Oh yes... The day ended, but tomorrow's coming! I'm dreading it!!! Gosh manz, I'm so tired, from all the waiting and slacking till 4 for briefing. Today isn't fun at all. I met my supervisor and argh. A total sianzation. Then we got our mystery shopping briefing by the TEP students. All the keying of stuff or rather data input... Damn tedious. *dead*

And yesterday I was slacking in IBRC until I forgot to attend the briefing for the mystery shopping thing. No one told me about it! Horrid. But who cares, there's no need for me to take attendance. =))

Nothing much to blog about today... Cos everything's going on the same daily... But I'll make it a point to blog daily. Hee :)

Blog tomorrow. Ciao.

I'm back home.. Finally. Had dinner and now having dessert, yes, my chocolate sensation cake. The day for me was comme si comme sa, but yeah, I'm rather pissed about something I encountered after school while taking train home today. So don't be surprised if the entry is filled with vulgarities.

Was in school at 830am, signed in and attended this stupid briefing that was so dull as usual. Then we had to do some ass group work WHICH I was grouped with no one and had to come up with some topic and find 10 bloody references. My team has 12 members, and I don't even recognise their faces except for some. I don't know them well, but the others [some I got to know just yesterday] was quite horrid... J'naime pas du tout. After that KS came, luckily there was him, if not I ended up with no one manz. So I finished the first 5 and he completed the rest. Me and ah ji slacked all the way until 330pm until we went to get prepared for the 4pm briefing. Boring. Irfan was like sleeping all the way... and the fact that he was sitting on the first row! After that uninteresting talk by the lecturer, team 2 [ah ji's team] had to stay back for a while, so lonely me had to go back to the place where I slacked for 3 hours, slacked for another hour. Cool. That's BSU's life. Meaningless.

After talking in msn and everything about 545pm, we signed out. Time to go home, baby! So I was travelling at the direction towards Marina Bay and this speaker suddenly announced "Next stop, Khatib" . I was like stunned manz. I looked around me and there was nothing wrong at all, it's the usual route the MRT travelled as before. Then I realised the speaker announced 2 stops late. -.- Whatever. I alighted after 20minutes later at City Hall, and changed train again [sigh, such a long way home. poor gal.]. It was pretty crowded for a time like 630pm in the train. Then this irritation emerged within me. I saw this person who got up his seat, getting ready to go down at Bugis, and this Indian man was in front of the empty seat and he was gonna sit down. Then this lady, who happened to be so inconsiderate and "buay zi dong", she just took her bags of stuff and put them on the seat. ?!! She was standing quite far from the seat you know. I mean, wtf, she's behaving so thick skinned! Not ashamed of her doings?! My god.. Why in the world there's some people like this? Sigh.

I reached my station, and missed the damn bus and had to wait for 15 minutes for 38 to come. The bus came and I'd never seen it so crowded before manz. This is the first time. It was so packed that no one can squeeze through. And this fucking bitch [another one], whom was standing behind me, asked me to move into the crowded bus. I ignored her totally. Not that I don't wanna move in, there's no space for me to move in manz! Bloody fucking bitch, are you blind? Hell, you think you are the only one who wants to get down the bus? Half of the people are getting down too, you bitch. Yes, she got down at the third bus stop. I was like, what the hell, the bus is moving, can't you wait for the bloody bus to come to a halt first? What's the rush? Before she got down, she wanted to go to the door, and she pushed me! Hey, what's the problem? I need to get down too, BITCH! I almost "kan" her manz, but I kept my cool. I'm so pissed right now. Pissed off by the 2 bitches. [cursing and swearing]

Right. I'm done with my complaints. Tomorrow, BSU again. Same time, same place. Blog again.

I hope you read yesterday's entry.

What in the world are you brooding about, Loon Yu Hui? Sigh. You don't even know it yourself eh? What's happening to you? Stop being freaking troubled! Argh!!

Today was kinda dumb for me to go school, BSU briefing at 830 am and I woke up like 715. I'm so tired, slept at 1 last night. So for the whole day, I was trying to stay awake while they brief us. My god. I was like nodding all the way manz. My eye lids were so heavy that I felt like using toothpicks to support them. About 3 plus, we were supposed to do this project and submit tomorrow. What a stupid task. One of the BSU in charge looked like "Edna" from "The Incredibles" and the slimmer version of Lydia Sum. LOL. Oh, ah ji and I got into different teams.. I'm in Team 1, doing mystery shopping! Quite slack huh.. Sunday must work manz! Gee, there's still 20 weeks more to go. Help manz!!

Sigh. My life's a mess. It seems like I'm missing a piece of puzzle, and I'm feeling "soledad". Memory lives on, what can I say?

"Across the miles, it's funny to me. How far you are, but how near you seem to be. I could talk all night, just to hear you breathe, I could spend my life, just living this dream. You're all I'll ever need. You give me strength, you give me hope, you give me someone to love, someone to hold. When I'm in your arms, I need you to know, I've never been, never been this close. With all the loves I used to know, I kept my distance, I never let go. But in your arms, I know I'm safe, cos I've never been held, and I've never been kissed in this way, You're all I'll ever need."

Okayyy.. I'm getting a little over-emotionalised here. I can't but help feeling super upset. urgh. Tell Yu Hui that she's one useless ass. Sigh. Move on, gal.

Actually, I don't even know if I should even blog today. I blog on daily basis, because I want to pen down my feelings so that whenever I'm bored, I can just read the things I blogged. It's just like a part of a memory.

I stayed at home the whole day today. I haven't got a single clue why, but whenever I'm alone at home, thoughts would come running through my mind. And I really hate that kind of feeling, because I'm making myself miserable for nothing. That's why I don't like to stay at home ever since that day.. I want to go out, but if you haven't got that kind of cash, there's nothing, seriously nothing you can do. It struck me recently that I've been spending all my money on unnecessary stuff, buying all sorts of things and eating non stop. I don't even have money to save for rainy days. I just spend and spend, like running water flowing out from a tap endlessly. When can I come to a stop? Yesterday I'm not supposed to be home and turning in so early if I have the cash. I'd be spending my evening having dinner and drinking white wine with "tong yi tiao chuan eh peng yiu". I left 5 bucks for the week. Tell me what the hell can I do with 5 miserable bucks? I can't even afford to treat myself with fish and chips.

So I spent the whole day [I've been online since 14 hours ago] glued on You-tube, watching "Xing Pin Guo Le Yuan", it's really nice. I've watched until the 18th episode for the day, spent yesterday night and the whole day today just watching that. My whole body is aching from the sitting down for the long hours... The tv's down, and SCV's also dead, cos my dad haven't paid the bill, so there's nothing to watch on tv [except The Apprentice] tonight. Well, it's not really important.

My mom's not at home, she went to my aunty's house for dinner. My aunty called me and asked me to join them, but I didn't feel like going, so I stayed at home. My dad's back from his trip too. Sigh~ It really hurts to see them ignoring and avoiding each other. It's been almost 3 Sundays since they talked to each other. The other time they were quarrelling as well, over a puny little thing, yeah, again. Oh my gawd. When is this going to end? As I said, I don't wish to interfere but seeing them to be in this state really pressurize me. What more, they are like, married to each other so long, and what kind of obstacles haven't they been through to be together? I feel useless, because I can't do anything to solve their problem. I really don't want anything to happen to my family manz. I'm so.. caught in the middle. BIG sigh.

It's really scary when someone whom you don't know adds you in msn and talk to you. Well, I find it a little freaky when that person has a same name to whom I know. But I'm still in doubt if that person is someone I know. This afternoon, that mystery person talked to me in msn. I was a little stunned and when I asked him where he got my email add, he said "friendster" and I was like.. Okayy.. But why did you add me manz? "You pretty loh, that's why I add you" was his reply. Wth manz, I mean.. Ahhh forget it. This person is playing a prank on me and I shall just ignore. I don't think he's a good person anyway. He tried to "haha" with me but I just don't give a damn. Hey. I'm not in a beautiful mood right now here ok.

Back to where I was saying. The weather today isn't good either. It started out sunny and the sky became dark and gloomy, and rained suddenly. I felt that the sky somewhat, somehow was trying to tell me about how I feel, and it was so darn right. These few days I've been keeping a lookout on my horoscope. Reason: It's too freaky to be true. All the while I've been keeping to myself, and I'm really tired. Too exhausted to push and swallow everything down my throat - troubles, thoughts, school... I tried all ways and methods to numb myself, to forget and throw away thoughts and frustrations, I can't seem to do that. The only people who knows my deepest scars are those who constantly advises me, listen to me and give me the courage and strength to move on. For that, I'm really really thankful to them, for giving me everything that I needed during these times.

This person, "anonymous", who tagged me last Tuesday, I am not sure if you are the right person that I'm thinking about, I don't know where in the world you got my blog address from and I am neither sure if you are reading my blog daily, or only reads it every Tuesday around that time, whether or not, this paragraph is for you.I do hope you get to read it.

When you left a message here, first thing that came to my mind was "who was this person?" I felt ridiculous for someone named "anonymous" to leave some messages here. After a while, it occured to me that it might be you. Honestly speaking, I was at a loss, I didn't know how to react, not to say, not knowing what to reply. So I chose to ignore it, in other words, running away from reality. However, it's definitly not my style nor nature to not reply a message once received, so after many days of thinking, I thought I should pen down how I feel, which is right this instant. And what I'm saying is honestly speaking from the heart. If you choose not to believe, then I have nothing to say.

I must say, I'm really happy that I've known you [on a particular Saturday]. You left me a really deep impression which I was looking forward to being friends with you. I don't know if it's fate or just purely coincidence that let us meet again, but I treasure every single friend that I have in my entire life, especially you. I felt appreciated when you shared your past life experiences with me, letting me have a better and clearer idea of you. I don't know if you are trying to be an attention seeker or what, but I didn't believe that you'll say all these things to seek my attention. Until now, I still stick to my beliefs. All the times you made time for me, whether it's a movie, a talk or a walk, even to the teenie tinest thing, like bringing bottles of mineral water for me... I felt I was being cared for and I was touched. It's like I'm on top of my world. I respect all my friends, and I respected you, in any way.

You know, in this short period of time you gave me, letting you to occupy that empty space in me, it added colours in my life that made it even more wonderful. You gave me enchanting, captivating laughters, joy, memorable ******. Though it's not a really long time, somehow I thought I wouldn't regret the decision I made in the first place, and I never did. After that Monday, I admit that it's really tough for me to accept the truth, cos this was the first time it had ever happened to me, physically and emotionally. I tried lots of ways to do what it takes, but I just didn't seem to do it. I felt so troubled about accepting it. Maybe you didn't get to see it, because I masked myself, or rather, you hardly get to see me nowadays. I'm constantly doing things I normally don't do.

However you chose to leave and yes, I was miserable and it was like something sharp just pierced right through so hard that caused SO much pain and agony. I respected every decision you made. Truthfully. Call me dumb or stupid, but I still **** you, and you know I still care. Maybe you didn't tried hard enough, and you're not even ready for it, that's why you are not committing. In my eyes, you are not giving yourself a chance to cherish what you have right in front of you. Don't know if you feel that way, but I felt. Time isn't a factor, how busy can you get? If I agreed to my decision, compromising and accomodating everything is nothing. I ever thought of going back... I guess it's impossible now, right? Sigh. No point going on and on. I bet you wouldn't wanna hear it anymore too. On the bottom line, I don't know if you still care, but... it seemed to me that you don't. Cos you can just simply ignore me whenever you see me and still regard me as a friend? And tag to apologise? Please don't call yourself a jerk. In my heart, you are not one. Until today, what-ever you did that for, I blamed you initially, but now I don't. I believe you have your reasons, whatever it may be. You gave up on me, I held on. Now the only thing I want to know is that... Were the things you told me at F.E Plaza the truth? Although it might not hold anymore importance, I still want to know. Could you tell me?

If you think that it's better off this way for the both of us, I shall be cool with it. I did everything for you. Including this [the first pic]. And thank you so much for everything. It's all in the heart, and I'll never forget.

My memoirs

Don't feel good.. at all.

Neither is.

Tomorrow is my first stopover for BSU and I've got to be there at 830 am for briefing, please, let the rest of the week be a smooth one for me.

I'm shagged. I don't know why but I feel tired. Anyway, I met old man for waffles. heh =) and pass him the chocolate fudge cake as well.

Waffles! Yummy!!

Waffles was grrrreat! Today's entry would be super short cos I wanna head to LALA land already. Did nothing much today.. Just did a few pictures grouped together and stoned the whole day. French class was okay, but half of the class isn't here! Oh well. I'm gonna go sleep already. Blog tomorrow.

Me me and me!!!

Personal Selling collection was at 3.30pm in school today, and I was like there sharp. [well, maybe not.]

Guess what? I waited almost like 1 hour just to collect the stuff! Sigh. Well, I had like 6 bags, and mommy came to help me deliver. I thought they had this "help to take to your car" service but they didn't do as they said they would. Damn. I had to make several trips back to the place to collect and put in the car. Honestly, people who didn't buy for consumption, please give yourself a pat on your shoulder, cos the cookies and everything just sucked big time. Except the cakes. They were good. My dad bought the chocolate sensation and I'm enjoying it. =) After that, I went to Orchard to meet Monsieur Goh to pass him his stuff. And I "A-ed" alot of goodies from the shop. That includes coffee bean card, photo frame and a Cold play CD. hee.

Oh.. Pepper was so called "infected" with fleas. And she had really grown as well. My.

Anyway, this entry is gonna be a short one, cos I need to do my French homework... Haven't done them cos this week had been busy.. Crazily busy. Sigh.. I'll blog again. Ciao =)

Some items of PS.

[how can i forget?!] My ah jie and mee!

YAY! Finally we're going to end these 6 weeks of classical modules. Look how we've survived! =) From the very first week of Project Management to the fourth week of Business Etiquette and the two weeks of mugging and rushing for projects [MMD, BE, CS and PM]. Woo~ It's gonna be over, cos tomorrow we're handing in the project, and stopovers, here I come!

After about 3 days of coming up with the scripts for customer service roleplay and editing them [adding and adding words cos they were too short], me and ah ji finally get to do "perform" being "demanding" customers and "calm" service provider. LOL. And the person who graded us was Mr James Sim [yeah, the spaghetti and meatballs guy]. I thought he remembered me cos of the conversation but I think he is clueless about who the hell I am. I woke up at 6.30am today to prepare myself and get ready for school cos mommy hasn't come back until afternoon. It was a tortorous time for me manz. I snoozed my alarm twice before I actually got out of bed. I feel so tired! I realised I was running late when I was having breakfast. Heh heh. I was supposed to leave house at 7.15am and I was there having breakfast. -.- The past few days I had snowflakes and twix cereals for me breakfast. Ohhh. It tasted reaaal good. And I got the toy from the cereals! Hahaha. I've got 4 now, and there's 2 more characters for me to collect. =) So after that I rushed outta home, and right, I missed the bus.. Both of them [38 and 12] and I waited for another 10 minutes for it to arrive. Sigh. The train was super crowded. I stood all the way to Orchard with heels manz! I'm on my heels!!! Then there was this pregnent lady who boarded the train at Bedok, no one gave up their seats for her! How not-courteous of Singaporeans.

My collection of free toys from the cereals =)

So school ending like before 10am. And fy, jas and tharika went to do the project and me and ah ji was thinking what to do cos we didn't want to go back home so early. For my reason, I do not want to look at that "her". We went to "O" and walked around, basically to search for ah ji birthday present that we still owe her. We walked to Heeren where we had our lunch at Sakae. Had Salmon sashimi craving since yesterday. Then, we walked and walked around, and headed to Far East. I bought a pair of slippers cos I can't stand the pain on my feet. I'm plastered everywhere. Blisters too. Came back home around 4, took a bath and then started to do some pictures editing on powerpoint. Shall post the rest on my next blog entry.

Mon creation :))) Sakae Sushi

Plastered.

Too bad my dear ah ji don't want to send me the pictures that we took just now, as she said she was charging her mobile phone, so tomorrow she'll send it. =) And I have collect the cakes and cookies as well manz! So troublesome. Someone from the festive team just scared the hell out of me today. She told me to go collect the things today. I was like, "not tomorrow meh?!" Gosh, no car today manz, how you expect me to carry 4 cakes home plus cookies? toot.


Oh, I secretly took a picture of a woman painting her nails on the train a week ago. hee.

The weird lady...

Painting her nails...


And yesterday night while I was on phone and onlining, there's this giant cockroach that FLEW to my computer screen [I was on fy's blog that time]! So icky manz! It's black! And it FLIES!! I was screaming my lungs out and it still didn't move.. until I called my maid to kill it. Then it flew to god-knows-where!!! And just now my mom told me that there's a cockroach in my trousers that was hung for weeks. Ewww.. Disgusting.

the disgusting cockroach [XY stop it.. LOL!]

Haha.. Read my blog tomorrow... cos I'm gonna blog tomorrow laaa. -.- Hahahaha.

Woo~ Customer Service ICA is over! I was cheated manz! Mr Sim told me the paper consist only 10% and it turned out to be 15%! Hah. I'm going to tell the whole world about the sphagetti and meatballs story. hee=) Make him get letter. Evil me.

The paper was quite a killer, I think. Cos there was this 12 marks question that I almost left it blank, but I still did try to attempt it. Whether or not it's correct, I've no idea. Hope I pass my test, that's the only thing I have in mind right now, cos yesterday I didn't have the heart to study and whatever I try to memorise I just forget the next moment. Sigh. I hope everything goes smoothly whether it's ICAs or stopovers for me. Oh, speaking of stopovers, I've been posted to BSU. There's this briefing on Monday at 8.30am in the morning. So after the test me and ah ji stayed in school a little while more to edit and add some more words to the CS roleplay script for tomorrow. We came up with some zany ideas of the fan and it's so funny. PM project is progressing as well, right gals? It's due on Friday, guess I gotta stay back tomorrow and do it with my group of wonderful girls.

Sigh. Mom and Dad are away. Well. Yea. Both are in Malaysia. My mom went today and dad went yesterday. So I'm alone at home with "her". Don't like her manz. Had chee cheong fun for dinner, and damn, I put too much chili sauce and my stomach isn't feeling good. I had my runs 3 times yesterday and it's that bad as well. Gosh. Okay, I'm so dead tomorrow morning. Because mommy isn't in Singapore [she'd come back tomorrow] and I didn't know that class starts at 9am tomorrow and I got to pull myself out from my bed so early to take the early train ride, cos by right mommy will send me to school if I have class in the morning. Aiyiyiyiyi!

Well. I think I better stop here. I need to go check out my other stuff.

Sigh! Busy busy busy! What a busy day.. and week! This week is really busy for me as well, but it's less busier than last week! At least I don't have to stay up late for the whole night to do my project.

Tomorrow there's Customer Service ICA, followed by the roleplay and then Friday gotta hand up the Project Management project. I don't know the progress yet, but it's kinda slow. Me and JS stayed in school yesterday to do the project together and this morning we met at Orchard to do our second part of the script for the roleplay on Thursday. We took quite long to think of the contents and the appropriate tone and english words to suit the entire scenario. Haha. It was quite fun. Oh! We went to the toilet at Lido, and there's this man.. My god. He didn't see where he was going, and he walked straight into the ladies! Sheesh! Me and Ah ji were like stunned and we stood outside and waited for him to come out.. Hahaha.. After a while, he came out. I think he saw us looking when we turned away. I should have walked into the toilet and embarrass him. Hahahaha. I had McD's for lunch =)

After completing the script, I asked ah ji if she wants to go to expo and "kia kia" cos it was still early. Met XY up there as well cos "he" wanted to buy wine. Hehe. I had my Thai chendol and SAusage with wedges [finally]. I went to the booth that my mom and I went the other time and we had free wine sampling [woo~] there [the sales staff still recognise me] from $19 to $79. Heh. XY face turned red after a few glasses. LOL. I felt a burning sensation in me. He bought a boutille of white wine and I chipped in 9 bucks =) Hahaa. On my way home I almost forgot to press the bell when it was reaching my bus stop. When I reached home I just fell onto the bed and slept. So tired manz.

So many things just happened. Yesterday my folks quarrelled again because of "her". Sigh. Okay, I'm so freaked out now. I haven't read up my CS notes. I better go study my CS already. If not tomorrow's 10% is a goner. Ciao.

Such a fine and lovely day outside, but why am I not feeling fine and lovely internally?

What is it about that is obviously bugging me that I am not aware of? I'd like to get my doubted feelings sort out - problems seem easy but to think about it, it just saddens my day. I'm not a person that usually who will think extra hard for anything, but when comes to problems like these , my mind feels exploded.

My horoscope for today is really accurate.

"You thought you totally understood your feelings about a recent encounter, but today confusion might swim up to the surface again. Having doubts about what happened is fine, but do not make any changes based on your doubts -- it's a waste of time. What's done is done, and if your feelings are starting to change, there's nothing you can do but accept it and keep moving forward. The impression you left is the one that will stay, and you don't have to apologize for it. Some astrological movers and shakers powwow about your romantic prospects and decide that it's time you moved to the next level. Is your address book current? Are you putting yourself out where people can see you?"

Gee, how am I suppose to answer for that? It tells it all. I really thought that I've sorted out my feelings and understood-ed them totally but confusion just arise once again. Is my horoscope guiding me to the correct pathway? Is it telling me not to waste my time and move on with life? But it hurts to see someone you care for so much isn't talking to you. The whole point is. I'm still not over it. Sigh. How can I be when I've actually done nothing wrong? I still feel so in doubt whenever... .... It just hurts me deeply. When can I come to my senses? Just when? I'm useless. One said, "The more you give, the more you will receive. Life is a replenshing resource." I totally and strongly do not agree with this sentence. What do you mean by the more you give the more you will receive? The more you give means the more you will lose out [loogi]. That's what I did. Give and give. In the end what happened? Made losses. Sigh. Don't believe that. People only take advantage of you when you give too much.

Just yesterday after my French class, I went to expo for the food fair. It's really small. Nothing much either. Cos what's exhibiting there now were there 2 months ago. So after awhile of browsing here and there, I just return home.

Oh yeah, French Class was kinda boring for me yesterday. I almost slept in class. Probably the lack of sleep last few days was the cause of it. Haha. And there was one part where someone in class has to ask one another a question which was "how old are you" in french. So everyone had their turns and left me. I was like out-cast. So when Christelle asked, "Qui na pas parle?"[Who hasn't speak?] and I raised up my hand and said "moi" in a really pathetic tone. Heh. And she went.. "awwww". It cracked everyone up. Haha. Which I think was quite an 'entertainment' to liven up the class spirits cos everyone seemed sleepy.

I'm going to expo with my mommy later. Gonna prepare my shopping list now. heh. Right now, I'm gonna think of nothing.

Bloggie!! I missed you so much!

This week has been a harsh one for me manz. Didn't blog for days, not because I'm lazy, but because I'm busy. Busy with MMD project, of course. I'm so shagged out of the entire week~! Tuesday and Thursday me and my ah ji were in school in the morning from 8 plus till the evening around 6 plus, doing MMD of course! Editing the pictures, doing collage in the image creator, animated gif.file and everything! I've never been so shagged and dedicated to doing powerpoint slides in my entire life! It's been so exhausting to stay up in the night to do the slides manz. I'd never wanna stare at the computer ever again. And Wednesday we went back for the Project Management test. I was mugging the hell outta myself on Tuesday night and Wednesday morning and the total marks of the paper was only 10 marks. -.- Okayyy.. What-ever!

Back to the process of doing my MMD project. It was really time consuming, cos from what I knew I had hardly any time to sleep nor rest nor toilet breaks. I was just rushing and rushing for my project. Then guess what? My computer had this virus and it constantly died on me during the critical time when I needed it the most manz. I had to restart my computer over again for the past few hours and it made me really irritated. SO. My life-saver appeared.

Thank you MR GOH.

I really had no choice cos of the bleedy computer played out on me. Now it seems to be working normally. Damn it. So I went over his house and "ton" over to rush the project that was due on Friday at 5pm. I started working on the slides until 5.30 in the morning before I had a short nap. After that, around 7 plus almost 8, I continued to work on it, at that time I left the sound recording part so it took me hours, and I meant HOURS, to be specific, THREE fucking hours to record a less than 2 minutes sound clip. [Ya, someone kept laughing at my pronounciation "offered" and distracting me. idiot.] So all in all, I completed the project at around 11. I went back from in the afternoon, and took a shower before I leave for school for the Business Etiqutte presentation that was supposedly to start at 4.30 pm. However, we started and finished earlier than we expected.

Thank you so much, I really appreciate your help and stayed up all night and accompany me to complete the project.


While waiting for the bus, Mr Sim, the CS lecturer called me. The conversation was like this:

Mr Sim: Hello? Is this Loon Yu Hui?

me: Err, yes, speaking..

Mr Sim: Oh okay, this is Mr Sim calling from NYP..

me: [cuts in] Mr Sim? The customer service lecturer ah?

Mr Sim: Wah, ya lor. How you know?

Me: Aiya sir! Oh course I remember you lah, even if I don't remember

you I still remember you telling us about the spaghetti and meatballs

wan lor! Hahaha!

Mr Sim: [laughs] Eh, you don't go and tell your parents, later I kenna

letter from them ah. Hahaha. Eh, your personal selling very

good leh, you got people order all the cakes from you, or is it you

buy everything for yourself wan?

Me: Wah sir, you want me to "fei si" ah? So many how to eat finish?

Later I grow very fat leh! Some are orders from my friends laaa..

Hahaha..

Mr Sim: Oh okay, no lah, I just doing a survey on personal selling to see if

you need any free delivery.

Me: Oh, that time they called me, then I told them no need cos my mom

coming...

Hahaha.. The conversation is something like that... I can't remember what else we talked but he's really friendly manz, although he looked cold on the outside.

After my presentation, I went back home before heading out to Raffles City to meet old man for a drink to chilllllll out. To reward myself for being such a hardworking ass, I treated myself with Java Chip Frappe from Starbucks. Woo~ Shoik. I went and reached home about 945pm. Shagged out. Totally.

Now, I have to prepare for French Class, taking a bus there. Heh. Meanwhile I'm going to take a nap. I am energy-less. Blog again. Ciao.

Sigh. Another Monday. [HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH JI!!!!!] Another new week. There's no school today [thank god]. I'm sitting in front of the com since 11, trying to download my project guidelines from the stupid CMS system. When I successfully logged into it, there's no file for me to download. [Just ended the phone conversation with my mom's friend.. Very long winded..] I tried to download it yesterday night, and my dad was like screaming at me asking me why haven't I gone to bed at 2. Sigh.

So. I saw this MMD and B.E project guidelines already. They are really... tough. Well, for MMD. I don't even understand the requirements! It's like they keep repeating the same thing over and over and over again, now I'm so confused. I haven't even got started with anything yet. My ica for PM, MMD, B.E is a goner. I'm trying to brainstorm, but my mind seems to portray a blank image. I dislike projects a lot manz, it's more of a burden than a fun thing to do. Well I mean sometimes you do get some fun doing projects. However not in an individual project though. It's stressful, and more and a lot more work are to be done by yourself.

The weather's a little dusky, it was gloomy just now and had thunder, and it's not raining. Now it's bright and sunny.

My mom's not at home, neither is my dad. I'm all alone STUCK with this pathetic looking biatch. [Wow. I sound harsh. Sorry :p] Oh, just now I thought I was gonna lose my tongue. I was eating the barley and because of the braces, I have this habit of picking food using my tongue [heh heh.. might sound gross but no choice manz. =)] and the next moment I knew the flesh under my tongue was stuck onto the braces. Sheesh. I tried all my ways of getting it out but I can't. So in the end I just forced it out and now I'm bleeding. Inside my mouth. Gosh. It hurts so much that the pain triggers to the entire tongue. Geez.

Sigh! I don't wanna put on make up on the presentation! I'd look like a baboon's ass! All these requirements are driving me nitwit! Argh. Shan't think about it anymore. I shall just slack on the whole day. Period.

My cosy corner.. with a lot of rubbish!

Too many stuff... SO messy!

I feel especially utterly depressed today. Maybe because my mom and dad aren't talking to each other. I don't know what's going on between, but it seemed "hot". From what I know, it might concern the maid. She's always trying to act in front of my dad. One fine day, I'm just going to tell her straight in the face to ask her to get lost and go back to her damn country where HAZE originated. I wouldn't wanna interfere in their business, but being their only child and daughter, I wouldn't want anything to happen between. They became my worry from the day I came to my senses. My mom started blabbering nonsensical stuff last night, cos she was pretty upset by what my dad had said or done to her. Partly, or maybe mostly, it's my dad's fault. He started the whole stupid quarrelling session first. I mean, that's the only thing I know. Not from my mom, but you see, he has this "won't-admit-defeat" kind of character in him that makes people around him annoyed with him. [Told you before he's a bird brain.]

You know, the more I hear or see the situations that they bicker with each other, the more I find them childish than ever. They are just acting like a three year old, or rather even younger! It really hurts me to see them be in these situations whereby they are totally ignoring each other, and I feel really helpless because I can't do anything to salvage the problem! If I poke my nose into their problem, things would definitly get worse. Serious. I've done that before, and I don't wish to do that. Once bitten, twice shy. And being a single child isn't cool. It's not even like I would feel happy or contented if I have everything in the world. People, if you guys have siblings, better count yourselves lucky. Don't even think about the times they used to snatch toys from you or who mommy and daddy pampers more... If anything happens, you'll still have or can lend one another's support. I don't. My parents won't be here with me in my entire life although I wish they would be. If anything happens to them [choy], I'll be all alone. I'm not a filial child to them, I argue, talk/snap back at them. But I told my mom yesterday, that if anything were to happen to one of them, it would drastically change my life. I have one mom and one dad in my life, and I don't wish anything will ever happen to them. All I want is a happy family. I'm a family-oriented girl. The people in my top priority list are my parents. No one comes before them. I really do love them. The way I define lucky, is to have a happy family with no conflicts.

And I really don't understand you men. I mean, what the hell is wrong with you people? Men are such horrible creatures that always make women feel shit. I'm not saying I hate men totally, but they are really... such incorrigible bunch that I'd just smash them up if I have that kind of ability. The only thing they know is when they are interested in you, try to get into your heart and melt it and make you succumb to them. Once you're his, he'll let go a little, no longer treat you the way he did before when he tried to woo you and blah blah and hurt you and make you feel depressed, things don't work out and ta-dah the whole relationship comes to an end. Well, not ALL guys are like this, but for what I know some men around me are like that. Because of their "ridiculous" character or behavior, it brings me back to the past experiences that I have had, which made me feel even more discourage to start another relationship.

I just want to let myself know that the things I do, the decisions I make would not leave me any regrets. Just that I was being let down, and disappointment in the midst of nothing, and now it's not the way that it's meant to be. Everything just vanished into thin air. Including dreams, hope, determination and my confidence. It's all being washed away. Sometimes I can't help but to think of it. Of course, come to think of it, it fills in much more sadness than happiness. Oh well, this is life. You win some, you lose some. Guess if something were to happen, they meant to be happened. You can't literally change the way it is, right?

I'm really glad I wrote all these out in my blog, it's like I got something out from my chest. Thank you all for reading.

In the end, I still didn't make it to the motor show.

It was one of my best times of my life last evening. =)

Firstly, I would like to thank Ivan, Xiang Yong, Desmond, Sherona and JS for the wonderful evening yesterday. Thank you all for the movie plus dinner treat, and the cab ride. I really truly appreciate it. *touched*

Yesterday I left my house for French Class at 1230pm [My class starts at 1430hours]. The reason of leaving early was I took a bus [for the very first time] instead of a train. I feared that I would be late for class as I thought the bus ride would take over an hour. Therefore I left extra early. Well, the weather was not beautiful either. It was dark and gloomy. I waited for about 10 minutes before the bus came, and I met Hui Hui [CCSS junior]. Together, we took 48 together. I wasn't really sure if the bus will reach Sarkies Road although I passed by the bus-stop twice and saw 48 on the board. =P I asked the bus driver and he was like, "where is Sarkies Road" and I'm like, "[Shit] near Bukit Timah Road there, never mind, I just take first]." All the while in the bus there was an only feeling in me - FEAR. I called JS when I was approaching Marine Parade. She couldn't help me much too, but I just called her. -.- She told me to get down the bus and take a cab if I sensed the bus is not bringing me to the right destination. It rained really heavy on my way to class.

A while later, the thought of "Newton MRT station" struck me. I went to the bus driver immediately and asked if he would drive pass Newton Mrt. He said YES!!! Phew. I was like "thank god" manz! And guess what time I reached Alliance Française? 1330hours. -.- It took me 45 minutes to reach there. It was still pouring and my slippers were all soaking wet. Went to the Olio Cafe to look around, which the ice chocolate with ice cream attracted me. Didn't bring enough cash with me. I've got only 4 bucks in my bag. Couldn't find an ATM machine too. So I went to class at about 1415hours, sat down and waited. People were running late, and the lastest person who got here was Aaron, at 1525hours. Almost an hour late. Hahaha. Everyone was like, "De sole, je suis en retard." It means, "Sorry I'm late". HAHAHA. Class was fun, and I found out that the Thai lady in my class is a lecturer in NYP! She is teaching in the school of Design, I think, cos she teaches animation. =)

After class, I went to meet JS and her friends [mentioned above] to catch a movie [Flushed Away] at Cineleisure. *Thumbs up* The animation was really fantastic and it was hilarious! I was laughing me arse out. When the movie ended, I was still hesitating whether or not to go dinner with them [they were celebrating JS's birthday] and I made up my decision eventually and we walked to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Desmond's gf. Took a bus to Kallang [Indoor Stadium]. We were dining at the "Cosy Bay", you know where many Singapore drama series shot their scenes there, the one with the bridge. So cool manz! We were literally on the second last floor and the night scenery were beautiful, apart from the bit of haze. I had Fish and Chips and they were good. REAL good. Better than Swensens and Cartel's. I'm really glad I went, apart of not footing in the bill. I felt so bad. That's why the second sentence of my entry I wrote my "thank you message". =)))

After having dinner, singing birthday songs and cake-cutting ceremony, we stay a little while more, till about 11, we left. Before that I was like telling Xiang Yong that my mom probably locked up the doors and slept already and he was like, "huh, aiyo, ok ok we leave now..." and I was like, "eh, hello, got keys can open lah!" hahahaha.. I think he got a bit tipsy. HAHAHAHA. [Shhh.. Don't let him see this :) ] I "shared" a cab with Desmond and Sherona whom both I'm thankful of.. They gave me a lift home manz. Sigh. I'm so... touched. These are nice bunch of people manz. Thank you thank you thank you all so so so so much! :)

Oh yeah, Xiang Yong haven't sent the pictures, so I'll just have to wait. Meanwhile, I took some and these are the ones:

Raining...

Lights not up @ Orchard Road

My favourite Perrier

Delicious "Fish and Chips"

Taking a long time in the W.C


Am supposed to meet my lecturer today at The National Library down at Bugis, but he texted me a message saying that he won't be able to make it, which what I was hoping for last night! Oh my god.. I'm so zhun. :p

I'm so free today. I don't even know what to do. Tomorrow I'm gonna go French class again! Can't wait. The motor show starts today manz, I'm so so so tempted to go. But I'm left with 4 bucks this week, so broke manz!I can't even afford to go watch a movie. Sigh.

The whole day I've been doing nothing but eat. I think I've gained a few kilos manz. I'm gonna shed the fats off my body. How how how!!! I want to attend the motor show... Sob. It's until next weekend, but my schedule for next week and the week after next would be super packed. ICAs and projects are up. Don't even have time to visit Palawan.

I almost forgot. I have my dental appointment tomorrow. That reminds me.. No idea what colour should I put on the braces. Haiz, anyway.. I'm gonna meddle with my stuff. Blog again. Ciao.

JS and me @ Palawan

Ahh yes.. Another day passed. Today's the official last day of our classical modules. Awww, so sad. TEP stopovers are gonna start soon! No more boring lessons nor lectures anymore. Meaning projects and icas are to be conducted next week, and guidelines are yet to be out and the submission date is like next week and the week after next. The time given is so little, and expect us to complete everthing in 2 weeks?! Sigh. This ain't fair manz! I've settled my personal selling, and it was at this corner shop of shopping arcade. The queue was long, and the staff there took a long time to get things settled. JS and me waited for almost half an hour for our turns. While waiting, the girls behind us were really noisy, they talked and laughed so loud, and the tidbits they ate fell on the floor and they were blaming each other. -.- I mean, that shop is such a small, compact place and they are talking aloud? Hello? Can't you people lower your volumes? Can't stand it.

Anyway, I took the train home as usual. I observed quite a number of interesting and vexing stuff peopledo to either make you laugh or make you get annoyed. Like just now, when I boarded the train at Raffles Place, there was this 3 "gays" look alike [don't know if they are or not] and they were.. yeah, behaving so gay-ish. They were like [in chinese], "Actually I never work tomorrow, but dunno why in the end got work.." Haha.. Wanted to laugh but didn't. It wouldn't be nice. =) As the train was terribly crowded [by right it's wasn't even supposed to be], I moved into the centre of the train, and there was this malay lady [people of other races who happen to read my blog, please do not get intimidated] who came in at City Hall. I had a feeling she would get down at Paya Lebar. So she was standing beside me. When this man got off his seat and alight round the next stop, she pushed me and rushed to the empty seat, causing me to accidentally hit someone with my bag. I gave the malay woman a glaring stare. I was so angry, why can't she open her damn mouth and say, "excuse me"? Is it a very difficult thing to do or rather say? She's so inconsiderate, the seat is not even in front of her. She's being so - not courteous. And I was damn right, she got off at Paya Lebar.

Yeah. That was all for today. It's really infuriating when you meet situations like this. Sigh. Oh, today is going to be a long entry as I deleted the entry I wrote yesterday.. It sounded ironic. Haha. Anyway people, please bear with my naggings. :))))

So yesterday Jasmine, Fang Yean, JS and me headed to Sentosa. My very first visit there! Heh-heh. Me and Jas were already planning it on Monday night.. Call me sua ku, but at least I stepped onto the beach for the very first time. :) I passed by the beach on the monorail everytime I went to Sentosa when I was a kid but didn't get the chance to go to the beach. We met at 930 in the morning and Jas and FY were "a little" late. Hahaha. So me and JS went to Vivo to walk around. Well, I must say, Vivo is really humongous, and it seemed like an endless place to shop. However, I wouldn't call it the "shoppers haven", cos it's too huge and if you wanna get to this particular boutique you got to find and walk and walk.. Shops are more on specialty or exclusive type. Meaning expensive lah! Besides that, nothing much.

Headed back to the mrt and alas! The two arrived. LOL. We went to Vivo again, cos both of them wanted to buy breakfast but we couldn't find BK and when we found it, it's not even open for business. Haha. So we all decided to head to Sentosa for Sakae and while waiting, we took quite a number of pictures. They called it "cam-whoring". I guess we were that. hahaha. Anyway, it was raining on and off and we felt depressed over when's the sun gonna come out. We took this really cute "shuttle bus" to Siloso Beach. The weather's really unpredictable. The moment we went into Sakae, the sun came out. When we finished eating, it started to drizzle. We then walked to Palawan and managed to find a shelter there and started to take pictures again. LOL. Walked again and found this eating place for ice cream and there were proper chairs for us to suntan! YAY! Ordered this $11.50 Classique ice cream and they were GOOD. Took a dip in the sea and I don't know why I tasted the salty water. It's disgusting. I was quite disappointed though, cos I didn't get the tan I wanted. But today, I'm starting to think that I might be burnt, cos my shoulders hurts. We left around 4 plus, and find the food that was "in need" to satisfy my craving - Laksa. I still prefer the one located at my house downstairs. Still the best I've ever eaten. I took a bus home, it's a direct bus. hehe. A "tragic" thing happened. I couldn't see the way I walked and I bumped onto the top of the bus when I wanted to sit down. Hurt so badly manz. And I fell asleep, the same thing happened. When the bus came to a halt, I hit my head on the bus. You see, I was sitting right at the back of the double- decked bus.

One hour later, I reached home. It was a long bus ride, and tiring one too. Alright, that's all. Heh. I still wanna go! When are you people in for Sentosa outing again man? Here are some pics we took. Well, there are more pictures, but Jas haven't send them to me so.. Yeah, gotta wait till next time. Anyway, those unglamourous ones can't be put up. So sorry manz :)


Palawan, where madness begins.

The beach

In the cute mini "bus" [fy on phone.. Yikes! =)]

JS and me outside Sakae waiting....

Waiting and waiting... Meddling with my stuff..

Stoning.....

YaWNing... ! ZzzZZZz

Sleeping...

Anger! Sun's not out!!!

Smiling :))))

The gurls :)

Taking pics for the "next top model"

Eh.. Hello! :)

A kiss from me to you!

Thank you gals for the wonderful time!!! Love ya to bits :)

Today's lesson was ultra boring. This week is also the last week of our classical module -Business Etiquette. Well, it's all about grooming, your clothes and everything, basically learning how you make yourself presentable. And during the 30 minutes break, Fang Yean, Jasmine, Ah ji and me took funny pictures ... haha.. Make up lesson for CS was also conducted this morning and finally Miss Yik is early. Thank god. Seriously, her lessons are also really dull. Anyway, I'm not gonna brood over it cos it's over baby!

After class about 4, I went to PS to meet my senior [haha] for coffee at TCC. I was like so lost inside PS cos I didn't know there was a TCC there. heh heh. The oreo frapp was delicious man, didn't regret ordering at all. Heh. Then, about 2 hours or so we headed home. Hahaha.. Same MRT stop. Lolx.

Oh boy. I'm full. Although I didn't eat much. Anyway, I'm meeting the guys at 11 tomorrow for some BT project. Haiz, my personal selling is gonna be super gone case. I haven't got any people to buy from me. Sad manz.

My plans for the week are almost full. Should be quite busy for this whole week. From projects to icas to outing to projects again. Aw, gosh. I wanna sleep early tonight manz, my eyes are so droopy now.

I should say, I'm glad that I'm actually feeling better cos there's no use brooding over the past. If things were meant to happen this way, it just happened. I shouldn't trust people so easily. I suppose I'm purely just dumb. Sigh. I'm dreading school!! I feel like working.. I need more cash! CASH!!! Where is my money!!!!!!

Had my hair done up today, highlighted it a little red, which my dad is so against of me colouring my hair. Hee. My mom did it for me though, after an effortless move of pursuasion =) Hey, you're reading the blog of a professional hair stylist's daughter okayyyy. Hahaha. Just kiddin. But the fact on my mom being a pro is.. She really is a pro. I could never ever forget that she "boasted" to me that she styled up celebrities' hair like "Xiao Fang Fang, Cheng Bao Zhu" and those whom were really famous during the olden days. Anyway, I figured that last week was a disastrous week or rather a "bad hair week" for me, so I decided to brighten up a little by adding some colour. The result was alright, not very red though, but it is more obvious compared to the other times I coloured my hair. Wanted to have a colour that is more obvious and outstanding, but I think I'll wait for a while more, perhaps little older cos my dad would totally freak out and not acknowledge me then I'd be dead.. Deep shit.

As I was saying, I wanted to bring my parents out for maybe lunch or dinner ever since I got my pay. I didn't get to treat my dad, I gave my mom a treat instead. Ordered Pizza Hut at 2 for $21.90 and 2 garlic bread at $2.50. My, they were delicious manz. Haven't had pizza like about 1 year already? Yeah. That long.

My dad got the dates wrongly I think. He asked me if I wanted to go to the wine fair this evening, and cos just now my mom drove past expo, there wasn't any banners that advertise on the wine fair. It's over, isn't it? Well, nevermind that anyway. Just that we typical Singaporeans don't get the chance to have free wine samples. :D

There's this man in my house now, trying to fix up the "exploded" tee vee set that screwed up the last 2 weeks. He looks abit freaky, cos he's like.. weird. Oh no. I'm having waffle cravings now. Old man isn't free man, no khaki for waffles treat.

Well, gotta go take a shower before I sit in front of the com again. Cos Pepper had all her saliva on me when I tried to play with her. Ewww.

Blog again then. Ciao =)

I was back almost half an hour ago. Firstly in the afternoon, I met old man for my waffles treat at Waffles Town in Newton, where it was really near my French class. It's only about 3 to 5 minutes walk. I must say, the waffles there tasted superb. Best of the waffles I'd ever eaten. Thanks manz, old man. Anyway, just chit chat abit and I had to head for class at 230pm.

Well, class today was interestingly funny and incredible. There were another 2 new students and our teacher, Christelle, came. She's quite petite, and kinda cute. Haha. We had to do this self-introduction again which was quite different from what Jerome taught us. Anyway, I had a lot of fun in class.

After class ended, I met up with Janis [my long lost ninja mate] and the guys [eb, aunty wong, adeline, jenelle and serene] in Orchard. Went to walk around at Far East and I tried to keep myself from spending money on clothes and I did it! YAY! Haha. I had the cheesy sausage from Chippy and it's wonderful manz. I must say, I ate quite little today. Big improvement. I have to constantly remind myself that I have to control my diet and stop eating cos it seemed like I'm putting on weight already. So.. I must come to a stop. After that, me and donnie bought bubble tea [I had Pearl Milk Tea and she had SRT] and the pearls were super puny manz.. It tasted nice as well. Heh. Then we walked our way back to Heeren to take neo print. Speaking about that neoprint machine.. It really cmi. Really. There was an error twice! And the sound of the error sounded like the ambulance siren. So we had to wait for 10minutes before we could start designing and decorating our pictures. The poses of us.. Ah, shan't speak about it. Looks a bit horrible. So we waited and waited and talked about things that happened to catch up with the times. Haha. I realised that donnie's temper had become more "bao zao", she started scolding the machine and all.. LOL.

After that, I came home. And on my way back, I met some of my secondary school seniors and CYS. Yeap. Started to talk to them.. haha, quite funny. I talked to one of my friends' secret admirer when we were still in seconday school. HaHAhaa. Anyway, that's in the past. =)

Well.. I think that's for all today. I wanna go to that waffle place again!!

I've been glued onto You-Tube for ANTM and I'm already watching cycle 7 of it! Heh =)

Well, school sucked today. A Lot. and I mean it. How I wish I could complain to the director or who-ever that holds the most powerful authority in SBM. That "Cecelia" or should I say, our customer service lecturer was LATE! Ah ji and me were in school around 845 in the morning and we waited outside the class until 9 plus and still, she wasn't here. Jasmine and Kai Siang pia cab all the way to school and gosh, she's still not here by 10 am! That's like one freakin' hour late! I reckoned she don't have any sense of punctuality. That's from me. We were all discussing that we should leave by 10 or rather, 955 if she haven't turn up. Yeah. She didn't. So we left her a note and names and our admin number and we were off. If she didn't want to teach, she can just tell us and then we need not force ourselves out of bed to get to lesson! The other day when we were having her lesson, we reminded her that our class would start at 9 in the morning on Friday. Maybe she thought the class started at 1 today. She's a real ass. A plain dumb ass.

Around 11 plus, she called JS and she passed the phone to me. The lecturer was apologising that she couldn't make it to class and came up with all sorts of excuses and apologised again. What can I say? I felt so irritatingly frustrated and on the outside, I had to say, "never mind it's okay.. it's okay.. Don't worry about it." and the next moment she said, "anyway, just to let you know there's a make up lesson at 10 to 12 on monday morning." I was like.... What the hell?! I felt like giving her 2 tight slaps! Not only was she late, and we weren't, and now what? Make up lessons?! She's NUTS! A complete nut with no shell man! If there's any feedback session, I'm gonna make her until die.. Mark her so terribly down. She's going to be so so so miserable if she meets people like me. I ain't gonna give her a damn shit I tell ya.

On the other hand, on the brighter side of the day, today is rather a fruitful day for me. I bought lots of things, cos I just got my pay the last 2 days I think, and it was kinda a shopping spree for me. And I'm quite elated as it made me forgot all the sorrows that I've been through the past few days. I'm slowly adjusting to the current situation I'm in for now, and it's still the same words from me, I'm daunted. I have a fear in me and I don't wish to commit myself so much or else it'll be quite depressing for me again.

Anyway, my maid had returned from her so called "holiday trip". Am not really psyched to see her too. When I came back just now, she thought I don't know that she had returned, she came out like, "Ta-dahh.. Yu Hui.. I'm home!" But I cut her off before she could say anything. "I know you are back." I told her coldly, and added, " So what? I don't give you a damn whether or not you are back." I'm being a meanie. :D Actually, I'm more used to the kind of life whereby I have to do everything on my own which I have been doing the past 2 weeks or so. Well, she's going to stay for a few more months and it's bye-bye-don't-come-back-anymore for her.

That's all for today people. I'm extreamly exhausted and I'm gonna have an early night today. Ciao =)

I didn't blog only for a day, and it seemed a little weird for me.

Well, anyway I'm doing better today, school was fun too. Me and Fang Yean were considering the other day whether to skip the lesson or not, because there was this zany "Entangling Rope" game scheduled in the workshop's lesson plan and another presentation that were supposed to have in class and we "were supposed to" prepare powerpoint slides, in an hour and a half including finding information and everything plus a 10%. What was the 10% about? I felt troubled over it, and decided to go to school, or else they'll do something to debar you from ICAs. However, it wasn't the part of it.

During class, we were "forced" to watched this customer service video, "how to handle complaints" and they were kinda boring yet interesting. Kept repeating the whole scenario and I was like yawning and gosh-when-is-this-gonna-end feeling. After that, the lecturer shared some interesting stories when he was still in SIA before he came into NYP. He said that one of the air stewardess was serving food [Spaghetti and meatballs] to a passenger on the plane and another stewardess came with the gravy sauce and asked the passenger who was an "ang moh" : "Sir, would you like some sauce on your balls?" And I was like.. OMG. How could she ever said that manz! Of course, she got fired. Hahaha.. Everyone was like laughing to the verge of out-of-breadth. Hahahaha.. And class was dismissed as early as 1515hours. YAY! Class was really fun. Didn't regret at all to attend it. But tomorrow's lesson.. Well.. I don't know. We'll see about it.

I felt so so so much better today already, and I tried my very best not to think about problems that occured the past few days. How-very-ever, I have the feeling of being daunted and emptiness in me... It was a sudden thing for me.. It's like I'm left with nothing at all. All these days the people that was truly there to support me and being there for me was my bao bei err and "OM" heh heh. I wanna thank them so much manz, for being there whenever I needed them the most, and also to cheer me up when I'm feeling vexed and weary. Thank you guys so much. I really really really feel appreciated for what you did to make me to let me "relive". It wasn't so bad after all. Thanks a very huge bunch. =)

Am looking forward for my waffle on Sat! =)

Promised myself I won't be so weak.
I'm sick, tired and confident-less about starting another.
Don't ever worry, cos I'm not gonna let my tears roll down so easily.
Gonna be tough, tough, tough!! Heh =)


Well... Not until tomorrow comes. Let me cry for this one last time.
Luckily tomorrow no school, if not my eyes would be like super puffy. :)

Today’s really a real shit day for me manz, although it’s Halloween. On Sunday, I prayed that my week would be great, but it turned out to be the pits of the pits... meaning shit.

By right, I’m supposed to meet Ah ji at YCK MRT station at 1230, but I didn’t. My feelings were ruined today. Very very ruined. I reached Tanah Merah Mrt and I was so uncomfy with my clothes, and I went home and changed it. It was like 1130am manz. I’m so dead late if I took the train again manz. Sigh. My clothes just didn’t suit my feelings today. I’m just trying to pretend to be who I’m not. I don’t like it at all. I’m just so depressed.

Class started at 1 and the bloody teacher was late! She thought class starts at 2! What the hell. She’s a damn ass manz. If she didn’t come at 2 I’m gonna go off. And she went on with some questions of techniques for listening… Some stupid questions she asked! God. Like, “how many birthdays do an average man has?” -.-
If she’d come on time, class would end at 3 man. And I can like just go home. Waste of time. I’m thinking whether or not to come on Thursday. Feel like taking MC. Although this module on customer service is quite interesting and dull, there’s a lot of like presenting and brainstorming and discussion. Yeah, but so what? I’m practically not paying attention to every single lesson!

I missed “America’s Next Top Model” last night. Darn it. Maybe there’s too much things on my mind. It doesn’t matter who caused me to be miserable, but I’d rather be the one suffering. The starting of “Power of Desire” was like this: “Falling for a fantasy, I threw away my destiny; I don’t know where to stop, feeling broken-hearted…” and the second verse is like: “Take me back to yesterday, When all our dreams were swept away, I'd never crossed that line, I changed across of time…” Meaningful eh? Well, for some of you maybe you don't. Never mind that anyway.
Haiz… I didn’t cross that line. I was like many steps away from it. I didn’t wanna cross it. What you people see in front of you nowadays isn’t me. I’m just putting up a brave front. I can just break down anytime if I can’t control myself.

Well, tried consoling myself endlessly but maybe I’ll succeed one fine day and get over it. Although it’s only a short period of time, I really enjoyed myself tremendously.

“It’s alright, it’s alright, You don’t have to stop the way you’re feeling, cos you’ve got time to get it right, Let your mind know where it’s leading, It’s alright, it’s alright, It’s alright, it’s alright” and “If you follow your heart and believe, You’ll be excited by what you’ll achieve, Don’t be afraid to find a way.” So true, right?

“When you feel the dream is over, feel the world’s on your shoulders, and you’ve lost the strength to carry on. Even though the walls may crumble, and you find you always stumble through, remember never to surrender to the dark. Cos if you turn another page, you will see that’s not the way the story has to end. And if you need to find a way back, feel you’re on the wrong track, give it time, you’ll learn to fly. Tomorrow is a new day, and you will find your own way, you’ll be stronger with each tear that you cry, then you’ll learn to fly…”

“In your head so many questions, the truth is your possession. The answer lies within your heart. You will see the doors are open, if you only dare to hope and you, will find a way to fight the fears that kept you down. Cos if you turn another page, you will see it’s not the way the story has to end. And if you need to find a way back, feel you’re on the wrong track, give it time, you’ll learn to fly. Tomorrow is a new day, and you will find your own way, you’ll be stronger with each tear that you cry, then you’ll learn to fly…”

“Looking at your situation, there’s so much that you can do, now it’s time to make your stand. This is just an observation, in the end it’s up to you, the future’s in your hands… And if you need to find a way back, feel you’re on the wrong track, give it time, you’ll learn to fly. Tomorrow is a new day, and you will find your own way, you’ll be stronger with each tear that you cry, then you’ll learn to fly…”

“Give it time, then you’ll learn to fly.”

Well, who doesn’t grow up through experiences they’ve encountered, right? I’ll give myself time, and I’ll learn to fly :)