I wanna go back to yesteryears! I miss secondary school days too. Especially the teachers. I'll never never ever forget them. And also my principal. I remember he used to give me extra lessons on Sundays - Humanities.

I don't know why as we grow older by every single day, there'll sure be problems rising to the surface and we have to just solve it... Stress, depression are psychological emotions self induced by oneself. I mean that's how I think la.

I don't believe in second chances but.. I still.. je te manques.

Been feeling random. Sighs. I'll just shut up and do my GSC la.