OKAYYY.. Obviously I have nothing to do. No new leads, no callings. Slacking time!

New leads will come in only in the afternoon... AND JI JI.. my god.. go on mobile selling... Everyday she comes, and everyday me and may qi would DEFINATELY buy something from her. If only the products and other stuff are better and nicer and more attractive. It's not that I don't want to buy, it's really limited. SO JI JI if you are reading this... PLEASE BRING NICER STUFF DOWN!! and shun bian bring a bottle of orange/apple juice. Heh.

Oh. My other jie jie [Lynn], sleeping all the way. CSC you knowwww. "Zai guang tian hua ri zhi xia" she just sleep so soundly.. Just took a pic of her sleeping, will post it up when I get home. lol.

Right. I'll stop here. And Janis!! Don't be too sad. I'll always be there!

here's the pics as promised:


-plain piece of paper known as "pillow"-

I'm like so missing Fang Yean, cos she's in UOB, and I'm in school. It's not that I don't like being in here, I sense things not going right for me. Like I said, I'm so glad that this is the 4th week and there's still 6 more weeks and maybe 5 for me, cos WILL be going somewhere, but I'm not really sure. Haven't confirm yet.

Sometimes I really wish that I'm in UOB answering calls and stuff, exploring the new world and meeting real working people, but so sad, I'm not. I've said before that my "ren yuan" isn't good. I don't know is it my appearance or whatever offend people, but I find it really hard for me to get along well with one. Also to own a blog, is to pen down my feelings and thoughts of what I did for the day, not to offend or literally "attacking" whosoever reading my blog.

BEing in CSC is fun. My grades over here might be a problem, but it's better than to be in BSU cos there's at least something to do. Anyway I got my grades. Got hold of Mr Tan just now. Hee. AND guess what? I got a big fat "A". Woo hoo~ Celebrate!

Moods of depression, sadness, anger, frusration and demoralisation.

I'm back home since 630. I took 3 hours flexi for my FTT which so unfortunately I failed. Sighs. I guess I'm a born failure and loser in everything I do. I'll never succeed anything with first attempt. It's only if I keep trying and trying. I took a cab home too, which was like the 4th time I actually took a cab and it cost $9.80 inclusive of 2 bucks extra charge for peak periods. I felt so guilty about taking it, cos it's so expensive. I can't help it, felt like reaching home fast.

Booked my next FTT online, which was a really lucky thing I did, cos if not the next one would be on the 3rd May. I hope I'll pass it next round.

I figured that the reason for not succeeding in things I do, is that I'm either unprepared or I choose to fail. It can't be the second option. I don't like to fail. If one don't fail, and never get lesson learnt, he/she wouldn't know what is it like to fail. If the person succeed for the first time, then congrats. It's either you are lucky or you are really prepared or both.

I can't help but feel like crying. Tears of anger, downheartedness, disconsolation, despondent and a taste of melancholiness. I'm in a state like no one knows. I don't even know how very bad I feel.

I need you so bad. Really bad.

Je te manques.

I should take this last 10 minutes of my break time to blog. This morning is not a really good morning for me, cos I had already called everybody on the lists, those who didn't pick up didn't pick up, rejected ones rejected, helped me completed the survey completed and those slammed the phone slammed on me. So all in all, I had 6 completed surveys.

This morning I woke up around 7, and like this is the first time I woke my mom up, and that she actually overslept. Luckily. Thousands of cells died in me everyday cos I had to rush to school daily, fear that I'd be late and let the grade slip. I'm not actually a competitor, but I really do want to practise "professionalism" and also "punctuality", as in doing my things well and all.

Actually, it's kind of ironic for me to say this, but I don't feel GOOD as in contented being the "STAR PERFORMER" of the dealers because... I don't know how to explain this, it's really depressing when people asks me how many completed surveys I had done, every single hour or moment. It really gets me sick. I worked my ass out of it, just because I'm purely fulfilling the part of my job, not because of the title "star performer" and have extra 20 minutes break. To be honest, I don't really need that title nor break at all. It's nothing to me, except for the title that sounds nice. Other than that, I don't need it at all. Seriously. I'm just doing my job. I don't like it when people ask me about how many calls I've made or what, cos I feel pretty irritated. Although my face don't show it, I feel it. If anyone who wants this star performer title, just get it, it's not much use for me anyway. I don't mind not being the star caller, so that I can get out of this shit.

*Drum rolls*

Yes!! I am the "Star performer of Dealers of the week". Woo~

I know somebody is seeing Green... Hee. Never mind, I'll give you chance! lol.

Just now I went to take my e-trial test for tomorrow's big day -- FTT!!! So damn scary manz. I failed once then I did another time, and passed. But I don't know how will it go tomorrow.. It's really scary. *Praying hard*

I feel that I'm like a total shagged out shagger. It's like the moment I blog, the first sentence would always be, "Oh, I'm so tired..", "I'm so shagged". Seriously I'm not kidding, I'm really really exhausted and I can just faint any moment. I am lacking of sleep here, cos I've got so many things to do during weekdays, and on Saturdays, and the only day I get to rest is on Sunday.

I'm not actually complaining, but I feel that I'm already adapted the life of CSC, and in my cubicle. The calling obviously are hell of a.. wel... HELL, cos before you finish your sentence, they will hang up on you, which I hate it a lot, and I think I'm getting used to it soon, cos the people out there are really idiotic, cos they seriously do not speak nicely to you and just scold you after you completed the survey. Right now, I'm supposed to do my callings, but here I am blogging. WHY? Cos call until no leads already. Call all the assholes, and what they say is, "I'm not free now", "I'm not interested" or "I'm in a meeting, call me back later". Yeah, these people really are like busy, so I can't force them to do the surveys, right? Call them back, either they reject the calls or didn't pick up.. So what the hell is this man? Don't wanna do just say so, call and call until the bleedy phone "pit" also no one pick up. Gosh. I feel so frusrated!

Until now, I made 21 calls, 7 DMCs and 2 completed surveys. How? No new leads after lunch. That's like long slacking hours manz. I feel so angry and vexed and frusrated this morning.. right, firstly lacked of sleep, and got calls from idiotic people, 2 pathetic completed surveys, called so many people, either mobile switched off or no one answers the calls. BIG SIGHS.

Yesterday I went to watch "Ghost Rider" with ji ji at the Grand Cathy. Damn nice!! I can watch it over and over again also won't get sick of it. LOL. I didn't know that Nicolas Cage is so old manz, but the freaking surprising part is that he still have his SIX PACS!!!!! WOO~ Really.. MAN, manz. lol. I was also being startled by a part of the movie, and I startled ji ji, cos my reaction was really big. hahha! And then after the movie, we went Orchard to walk around, Cine to take neopwints, and the machine is damn cool! After that I took a bus with ji ji to JLP where we really, went home like in the wee hours. SO tired tired tired!!! I reached home at 1 and woke up 715 today. LUCKILY --- I'M NOT LATE.

I shall get on with my life. HAha. Go on calling.

Just now ann called. Haha. Talked to her a while cos I've got no leads to call and also the batt in my phone was running low. Funny part was, ann told me that she "xin tai ruan", and I started singing, and everyone joined in.. LOL. May Qi damn funny, sang the loudest. HAHAHAH!

Okay, I'll blog again. =)

Yay!

I'm so happy. Elated. Psyched.

I got an 18/20 for my French oral, and it's the highest! Woo~ 4 of us got 18 actually. =) I'm so so so HAPPY. There was no french lesson cos there was a test, which I'm not totally prepared.. But it turned out to be quite easy for the written one. As Christelle was also testing others for oral, our test turned out to be a "discussion" test. lol. Everyone was like looking at each others' papers and checking answers. Even though they were teachers. lol. It's like they were sitting beside me, and they just took out their notes and started to copy. LOL. That's the funny part. When I said, "orh... teacher huh, do this kind of stuff... bad example ah..." and they replied "oh no no, I learn from my students.." HAHAHAHA.

I thought Natalie [our oral examiner] would ask me and Wendy to describe her but it turned out that she asked us to describe each other and asked my mobile number and I'm like, Oh shit I forgot how to say! Gee, but I managed to squeeze the juices out of my brains and say it out. Phews. And she also asked me to describe my appartment, which was like so scary manz! Luckily, I managed it well. There's only left 4 of us in the class. Lemon isn't joining until she finishes her "A" levels. Gosh. I'll miss everyone in class.

After french, I went to Marine Parade to meet Ann, and I waited for her like SOOOO SO bleedy long. 1 hour okay! My god. Damn tired. We went to the hawker where we had our dinner, and then went to Coffee Bean to have a drink and talk. It's been so long that we actually sat down and talk for hours. We sat there from 6 plus till it almost closed. Yeah. And we went home.

To be honest, I feel really good to be single, because this is the time I actually can spend more time with my friends. I'm not even 19, and I think now it's the time for me to enjoy my youth, my life and my friends, not in a relationship. I feel that I am learning to be independent because previously I've been relying too much on people. I don't want that.

TGIFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!! WOO~

I long for the magical time.. FIVE-THIRTY! I'm so tired.. I've yet have my eyes opened... Because.. I'm SO DARN EXHAUSTED. Was the first few who reached CSC 1 at 815am, surprisingly, I woke up at 641 this morning.

I have also yet start calling, as calling starts at 10 sharp, and it's about 18 minutes to 10. Brought chrysenthemum tea that my mom cooked for me, and gave a small bottle to ji ji cos somehow everyone is falling sick.

Gosh. I'm so not looking forward to calling. Especially reading out and repeating the chinese survey. I'm always stumbling and stammering like so serious. Oh mon dieu! I will blog later during lunch, as I foresee myself that I will be skipping lunch for tonight's dinner. =))).

-back at my cubicle-

Yeaaa. Okay. Things are not going good for me right this instant. It's 3.05pm now and I have seriously NO LEADS. Things were going well in the morning which I completed 8 surveys, but like "sheed" in the noon. All in all, I've got only 9 surveys done up... I left one more.. Just one more to hit target. Argh. new leads will be coming in soon, I hope.. If not the rest of the day will be slacking around already.

Oh yeah. Tommorow, I'm gonna suck big time. This is shit man. I haven't touch french at all and guess what? Tomorrow is the oral test and written one as well. I'm so damn scared. My FTT is like going no where at all too. And I'm starving. Yea, cos I skipped lunch, but had a pancake from FJ just now. Sighsss. I'm so so so depressed. People answered my calls and just hung up.

Sigh. I'm gonna get back to work. Breaktime's over.

I feel so F up right now manz. It's still so called " my breaktime", but I just made this stupid call to Laurence Tan and this stupid asshole picked up and told me that he was overseas, and I introduced myself lah. After that he told me a whole lot of crap and asked if the survey was compulsory. I said not really, since he's not in Singapore. I asked how the hell am I supposed to contact him when he's avaliable and he kept telling me that the ah Tan was out service! YAAAA I know that! Sheesh. When I thanked him in a super f***ing way, he didn't even let me finish my sentence and hung up on me! WTH. I mean, how good can it get? I'm like so pissed lah.

I've made like 34 calls and completed 6 surveys.. Which is like so super pathetic. Sighs. Yesterday was no better. Made 22 calls and managed to get 5 complete survey. BIG SIGHS. Anyway. AM so sian also. Flew South just now. Didn't have much too. Just a cup of Passion Ice and a packet of wedges. SIGHHHH. HOW I WISH IT's FRIDAY!!!!

-back home-

Anyway, I'm home for now, and honestly, I've never been so SHAGGED in my entire life. No kidding. Last time was slack until wanna die, now is "PIA" until wanna die. I went to school with a good voice this morning, and came home with a hoarse and "about- to- go- voiceless" Yu Hui. I made 99 calls for the day... Is that a record? And completed 17 surveys. Like.. What the shit? Man. I think I'm gonna suffer from a really bad cough soon.

CSC is indeed fun, now I don't feel bad about being in dealers, cos inside in fact is much quieter, at least I'm not distracted a lot. But I feel really pissed today. I really do. Apart from losing my voice [soon], I "tio gan" by 2 nasty people on the phone. The first one was a lady, she is a real biatch, why say so? Cos she is one. I was like asking for the person that was shown in the excel sheet, and when I haven't complete my question, she retorted, "Do I sound like the person you are asking for? I'm not interested in doing any of the surveys and get my number erased from your records." I'm like.. Okay.. *stunned* I really didn't what to do next. Hesitated awhile, and thanked her and before I even finished talking, she hung up on me. *click* Bloody hell manz. I still thanked her leh! tmd. Then the next one was the man, he asked me to go on with the survey in Chinese, and seriously, I don't like the chinese survey and I hate repeating ESPECIALLY the freaking options... COs it's a lot! Before I even started the first question he hurried me and told me "kuai dian kuai dian lah, quan bu fang hen hao jiu ke yi le lah..." I tried explaining to him, but I gave up and tried to end the call by asking the last question[if he had any feedback] and I heard him telling his friend in dialect, "si beh bo liao, bo tai bo chee ka dian wuay lai.." So depressed manz. SIGH. And oh yeah. There was one man, he wanted me to speak Hokkien, and we aren't allowed to do that. It's either Chinese or Malay and English. He told me to get a person to speak Hokkien and call him back. Stupid arse.

Coincidentally, the leads I got had my secondary school teacher on it! I didn't realise it at first, and as I went along I found the voice really familiar! That's none other than Mrs Yong! My sec 1 and 2 English and history teacher! Woo~ She kept complaining about the outlet she went and was so disappointed about the consultant.

Sigh. Tomorrow another day. Long long hours. I'm turning in for the night already. Good night, people. May your tomorrow be really beautiful. =)

-out on 2048 hours-

Unlucky me.

How much I wanted to get into Singtel HELLO! Shop.

AND I GOT INTO DEALERS. Not that it's not good... but...

All the while I've been prastising using the HEllo shop script and suay suay I kenna dealers which I got totally no clue at all. Sigh. Ren ming already.

-DEAD-

Damn. DAmn damn damn.

My chinese new year holidays are like SO OVER. Can't believe it. I'm back here, yes, sitting right in front of the computer, NOT AT HOME but in CSC 1. Aiyo god manz.. HELP. The whole morning I've been making and answering calls to fellow CSC 1 mates. ROLEPLAY. YEAH. And later, we'll know where we will be seated and which Singtel project we are doing. Scary lah. AND will be calling Miss Noh for roleplay with the correct script. GOD. HELP~~

It's my lunch break now, and don't feel like eating anything because this morning Grace, Sean and Lynn and Sharon and me brought a whole chunk of new year goodies. Eat until can vomit. It's really fun but too much eating, doesn't do good to your tummy.

I've also gotten my CSC tee shirt, looks err.. horrible, but it's limited edition for US. HAhahaha. It makes me feel itchy cos they haven't been washed yet, and I'm quite sensitive to them and I've got a red patch on my skin from vigourous scratching. haha. ANYWAY.

Tonight there's also company dinner [my dad's]. I don't feel like going cos this morning, to my freaking god, I noticed I have a big patch under my eye. YES!!! DARK CIRCLES! ORH BAK KAK! MY GOD! It's so ugly manz! I felt like crying so badly. I didn't have a good night's sleep, I don't know why too. I shall go to bed 8pm sharp everyday... starting next week :ppp

Well. I shall blog another time, my lunch break's almost over, and I've got to buck up for this upcoming ftt and french test. Scared. :x

Second day of the lunar new year. How good can it get? lol. I'm gonna summarise the days I didn't blog.

Well, on Saturday, my parents and I went to the temple to pray por por and gong gong at Balestier, and there was this idiotic man, who burnt my arm with his joss sticks. No kidding. I've got 2 marks there. Like I'm bitten by a vampire. Horrid looking. I know he didn't mean it, but he didn't even move away fast and just let it got touch to my skin. Walao, can see my flesh tt day lor. Now got 2 black burnt marks. Sigh.

After that, Daddy sent me to French class, which was another horrible lesson, cos Christelle told us about the topics that will be out for the test next week! So scary! There will be an oral exam, which includes self-intro or describing yourself or the examiner, the directions to Wisma from A.F, description of my house and classroom, and a written test. WTH. I'm so dead. I'm not even revising. No time for panicking. I just gotta start real SOON.

After class was supposedly to go straight for dinner, but heck, my dad told me "go home first then go". I was like "...." I brought my shoes to change, man! So after that we left and headed to the place where I had the "xiao long tang bao", at the Shanghainese restaurant. The food is not that bad, but I love the xiao long tang bao. That was the first time I had dinner with my cousins and uncle on the eve of the lunar new year. I still can't click with them. Like I'm the outcast of them all. I don't care much anyway lah.

Went to Chinatown after dinner. Was really really crowded. It's like "ren tie ren" manz. There was absolutely no place for you to walk. Went there just to get some goodies which were selling dirt cheap and as low as a buck. I got 16 boxes for 10 bucks, 6 of which were given by the uncle F.O.C. Woo hoo~ Brought my dad over to the booth where they were selling beers, and he bought 24 cans, packed nicely by a kind old man who owes me mango sago for a lifetime. Wah, can't wait manz. Be prepare to spend, big spender! lol.

LEft before they actually countdown, cos it's seriously too crowded. There isn't room for more people. Heh.

I spent the whole day watching tv for both yesterday and today. heh. Variety shows and movies were so darn nice! Am not looking forward to Wednesday, cos seriously, I'm so damn scared to start work --- Calling out people to do surveys. Sighs.

Anyway, not much happening stuff happened lately. Will blog again. =)

Woo hoo~

So damn exciting~! I just came back from Chinatown, bought 8 egg tarts and a chestnut cake. DAMN NICE. Gave 2 to old man, because I had "Xin zhou mai fun" for dinner, just behind the place where me and donnie wanted to go for our "zha jiang mian"... But it wasn't open! Damn. I almost fainted. Couldn't find the stupid place, and I had to call daddy to ask him the way there. Gosh~ When we reached there, none of the shops [except the bars] were open for business.

Nevermind. So after our dinner, both of us walked to Chinatown, for donnie, she wanted to get a airbrush tattoo, which she got it, a pig on her hand and a "qi" [a chinese character] on her neck--- just below the hair line! Real cool. I wanna get that someday. We looked damn "lang bei" when we were at the platform. lol.

Later gotta go fetch my dad - not me driving. at the airport. :p

So CSC was really fun today, especially it's super nerve-wrecking cos I had to make a call to Jin Fu for role play, where he acted out as the customer. Damn scary manz. After the roleplay with him, I made REAL calls. REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL CALLS. OUT TO THE CUSTOMERS. Oh my freaking god. I was so freaking nervous and... my god.. I can't multi-task like typing and talking and refering to the excel file at the same time.. God manz.. I can't really concentrate as well, cos of the distractions. Geez. It's really scary. I will be officially on my own on Wednesday, and making calls on Thursday - according to Miss Noh.

Like I say, CSC isn't as bad as I thought. Love the people there. So darn funny. It's such a pity that the old batch are going off to their classical stopover. BUTTTTTTT~~~! There are a few people I wanna thank.

1) Yen Ling [my buddy for 2 days]

2)Hui Fen [ my buddy for the 2nd day of the week]

3) Lu Cia [ my buddy for today who guided me to making real calls]

4) Shareen [the one who looked like Shirleen NG, the biz fin. lecturer and the super enthu encouraging gal] And lastly not forgetting...

5) SIN HUI, whom I left out. [sorry gal :D]

Lastly to all the people in CSC 1! Good luck to you guys in the classicals! =) Will miss you people lots.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone out there!

What a lonely one too. Let me tell you 10 reasons why I dislike V-day. Because:

• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day
• I don't like V-day

10 reasons why we like v-day.

• Presents
• Gifts
• Flowers
• Dinner in a nice restaurant
• Watch a nice movie
• Guys pay for everything
• We don't need to pay for anything
• We get hugs/kisses
• The day to bully the other half... .... ...

Nah, I don't like it that way. Waste of time.

Well. For today, other than seeing people with flowers on their hands, CSC was really fun today. First time hearing me say that huh. We had roleplay whereby we've got to call the DBS people and they call us back to do the survey both in Chinese and English. Tomorrow will be Miss Noh and Miss Khoo. So scary lah. Haiyo. Anyway. I had fun calling people's extension line. Heh heh. We had to complete 20 surveys, 15 from hello shops and 5 from Dealers. Woo~ Wonderful day.

I had Janis and ji ji to take the train with me to City Hall. Long time didn't take train with my besties already. While ji ji went to meet ji hoo for their [whistles] date, me and jan were heading our way home. YA LAH.. We got no dates lah! But who cares? I had a sumptous dinner too can? =p My mom cooked me a salmon fillet and ohmygod! That was like so delicious! Thank you mommy!

Now... Pistachio nuts eating time~! See ya =)

I've learnt not to trust anyone so easily. Especially when the one you are best with.

I hate rumours. When I say stop, please stop. Don't go on and on and on as if there's a never-ending. It makes me really sick. Don't make me go nuts because I wouldn't know how to go about communicating with you people.

If you still have the conscious, seriously consider what I had just said. Don't make me repeat myself. Don't push me to my limits. Especially when I'm in CSC.

For once, I've been smelling sweaty dried up sweat smells in two freaking days! Gosh! It CAN be THAT bad. Urgh! I can't stand the smell manz, especially when it's from the guys. I mean, not all, who doesn't sweat? But the smell is.. utterly atrocious manz! Eww.

I was so shagged like never in my entire life yesterday, I fell asleep while watching tv, and then headed to bed before 10. Was sleeping so soundly when the alram clock rang at 615, which I snoozed it till an hour later, the time I officially woke up. For 2 days, I was assigned to pair up with a buddy from CSC and listening to how they speak and explain all the work necessary. Minimum target for a day: 20 surveys. Damn. That's tough. It may be 20, but according to my observation, sometimes you aren't so lucky. You may call more than 40 times, you might end up with like.. 12 completed surveys? Yeah. Some surveyees are really.. *no comments*

Vday's tommorow, CNY's round the corner... I don't feel the festive season. Maybe in my opinion, v day is just another ordinary Wednesday. To others, v day could mean a really special. Yes yes, another day for lovers to spend the day together. Whatever. I'm just gonna come home and watch tv, tuck myself in bed. CSC can be so ever stressful. It helps kill time too. FAST. Unlike BSU. Missed that slacking life.

Went out with ji ji on Sunday - Bugis then Chinatown. Freaking crowded. Saw old man promoting TB beside Da Dong Fan Dian. Looked sooo ridiculously funny in that uniform lor! lol. We got tattoo! Airbrushed. I got a pig, ji ji got a spider, both on our ankles. Hee.

-I MISSSSSSSSS FANG YEAN!!!!!!-

When is that woman coming back to sch?!! I'm only the MK in CSC 1 can! Goodness. Come back come back!! Who ask you interview so good kenna UOB. Anyway, good luck to you on tomorrow and friday's test. =)

Oh. I'm so in love with you. You are still the one. =)

The second Saturday. 1145pm. Anyway, I really had lots of fun yesterday. After my French class, which it was a total wreck [cos I don't know the difference between imparitive and verb form and Christelle was so nice to explain to me again and again + testing and testing me again = me still being CMI], I went to town,apparently to go and "fu yue" as promised 2 weeks ago. Went to Taka and had dinner in a Japanese Restaurant. The rice was the most delicious rice that I've ever eaten manz! I think they use "zhen zhu mi" to cook. Very "shuang kou". Even a typical non-rice eater like me enjoy eating less than 1/2 a bowl. Had the Salmon set. =)


Later we went to Heeren, just to buy a "close to 200 bucks Levis jeans". NOT ME. I can't afford it. AND we SO HAPPENED to meet ji ji and * there. HAW HAW. After the purchase of Levis jeans, we walked to Far East Plaza, where I saw ji ji again! In the toilet sommore! You must be thinking where the hell it could be so coincidence... Met twice! To TELL you the TRUTH, we have telepathy. :p ANyway. I wanted to buy a pair of Ripples Flip Flop, but it turned out to be "okay-okay", so in the end I didn't buy. Actually I wanted to buy some clothes to go with my jeans and shorts, cos all I wear is tees and shorts or three-quards, I just can't find the right one. I have no nice blouses and stuff. I've got some pictures, but due to viewer's content, I shall not post it up. :))))))


LATER. Heh. Will be going shopping again. Maybe I should shop for accesories, bags or stuff. Time to splurge! Well. I'll minimise my spendings, I promise. :p

Some people don't really understand English, especially on what I'm trying to say. In fact, I did feel really pissed just now. I went to AMK, just for the sake of passing tootie his CNY goodies that he ordered from me, and I carried the stuff all the way there, under the hot, scorching sun hitting hard on me, sweating so profusely... And you know, the feeling of me being in that sense was only "pek chek and even more pek chek".

SO I handed him all the stuff, so what? I decided to walk back to the interchange on my own, but still deciding if I should buy Pearly, since I'm already there. He was still tagging along, I know he treats me well, but I really need to be independent. I don't want to be dependent on anyone, especially that I'm SO old enough to do everything on my own. If I persist on saying I don't want, means I really don't want. Don't force me to make me ignore you or show you attitude. I've told people that I'm such a person who can't hide my feelings. If I'm angry, sad or whatever, the look on my face tells it all. I don't know, but I'm really realistic about this. If I'm harsh on you, I apologise. If you would just listen. I hate it this way, when you always do this.

Took a bus in the morning and I was late by 8 minutes for school! Not only that, I even "lian lei" BUG to be late. Flew like so fast to school. I thought the presentation was supposed to start at 830, but it didn't start until around 2. 1330 hours was the revealing of the allocation of results for the CSC. I'm going under SINGTEL! My god. Wanted DBS so badly, but I got onto first floor. Tharika was no better, she got into CASE! Telemarketing! Gosh. HS and Jas are damn lucky. Have each other. I'm like super alone down there manz. I'll just hope for everything to go smoothly for the next few weeks.

The presentation, I feel that I'm quite steady.. I don't know. But before that I was like nervous-wreck manz! And when it was my turn, I was pespiring and I felt warm all over me. Ahh. But glad it's all over. I love my group mates manz. They are such nice people. We had so much fun during the break just now, as in we went into the B308 room where there was another room hidden behind the mirror. Cos Yik was sitting in front of the mirror and doing the marking, so we thought that if we want to see our results we should go over there and peek. Before our presentation even begin, Say Kang took the mouse to keep the door open so that we could go into the room by another door, but Yik found out and locked the door. Aw man! Busted!

Finally. Presentation was all over at 420. She dismissed us like so early lah! Woo~ SO. Like what I mentioned, I walked to Amk, handed things over and got my money, took a bus home. Was so late for my show manz. Missed one quarter of it. Monday's the final episode!!! [Hinting to mei mei can come fetch me home.. but "she" having exams the next day..]

Sigh.. So it's Friday. Tomorrow its French and shopping, makan, shopping, come home sleep. I'm like so shitty exhausted. Monday I'll have to report at 830 sharp. BIG SIGH! I'm gonna sleep already.. Can't take it anymore manz. Got dental appointment tomorrow morning! Time to get that bracket fix!

Me with the models +Aggie

Today was wonderful manz. I really didn't expect the team building activity was so much fun! I always hated team building activities, because the activities sucked! However, I had loads of fun with my team mates.


In the morning, we went to LTD 1 [Sorry HS, gave you the wrong LT number] at 830 to have the lecture on stress management and "Fish". Called Tharika and I realised that I've called the wrong number.. I called her old number which her brother is using. Gosh. Luckily fy helped me call her and I realised that I had her number saved in my phone. -.- I'm that blur huh. Fish was interesting, but the stress management... Naw. I fell asleep during the lecture. Hahaha. Was nodding all the way. It all ended at 11 45 and I went to Cheers to look for ji ji, who so happened that her lunch time was at 12. Woo~ Had lunch together. I had 2 hours of breaktime, and she had only one, so I had to kill the other one hour. Thanks to BUGGER who kept me BUGGING for the next one hour. =)



At 2, I went back to LTD 2, and waited for Tharika before we went to Block E where our activities took place. First up was the "Treasure Hunt". Apart from the blazing hot sun that we had to find clues, everything was smooth, and our team was the first team to find all the clues and be back at the starting point! Woo hoo~ Guess what? Admin was in my team, and I must say, she's not bad lah, maybe I misunderstood-ed her during the days in BSU. Next was the "Project Runaway", where we had to cross dress a guy and a gal. So the misfortunate ones were Alex and Aurelia. Damn funny huh they all. We didn't win at this event but we had lots of fun. Aurelia was so funny! She was complaining that the "jacket" we made for her and how she looked! Quite shuai hor! Hahahaha. Alex was the funniest manz, he kept shifting his "breast" cos one side was higher than the other! And he switched shoes with Aurelia!!!! My gosh manz! Hahahahaha. All the other groups did not bad too! I took a video, hur hur! I also took a pic with Say Kang and Aurie and Aggie on their cross dress dressings. Finally, the last event was the "pass the ball around and if you caught hold of the ball you have to pick a paper [a dare] from the box and do it in front of everyone". now I realise that 50 of us fear of balls. Hahahah! Everyone was so scared that the balls are on them. LOL.

the devastated aurelia who saw her cross dressed outfit :p

Shuai qi aurie!

the unfinished Miss Alex

The finished Miss Alex, with aurie's shoes!

The contestants. =)

They dismissed us at 530, and I took a train home! Saw a guy that looked like Leo who acted in the 7pm show. Don't know whether it's him or not, but he really resembled him manz.

PS* Aurelia, interesting hor! ahahhaha!

What a day! Sheesh!

Waited for ji ji for half an hour in the car, cos mei mei sent us home. Thanks mei mei! =)

Managed to get home in time to watch my 7pm show, Monday final episode already! gosh! Tomorrow ji ji's gonna start work in Cheers, and we'll meet up during breaks in between! Sigh!

Tomorrow gonna rush out powerpoint slides for Friday's presentation, and later on in the noon, there will be team building game. Oh gosh manz, what the hell!

Woo hoo~

Two days reaching home before 7! That's life manz. Training for CSC in school from 830 to 530? That's hell.

Yesterday and today weren't better. We had group discussion, and we had to research on the topic that were given to us, and present it on Friday. Gosh. Write report sommore. Yik was smiling and smiling, but we all know that she's a backstabber. She let us off about 520pm today! Guess what? From 830 we were watching videos till 5, and let us listened to some of the students' recordings when they were in CSC. BORING! I don't even know why the hell I got into CSC. Sigh. After listening to those recordings, I felt worse about my next 8 weeks in CSC. I'm so so so scared about calling people to do surveys. I don't even know which floor am I posted to. Hope it's on the 4th floor. Oh. I have two weeks break before school starts, according to ah ji. =) Gonna plan for holidays already. Heh.

Haven't meet old man for months. Told me that he's working at "Goo Chia Zui" but haven't got the time to meet him. Well, one day.

don't know why but I feel really really scared about something. Help~

It's 830 again tomorrow! Think of it find it ultra boring.

Yesterday was steamboat day! Yay! Had loads of fun, only that me and ee boon were left out! We shared the "yuan yang ma la huo guo", and we didn't have any liao. LOL. We only use the ma la side and use the other side to wash the food that dropped on the table. lol. Funny. Thanks ee boon, for plucking the prawns, apart from your disgusting plaster.

After the steamboat, we wanted to go for dessert, but cos there were a lot of people, we went home and the rest went to play pool. Finally met eve. Missed her like so much.

Today woke up in the afternoon about 2 30, and I got prepared to go out. Sigh. Long story.

Tomorrow will be a dreadful day to start with. Have a briefing and will be starting csc. I feel really very sian 1/2. What to do manz... 10 more weeks of sufferings...

Sigh. Things really turned out the other way unexpectedly. I'm really gonna miss ji ji, janis, sabby and the rest who came to BSU 2 weeks ago. I'll be at the call centre starting Monday. I can't imagine the stress I'll be going through.

Later I'd be going for steamboat with the guys after french. I try not to think of the bad stuff to ruin everyone's mood. CONTROL!!!!! Argh! I just hope that I'll be able to go on the immersion trip, it's not bad to escape from csc for a week eh? heh. Well, gotta run. Do french.

Went for UOB interview at Toa Payoh today, and I didn't get in.Yea, I screwed the whole bloody thing. Asked me loads of questions which I totally got stunned. I don't know if I feel depressed or happy about it. I mean, it's nothing to me, cos no matter where I go, I'd still be calling people and talk to them, makes no difference. The only difference is that, going to UOB will help your resume look nicer. Right. Fy got in, and she isn't happy at least one bit. Cheer up gal =)

Today was also officially the last day being in BSU. I am sure gonna miss it there, miss the slacking life, the people, especially the supervisor, cos he never mark me late before. LOL. I will miss calling Jason "pink pink". HAHAH. Oh, I don't think my shanghai trip is confirm, cos there's only 5 miserable people on the list, and we got to recruit more people!! 15 of them, goodness. 15 seems to be a relatively small number, but to actually find 15 people, it's difficult.

I just woke up, thinking that it's three or four in the morning, but when I checked the time, it was only 2230 hours. And now I can't get to sleep. Don't know how manz. I haven't done my french homework, and I'm so screwed up.