"wu yan bo yan, zheh yi cheh sui yan.. " (sing it in hokkien)

SIGHS ! What a song. I think I really have to leave it to fate.

Anyways, I thought I was quite nice today, sending my mom to the market, waited for her and sent her back after she was done with her marketing. Oh yeah, I suddenly thought of the cabby, he changed my perception of them. He was quite nice, cos I was looking for a parking lot just now and he suddenly came and quickly left and signaled to me, asked me to park into the lot that he came out. Wow, I thought it was quite amazing. Usually those inconsiderate cabbies are really inconsiderate, cos whatever they do they'll blast their horn at you and refuse to give the way etc etc. Well ok I think I'm quite emotional haha but I still stick by what I have to say about cabbies, not all are nice, practically all are nasty =x (my uncle is a cabby and I don't know if he's nice or not, I mean of course when he's not driving he's nice but once he's behind the wheel... =x =x)

PS/ I can get nastier =x

I can't help but sigh.

SIGHS !

Tomorrow is the start of taxi 3, advanced level ! My goodness, one year is approaching fast. Another few more months we are gonna say bye bye 2008 hello 2009.

Gosh what am I thinking ?

I'm really trying to stay calm but I think it's hopeless, and I don't want to say it anymore cos readers might be really frustrated to see me complaining about this and that, and I'm annoyed too. SIGHS !

I don't even dare to give it second thoughts.

I'm only at "Communication Barriers" which consists of:

1) Perceptions
2) Filtering
3) Language barriers
4) Information overload

I'm #4, info overloaded. I'm only at page 31 of the damn notes and it's thursday. Damn it cos there is not much time left. I haven't prepare for BB and MR. Freaking tired and mental blocked. I hate exams. I HATE EXAMS !!!ARGH !

Mak, sing the "sui yuan" song with me... :'(

ELING WONG !

YOUR SINGAPORE MUMMY WENT TO M'SIA !

If she return to Singapore, you can follow her and you will be here in Singapore !! :)

Good idea ? Hee.

Let's see.. When was the last time I felt happy ?

Ah ok. It's Oct 12 !

17 days and counting, without happiness. =/

I'm so stressed out ! I'm sooo stressed until I'm almost to the verge of breaking down. My brain just don't function when it comes to studying. Gosh, I hate this feeling.

JE LE DETESTE ! argh.

Sometimes I even have the thoughts of giving up what I'm doing now... I'm so tired of education.

*cries*

i am NOT even halfway through my notes. Just started the second page of OB. I'm so tired, so scared, so paranoid ! I feel my head is going to explode ~! HELP !!!

I think blogger has gone haywired. It has gone seriously mad like me too. I can't align my post properly. The buttons are all gone.

Today I chilled out by not studying, but went to pray my grandma which was a last minute decision. Then OH ! Me and my parents went to look for the celing light for the new room. The person came to the house and paint, and I'm really satisfied with the color. As far as I'm concerned, it's a really sweet color and I feel good when I see that colour. Heh. Guess what color is it ? Light pink. HAHA. I always hated pink, but that pink to me is fresh. :)

I settled on a "mont blanc" shaped-like celing light. It's really cute and unique. I just want Uncle Weng (the contractor) to finish up the work quickly. I'm really psyched to move into the new room. Now that painting is done, the next thing they are going to do is wax the floor. Then do up the cupboards, study table and bed and voila, I'm gonna have a room warming party. LOL.

Later in the afternoon I went to Chinatown and had lunch. Gosh it was really fulfilling. Then went to pop's office to help him with car-washing. I try to be nice to mes parents, I mean, see how much they have done for me. I couldn't ask for more. Well, probably I could ask for a car. =/ Ah forget it, pop will never agree to it. He only drives the ah pek mercedes. =x (don't tell him I said that!)

Guess what ? I'm still worrying about yesterday's paper. And now the stress is on again, for the monday's paper, 2 weeks from now. Oh gosh, I really don't think I would fare well in the exams. I mean it's good to aim high, but I think it's hopeless for me. Things always turn out unexpectedly. When I feel positive, things turned out negatively. So with all these unexpected happenings, how am I going to feel positive ?

They say if you remain positive, the battle is half won. I'm trying hard to build up the confidence and changing to be more optimistic, but sometimes it's really tough. Not that I haven't try it, I tried !

Sighs, I will try. I want to be like my idol ! MP !

Anyways, I went to interchange just now to the cash converter, wanting to sell my used printer and scanner, VCR and scooter. LOL ! It was really hilarious, I felt so embarrassed when riding the scooter. Haha. Guess how much I managed to sell it ? $4 ! HAHAHA ! Pop was like, who needs the 4 bucks anyway ? I spent the $4 on goreng pisang and green bean paste, whatever you call it, and got back 40 cents change.

Oh yeah, next Saturday I'm going to register for Taxi 3 (french advance level) ! Know why ? Cos Manu is the teacher ! HAHAHA oh gosh I feel so shy =x And I registered for grammar class ! It's like I would be seeing him 2 times per week. I think taxi 3 will be tough. But it's worth a try :) I'm giving Manu a chance to prove that I can cope with advance level. Okay we all know that's an excuse. Hee.

J'ai besoin de faire au regime ! J'ai mangee beaucoup recentmment. Il faut que j'arretes. :)

Actually I think I'm quite pathetic or should I say I'm kinda a failure.

Things like I don't trust myself and stuff makes me really wonder why I would feel this way.

This morning I had my first paper - DC. I studied freaking hard for it, thought that all the theories would all come out, and in the end, the 4 questions apart from the 12 true/false questions, were all calculation questions. I don't know how I should feel but I was dumb-founded and scared. I really felt scared, even until now I'm still worrying about it. It's all together 60%. And the thing is, I left the hall 1 hour earlier. It's a 2 hour paper. Gosh man. I don't know if I should say it's easy, or tough, by the feeling that I'm having how.

And I'm not going to deny that my emotions were high and low the past week, and I think it's going to last till the exams end. I get frusrated easily, I kinda "abuse myself" =x and sometimes I even think that I might have depression. Sighs.

And in the noon, I had french test. I was totally not prepared for it. I thought I should forgo the french test and just go there to have fun. I think Cheryl does not like me. She thinks that I'm too childish when I complained about my paper. She sounded sacarstic. Well. I don't know. She's a P.W, maybe that's how serious she is and look at people.

That's all for today. My rooom is soon gonna be done up !

omigod seriously, studying for exams is taking my life away. I really feel like dying. Die of fatiguedness, paralysed hand and a bad sore throat.

I really dread studying ! I'm so so so scared that I'd fail !!! :'(

My course coordinator replied today. I emailed the other one yesterday, which means, I can confirm with Francois next week about the Summer Trip to France next year ! WOO HOOO~ !

I want to get over and done with the exams ! I REALLY HATE IT !!!!!! I don't know if I still can endure the half a month torture. *cries*

OH MY GOSH !!!!!

SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE !

I'M DYING OF INFORMATION OVERLOAD !!!!!!!!!

I'm getting lazy and tired.. AND WORRIED !!! ARGH !!

Stupid course coordinator bloody hell don't bother to reply my email. It's already 2 working days lor. I merely asked a simple question and she takes so freaking long to reply ! ARGH !

WITHOUT HER RESPONSE I WON'T ABLE TO GIVE FRANCOIS AN ANSWER NEXT WEEK !

STUPID SIM ! SO DAMN INEFFECTIVE !

SO SLOW !

I admit, exams are driving me crazy.

Oh gosh. The france trip is giving me a headache ! :'(

AND MY EXAMS ARE NEARING ! Endlessness in notes writing. ARGH !!!!! Last time poly days I thought to study the entire lect notes like 12/13 lectures needed like 10 pages or so when I crammped the entire thing into paper. It was alot already.

BUT NOW ?! WTH !

1 CHAPTER takes up about 10 pages of the notes ! OMG. I can DIE.

How I wish Saturday stayed longer.

Saturday

Morning 10am to 1pm - BB final lecture. I have to digest the entire BB text to be prepared for the damn exam.

Afternoon - Lunch with pops then French class at 2.30pm.

Evening - BBQ outside my house ! IT was really really fun ! :D Annch and JR came first, then followed by jii. She stayed over my house yesterday cos it was too late for her to go back. Travelling back to her place takes a long time. Anyway there are pics to share. :D

We started BBQ-ing ! :D The BBQ pits were so small and adorable. LOL.
Annch BBQ-ing prawns.
The whole group before jii arrive, but she was the one who took the pic. I didn't take pic of the food, but they are just some chicken wings, satay, otah, crabstick, sausages, prawns and stingray.. etc ! BIG THANKS to MOM who prepared all the food and did the seasonings :)

BBQ-ing marshmellows ! Jii's fave :D
The group of us started to BBQ MM.

YUMMY !
I think I was trying to stab annch. =x
Ok here I poked jii.
ah. now annch =x
AGAIN !!

the arse stabber =x

HAHAHAH !
magic wand. turn u into a frog !

??

trying to "yun qi", not kek sai ok ! HAHA. Don't know what JR is trying to do.

Packing up time ! Hey ! That's annch, not me. I do look a bit like her in some angle. hee. While we were packing up, my mom kept snapping candid shots of us.

Me carrying the chairs back up home.
i think this was another natural shot.

that's annch. lol. for once i tot it was me.
stabbing again.
trying to drink the satay sauce lol.
the leftover sausages.
hi jii !

That's me cleaning up..
and washing the plates !
haha ahhhhhhh !
indulging in the ice cream at 1130 =x i know its a bloody unglam shot but i think it's funny and disgusting lol !
LOOK AT THE DESSERT !

At 12, me and jii went down to take a stroll, but we settled at the playground first.
swing ji swing !
trying to balance off one side of the swing haha.
jii became a monkey !
cos she tried on the monkey bars ! =x

I had lots of fun last evening ! Thanks everyone who bought things to my house, and MOMMY who did the preperation of the food, daddy who .. did nothing but watch football =.= and support our first 4 pieces of BBQ-ed chicken wings. ALAS ! XIAO HU IS BACK WITH JIII. It was nightmare for my mom when xiao hu was around. Heh.

I now know what's the meaning of work hard, play hard. Gosh I miss SATURDAY !

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Cruel to poor bunnies !

I'm excited about Saturday. (:

Okay. I know it's too early to be happy.

I'm beginning to think of SIM in a different perspective. :D (Whether it's good or bad)

Anyway today's OB lect was quite short, it ended at around 430, and it's the last ob lect ! Tomorrow's DC ! Anyways, today was sorta a terrifying day too ! See, I saw people crowding over the other entrace so I went into the other entrance to go into the LT. When I walked into the LT, I felt a sense of insecurity, like something wasn't right. I looked around, and people are taking pieces of paper and discussing excitedly over it. I had no idea what it was. the feeling was so not right. I saw people walking out of the room and coming in with paper. A booklet, to be precise. I saw the front cover, and it sort of resembled the individual assignment that I stapled together the other time. Woah, this can't be good man, I thought to myself at that time. I hurriedly texted WL, and told her about the "how the feeling in the LT was" and she was also confused about what I was talking about. So I told her that I'd meet her outside the LT and go check it out together.

As I walked nearer to the other side of the entrance, gosh, I saw the paper that was sticked onto the wall. It read, "Collection of Individual Assignment" and separated by surname. Gosh man I was trembling. I fear... My heart skipped a beat. It was so unexpected. I was totally unprepared to face the reality, to collect my assignment. Flip through my blog archives and you'll find all my rantings about how much I hated it and stuff.

First thing I did was flipped to the reference page, cos referencing weighs a huge percentage, and I was relieved that nothing was written there. Then I flipped to find how I scored. There were 5 options, High Distinction, Distinction, Credit, Pass, Fail.

I got a big fat DISTINCTION !!!!! :D

Unbelieveable. I couldn't believe my eyes. There was a red mark circled over "distinction". I was over the mooooon. :D It is my first distinction in my entire life. COOL. :D Complaining pays off =X

Oh all right. I guess I'm too bored to be doing anything, that's why I'm trying to make an effort by blogging more things, about what had taken place during the period that I didn't blog.

Nothing much actually, cos like I mentioned previously, I slacked for like 4 days, until yesterday (Saturday), I had to return to school for the second last BB lecture. It's amazing cos I managed to get my butt stuck onto the chair until the lesson was over. I couldn't understand what P.LUI was talking about, told you all right, she has this very weird hongkie-british-singlish accent and she doesn't "bite her words" properly. Even Jay Chou speaks clearer than her. She ended lecture 10 mins before actual time and I was left with about 1 hour and 40 minutes to kill. I can't go AF cos it'd be too early and the parking fee really is killer. It's damn costly and it's like you can go buy a set of MOS Burger and you'd still have change left. So I went to my dad's office and we went makan, I was craving for roti prata, so we went to a nearby place to eat. How sinful ! So he after that he drove me to AF which, I didn't want to arrive there so early, especially 2.30 on the dot... Cos of some foreseen circumstances. =X

I really came acrossed the "foreseen circumstances" ! No kidding man. Luckily I met a classmate and we chionged the staircase together.

French class was bloody peaceful. Majority were not there. Only 5 of us were present. Nora, Grace, the 2 kids and Cheryl weren't there. Gosh I love the class like that. Small and quiet.. and I was the noisest in class. I'm pretty proud of myself though, cos I actually spoke french throughout. I even introduced jiji's xiao hu to everyone. LOL. He's very well-accepted. :D Just that somehow my mom frightenes herself with it when me and my dad always play a prank on her and she'd freak out. And speaking of that, xiao hu decided that he needed a regime, so a rubber band is tied around his body cos he wants to have a nicely shaped body lol. Haha if you believe. It actually is for me to differentiate a real lizard from him. Cos he's always resting on the table where I always put the tv controllers. Now he's resting in the pouch which jii gave me, the one that has a mirror when you opened it.

Well I don't know what else to blog about already but basically that's all for the week. Next week is a hell of a long week cos there is a make up lect on wed, monday's ob lect and followed by tuesday DC lect, and lastly Saturday BB lect. And then comes the exams. Gosh. GOSH. GOSH !!!

Very lazy to blog.

Projs are over, exams are coming. THEY ARE JUST ROUND THE CORNER ! =/

i'm very very very lazy to blog !

Oh, Pepper got a scolding from my cousin the other day. HAHA.