Appreciation.

I just reached home, and am super exhausted. Totally wiped out. This year is pretty bad because my grandma and aunt passed away, and some of my dad's friends' mom and dad and... Sigh.

My dad is seriously making me go bonkers. I'm giving in to him, does he know that? Do you realise that, dad? Sigh. And he cut his hair.. Erm.. He looks like Jim Carrey's hairstyle in that movie.. I can't quite remember the name of the movie.

This morning I went to the gym at XY's cousin condo near my place. I walked all the way there, and I'm already pespiring. Tsk. I was late, but it wasn't intentional, cos I was deciding whether or not to sun tan and bring all my belongings there. I didn't, in the end, cos I figured that it might rain and my bag is really cumbersome and bulky. So when I got ready, it was about 1025. Ah shit, late! But nevermind lah, peng yiu was really patient, he waited for my "arrival" for about 15 minutes. Thanks ah. Lolx. I was there for about 2 hours and peng yiu here went swimming after that. He said gym was not really for him. Well, apparently I think so too, because he came down from the treadmill in less than 10 minutes. Damn funny, I was still a idiot in using gym equipment until an uncle like "kan bu xia qu" and taught me how to pull the weights thingy. Hahaha. So embarrassing. OH. I almost forgot. Peng yiu came to my house today! Hahahaha. [Peng yiu, honoured anot? Shhh. =X] He met my mom and ahhahahha... I don't know how it went, should ask him if you wanna know.. My mom even treat him "xiao wan mian" Woo~ "jia che yao kan shang mian and kan xia mian hor, peng yiu?" LOL. He told me he "CS". Eh, my mom is really nice manz, haha. Don't want to suan you already, PENG YIU! Hahaha.

Oh. I went to this place at B.P just now, and this uncle really enlightened me. Or should I say I am enlightened by him. Sorry, can't reveal here. It's something personal. I took some pictures of my cousin with different effects out of boredom.

All the same poses. Haha.


Here's something I'd like to share:

• Be grateful to those who have hurt or harmed you, for they have reinforced your determination.
• Be grateful to those who have deceived you, for they have deepened your insights.
• Be grateful to those who have hit you, for they have reduced your karmic obstacles.
• Be grateful to those who have abandoned you, for they have taught you to be independent.
• Be grateful to those who have made you stumble, for they have strengthened your ability.
• Be grateful to those who have denounced you, for they have increased your wisdom and concentration.
• Be grateful to those who have made you firm and resolute and helped in your achievements.

I'm feeling grateful.

in chinese

How do you like it? =)

Oh my god!!! YAY!!! I can finally blog, after 2 days!!! My goodness gracious me! I miss my blog! I'm so glad that the net is finally working now. I love you man, blog. Muaaaack! =))

This entry will be a super long one, I think, because of the past 2 days can't blog. SO sad huh. All my friends can log into the net and I was like the only one who can't. Earthquake in Taiwan huh. Caused me misery! And also cause my peng yiu to be miserable, cos he said he missed my daily blogging so much :)), and also the things I suan him. heh. I didn't know I had such loyal reader! Bu kui shi wo de peng yiu :)

[PS*Peng yiu, today's your lucky day! I have decided not to suan you in today's entry :p]

Right. On Wednesday:
If I recall correctly, it rained, and I was like by 10 minutes for school, which... luckily Mr Tan haven't come into the project room to take attendence. He came in after awhile later and talked about the earthquake thingy which I wasn't aware of that time. He was really "lor sor", talked for so long, like giving a speech or something. Sigh. So he said everywhere was affected, can't go online and that.. Until I went to IBRC to like try using the com to sign into msn, then I realised it's really... gone case. It was still in the morning! What the hell am I supposed to do man!? Ah ji said she can't log into msn too. We were like, ah. Dead. Until 6pm!!! We met donnie and Sab to go lunch, although we already had ours, walked twice to South Canteen. Heh. After that, we went to IBRC to, ah, as usual, bond, and cam whored in the toilet. One word. Unglamourous. Cos really, there was nothing to do! I'm so glad that this whole thing is almost or maybe I don't know, over... And I can like blog and go online. Hurry up and fix it, people!

In the late afternoon, PENG YIU came, about 4. I remember that! Hee. He came up and took a look at the "girl in green, that addresses me by that term". He drove here, of course! He drove me and ah ji to AMK to walk around for awhile, and then went back to school. I bought the super nice "curry pok", and the suga melaka from Bengawan Solo and Pearly Soya Milk. =) No dinner for me! Haven't finish the log cake at home. Speaking of driving, surprise surprise XY! I got pictures of you =) They'll be up at the really end of the post. Oh!! I was also really lucky on Wednesday, seriously. I was wondering if I should take the risk to wear slippers to school or not, and in the end I wore shoes, cos somehow I think that Cindy Soh is back, and she is! My goodness. She walked past me and I was like "Heng ah, luckily I never wear slippers, if not I sure die." How lucky of me.

About 6, XY damn nice manz! Haiz.. HE SENT ME HOME!!!! PENG YIU! Kam xia! I didn't have to squeeze with the crowd in City Hall and all. I didn't have to rush home to watch Tian wai fei xian. I'm so obsessed with that show! Dong Yong is such a hottie =) [DOn't you agree with me, Donnie?] Wanted to blog after the show ended, but so unfortunately the connection is down, so I slept at 840pm. Early!

Yesterday [Thursday]:
Was a super bored bored dull dull day. In the morning, me and Faizal went to play badminton and the game last for like 20 minutes, cos I was pespiring so profusely and didn't even bring another shirt to change. My other team mates from BSU came too, and haha, we had fun. :) If you say BSU isn't fun, that's not totally true, cos at least the people are fun! Me and ah ji "self - breaked" until about 3. We needed something to do to kill time. Yes. After lunch we went up to the library, and stayed there for a couple of hours before we return. BOring boring!

Internet was still down. OH!! I took my block leave and flexi-leave already! If you don't see me in school, means I'm on leave! =)

Glad that the day ended, and wished that peng yiu can send me home again lah! Hahaha, joking lah. Interesting stuff happened on the way home, and yeah.. people whom I shared it with know lah, huh.. No need me to type the conversation again. Lolx.

TODAY:
WOO~ TGIF! Finally finally finally... It's been such a long wait. I came to school three days only eh. Thanks to M.S on a weekend that's why I had a day off. Doing picture editing now and 5.30 today, don't need to rush home again. Can just take my own sweet time. The day seems good, no rain but sun! YAY! It's out, it's out!!! Later there's pot luck with our PEM [but I still wish Mike Cheong was still here. He's my ou xiang :)]. That's all for now, will update again.

Our class gathering =)

Yup. Am back home =) How glad. I can surf and log into msn successfully at home. Aw. Thank you to who-ever repaired the cables. It's still a little slow, but it's alright. The potluck session with our PEM and long time no see classmates were wonderful! We caught up with times and everything, and tomorrow Pei Tian and Lynn are going to France! Gonna miss them manz, and Felicia going to Germany next Wednesday. Sigh. Anyway, I wish them the best of luck there. So good huh, if I go I sure can't concentrate studying cos I'll be eyeing for and looking out for ang moh shuai ge[s]. Hahaha. People know me well you know what I mean huh. Lolx.

Mispelled word "project" [by ah ji]

Ah ji went out with her mates at BSU, and I went home for my 7pm chn U show.

No eating in the train, see that sign? Yeah. Haha

[PS* Peng Yiu, look forward to looking your pic hor :p]
Parking

Walking up, but faceless [can't see his face lah, not mei you lian :p]
Drivng off!!

Sian 1/2. It just stopped loading half way.

My leave application site ;)

Haha.. Chilling out.. And that's the life in bsu

This entry is specially dedicated in memory to my Peng Yiu, Xiang Yong.

[LoL]

Me dear friend and his gay partner, shopping. They got shopping bags with them!

[He's still alive lah, don't anyhow think.. =p]

My day off today! Right. I stayed at home the whole day, because it's pouring out there, yes yes, since last night.

Sigh. I'm seriously really disappointed with my dad. It's not that I don't respect him, but I really hate his actions and the way he behaves towards my mom, his attitude and everything. He's like setting a bad example in a guy that I normally don't see in other guys, and this is something that makes me really pissed and makes me really afraid that I'll end up with someone like him. I'm thinking too much, too far, but what can I do? A real life example is there, right in this household. I really can't take it anymore.

I don't want to hate him, but can you imagine the way he behaves? It stinks. And it sucks! That's why I'm saying I'm disappointed. I was taking a nap just now, and the phone kept ringing, and I just ignored it. He called and called. Three times. Then called the house. Because there was only my mom and me at home, and obviously I was sleeping and she was watching the telly, she answered the phone. And I could hear that she was hello-ing and apparently the other side just kept quiet and hung up. Evil right? Hello DADDY? You call home please just speak ok? Damn. I was so pissed and I just sprang out of my bed and returned his "emergency fooking" call, since he called me thrice. I asked him what he wanted. And he asked me why didn't I answer his calls! [DADDY!!! I'm SLEEPING! how to talk in my sleep? Wah piang eh. BTH.] Then I asked him why he called home and don't want to talk. [Okay, let me just cool down a while. I'm really pissed, really fucking pissed now.] He just said,"I don't want to hello lah." Wah, if he isn't my dad I'd just give that bloody person two tight bloody hard slaps that he'll never forget. [Wo shuo dao zuo dao lor] I got really irritated that I just hung up the call without letting him finish his sentence. See how he treats my mom? If there are any guys out there who are like my dad, please. PLEASE. P-L-E-A-S-E STAY AWAY FROM ME.

My dad came back and take the log cake and he just rudely asked my mom to open the door for him. I called him and he just ignored me!? WTF?!! Then when he went out, he took the keys and locked the door and throw the keys inside. Double wtf?!!! This is also shit for me, cos he's always using this kind of way to threaten not to give me poket money. He already owes me 550 bucks manz! My bank now has a huge hole! And last week he didn't even give me allowance, and I'm in debt.. ALL OVER! Haiz. I don't like the way he uses this method or should I say "shou duan" to tie me down.. It's really pressurizing and I'm living in poverty now. Sigh. I'm not in the right mood this instant. I just wanna vent my anger. Sigh. I seriously need to get a life.

Woo~~ I'm a hyperlly [if the word exists] super duper happy girl today. Let me tell you what I did today :)

First, let me just wish everyone Merry X'mas. =)
Okay. I shall begin. It was a busy day for me earlier today.
I woke up at 7 plus and fell asleep again until 10, when ah ji called and woke me up. Lucky thing she did, or else I wouldn't know what time I'd wake up. Anyway. Let me reveal the "very first thing" I did over the past two or three days: Baking cookies! Heh heh. It's my first attempt, and I did actually take a few shots of the process, won't be posting up them cos it's really messy and too unglamourous. Nah-uh. I did it for some friends, and of course, my ah ji. Hahaha. She did comment about it a little, but overall I passed! The mould was really hard when I took it out from the refrigerator, cos I did it yesterday and bake it today. Some were soft on the inside, and some were just nice. So I picked the best ones out for me friends. Hee. I rushed and rushed, finally I was ready at 345pm and went out. Running late! I'm suppose to meet ah ji at 430 at Orchard! Tsk tsk.

We walked to Scotts, and passed tootie his X'mas present, and then we went to Far East, walked around and we saw Wei Hong and gf! Hahaha. I bought a belt, and then walked to Paragon, to meet Xiang Yong for dinner, also with Ivan and Jessie. I'm so psyched manz. I'm really excited while blogging. Can you imagine the expression on my face? Hahahaha. Okay. We waited for Ivan and Jessie to arrive and then started dining at Bakerzin! Woo~ This time, I tried Spaghetti and meatballs, same as Ivan, Jessie tried the Seafood pasta, ah ji tried the one with the sausage and XY had the spicy don't know what olio pasta. My god my god my god... They are simply delicious!!! I tell you I got to go gym and shed off all the calories already. Gone case huh! After dinner, we had desserts. Will post the pictures up at the end of the entry =) And I really want to thank my peng yiu, XIANG YONG. Damn nice huh that guy, keep treating me dinner. We spent less than the previous time we went to Raffles City, like 14 bucks lesser. Heh. Thanks so much manz, peng yiu. Next time is our turn already, everytime make you "po fei"... Sigh.

After dining at Paragon, we walked up to Heeren. Our main objective is to take neoprints. Hee. I'll post up once ah ji scans them. We took twice! Cos the first time we took really... cannot make it, cos there isn't any display so we can't see and the pictures turned out to be... erm.. yeah. Kinda... ugly. I mean me. Yeah. So we took again using another machine and they are more pleasent and nicer. Hahaha. Will post up. Soon, sooooon!! Hahaha. Orchard Road: Crowded and roads are blocked. Went to Cine, and I bought a pair of ripples slippers! YAY! My all-time favourite. Eyeing for that for a really long time. I'm glad. Walked around, and saw Ann and Jacky. Shopping huh! What else can they do there? Hahahahah. Long time no see already!

I reached home around 10 plus, and it's raining! Lucky me. Didn't get wet. hahaha. Hmm... What else did I miss out? Oh. I just found out that A LOT of my friends don't have my mobile number. My goodness gracious me, how could you guys don't have!!! Lucky thing I sent you guys a X'mas message, if not I myself also not aware manz! Hee. But the most disappointing part is that... Sigh, forget it. It's Christmas, I don't wanna brood over this puny little useless problem and ruin my mood. I'm just feeling happy today. ON TOP of the world.

Yes. I have a bunch of friends, nice people, I'd emphasize that. They make me forget everything and enjoy the moment with them, and THAT is what makes me proud to have you guys. You people know who you are, don't need to be shy. Hahaha. =)

Pics are up!!! [XY: not I want to suan you, but the pictures tell it all, what else can I say?]


Look at the lovely cakes! They're yummy! All in our stomachs already!! =)

XY actually ate that piece of paper. Cos he said "must try". [eh peng yiu, paper lor -.-]

Look at ah ji eat!

Now it's XY.

Look at the greedy guy eat. Tsk tsk.

Oreo Cheesecake, XY nibbling on it!! =p

All gone!!

Yum yum..

The one who settles the bill. He treat leh!

So gu-niang pose. Tsk. [Hahahaha.. funny]

Now want to act macho. Haiyo. [not man not woman]

The hole can actually see through both of his eyes! My god!! [Eyes too small huh... lol]

LOL.. see I told you, he's neither a guy nor a gal :D

Peng yiu, thanks for letting me suan you. Just look at the pictures, evidence all there. Oh. We never drink the wine, next time must really open it up and drink already!

Okie, that's all I have, neoprints will upload another day =)

Today's Christmas Eve! Haha, it makes no difference from last year. I was sitting alone and the only person who was on msn was eb. This year there are quite a number of people in my msn list who are still online at this time of the day. Heh. I'm not the only one.

Woke up quite early this morning, haven't been sleeping well last night. Feel tired now, lack of sleep, and busy doing things and running errands earlier today. Met Xiang Yong [aka the "li shi you jiu" soy sauce brand] at the bus stop at Tanah Merah Mrt station, you see, he's driving. Heh. I took some pictures of him, it looks unglam, even he himself also know. Hahahaha. So I walked to there to wait for him, and some people don't have the sense of punctuality. Make me wait so long! Hahahaha. Anyway, ["kan zai he got car de fen shang".. just kidding], we went to Marine Parade [Parkway] to pick up my log cakes. Sigh! 4 loggies! Me gosh. He was gonna get a shirt or something, that's why shun bian send me there, hor peng yiu? Hehehe.

His driving skills is not really that atrocious, except for the part that him being a "direction/road-idiot", or rather being no sense of direction. He told me that his car was red, and after I saw his message, there were 3, 4 cars that were red in colour. -.- Okay. So they are not the one. When I got into the car, I strapped on the safety belt first, cos I told him "it's safer for me to do so, cos you just pass wan, I abit doubt your skill." Lolx. He tried to scare me by jerking the car, and he don't even know how to get to Parkway from my house. He wanted to go by another route, which I think is longer. So I guided him the shorter way and he's like.. Orhhhh. [Walao, ni zhe ge lu chi.. :p] It jammed along the way to Parkway, and seriously, the jam is really... wicked. Tsk tsk. I got down the car and went to Breadtalk to collect the 4 cakes... Imagine!! My goodness. He waited outside, but I don't know why he go ahead into the carpark and look for parking. The queue was so so so darn long. Aiyiyi. When I got everything I need, he found a parking lot and he came down and helped me carry the stuff. Aww, such a nice, sweet guy. [Oei, like that can anot? Good enough? Lolx] Well. There are some other things I can't reveal, cos it's a secret. Heh heh.. Or else I'll get it from him, and you won't be able to see my blog entries again. Back to where I was telling you. Oh yeah. He told me that his car was at the seventh storey. Like that's the top of the building, man! -.- tsk. And it was raining the whole day, nothing but wetness on and along the streets.

XY sent me home going by ECP, yeah. I'm his street directory. Don't even know where to exit. I don't blame him. It's his 10th day passing his driving test. :DDD I feel that I'm really mean huh. Cos I keep "suan-ning" him. But I don't think he'll get offended, cos by right if I still remember... he's my creditor. He owes me money. Correct or anot: Creditor? or Debtor? Die. Accounts fail. Sigh.

Was supposed to celebrate Christmas at some place tonight, but have no idea why suddenly had a change of plans. Tootie asked me to join him and his relatives at his aunt's home for Christmas celebration, but I didn't turn up. I will feel awkward. And also my mom's at home alone, it won't be nice of me to leave her alone, at least I'm with her.. cos if not I'll be worried if anything happens. Anyway, I'm gonna meet him tomorrow and pass him his X'mas gift, since he bought me that pair of mango three quarts.

YAY! Tomorrow I'm out for dinner, don't think will be home early... Still troubled over that to wear. Thanks to XY who gave the lame suggestion to wear either very formal: a night gown, or a very super duper casual, least formal wear: pyjamas. Thanks for the suggestions, pal. -.- [Very cold already, don't need to add more ice on ice water.. LOL]

Think this is what I have for the day. OH oh oh! And the very first thing I did yesterday, it's much better today. hee. Nice. =)

Pics are up!!

The orange triangle with yellow background.. with..

Mr Xiang Yong driving...

without his shoes on!! [I think you can't see.] No wonder the car got a smell. LOL


Look at the loggies! yummy!!

White wine..

White!!!!! The $29.90 one is better.

*[PS: XY, you know what to do liao hor? hee.]

It's 52 minutes to Christmas, so I wish everyone reading or not reading my blog a really very Merry Christmas! Hope you guys out there have a wonderful time and are enjoying yourselves endlessly in this joyous festive season. =)

I didn't realise how lucky I am, until today.

You see, this morning, while I was getting ready to go to my dental appointment at 11 when tootie texted me and asked if I wanna meet him at Parkway, to get some stuff from Adidas [which indeed I'm gian-ing for weeks]. I agreed and we set the time to meet at about 12. My appointment was at 11am. The moment I reach the clinic, I went in immediately [cos I was on the dot. Hee], so I messaged him saying that I would be early, like 1130am, which I was! The procedure took less than half an hour and I was like trying to "tu" my time but I still reach Parkway at 1130am. Sigh! I called tootie and I expected him to say that he's on his way but guess what? "I'm still at home." BIG sigh. Okay. So I waited for him at the bus stop like a moron for 45 minutes. 45 minutes!!! Just imagine. I'm such a person that if you don't turn up within 10 to 15 minutes, I'll go home. In other words, I'm impatient. To my surprise, I waited for 45 minutes. [Yeah, I did grumble a little, show a little attitude :p] Maybe it's the discount he has from Adidas, that's why I waited. I almost screamed at him manz. I've never waited for people alone for like three quarter hours.

I didn't have cash with me, and we went lunch together. He had his "cai fan", and he bought me Pearly Soya Milk. It rained [as usual] heavily, but it became lighter, and we went to Sam's aquarium to see puppies. They're incredibly adorable. My god. Then... we went to the shopping centre there, and this is the first time, the very first time I've shopped in Parkway for about 5 hours. He wanted to go to Adidas, and we passed Mango so I went in to take a look. Remember the other day I wanted to buy a pair of shorts and my mom just nagged at me? Yeah. I bought it. Finally. I tried a dress initially, but it looked way weird on me, so I went hunting for shorts. Alas! I saw this three-quarter pants and the shorts I saw at Marina Square the other day, I tried them on. Heh. He said the 3/4 one looked good on me, and he paid the pair of pants when I went browsing! He bought me that manz!!! Oh my god. I felt so bad. I was like telling him I still want the other pair and he paid for both! Haiyah! Anyway I'm gonna pay him back for a pair.
Thank you so much tootie! What a lovely Christmas present. He spent a lot on gifts too. Sigh. Then we went Adidas, and I settled for a pair of running shoes, another Chirstmas gift from my old man! Yay! His ex-manager wasn't in when we were there first time, we went to walk around and went back again. He bought this nice jacket, which I think it's "okay only lah", for 109 bucks, no kidding, a water bottle and a bag for his sis. Gosh. I feel so lucky. Pants from Mango. It's what I've always wanted. To tell you the truth, I'm still "gian-ing" for other stuff. heh.

We went to Coffee Bean and ordered Belgium Chocolate ice blended. MY GOD. Delicious manz. *floating*


After purchasing his stuff, we decided to go home, cos it was about 5. Actually wanted to do my thing in the afternoon cos there's no French lesson for this and next week, but never mind anyway. Peng yiu bought the wine already. Ahahaha. I did something for the first time, and it turned out to be quite good.. for a first timer. I shall try it again tomorrow.

I feel so good today! I'm so happy. I got the things I wanted, and X'mas is coming... Can't wait for Monday to come. =)

Belgium Chocolate

My sec sch

I'm lying alone, with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts.

I know you're hurt too, but what else can we do?

Tormented and torn apart

I wishi I could carry your smile and my heart

For the times when my life feels so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know.

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong...

I want you to come back and carry me home,

Away from this long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?

Does the feeling seem oh so right?

Ad what would you say if I called on you right now?

And said that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone...

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

Today is a beautiful day. The air in the morning was so fresh, and I love the feeling that the cooling wind brushed past my skin. Nice. Anyway, I reached 1 minute before my supervisor came in to take our attendence. Raymond Wong actually. Mr Tan went P.L with team 2. And R.W was like "Okay, so you guys know what you have to do right?" and we were like, "Ya, we got case studies to work on." And after he went off, and we were having the time of our lives. Everyone started to roam, find their companians, have breakfast.. You name it all. We don't have time management at all. Where we wanna go, we go. We don't ask permission like, "Er mdm, can we go lunch/loo/wherever?" No. We just open the bleedy door, and open another and head off to the place. Yeap. Super slack.

Later, me and Sean went to jog on the tracks in school, and I managed to run 4 rounds. I really can't make it seriously. My god. My 2.4 is a goner. We were supposed to go play badminton first, then go jogging, but he for some reason can't unlock the locker, so later Faizal helped him to do it after our jogging session ended. Heh. Badminton time! Long time haven't play that sport, and my arms are aching! Oh man. But seriously, it was really fun. Except that the sole of my shoe almost came off. It's still hanging there! Aiyah!! Yesterday was ah ji, today's me. Made me so panicked, cos this morning I was telling myself to bring a pair of slippers just in case. Sigh. I forgot about it cos I was rushing to school. Damn. It left me with no choice, so I called my mom and begged her to come fetch me, cos I simply can't take the train home [long journey] with my sole flipping out.

After lunch, me and Sean went to library to watch movie... Hahaha! We watched "The way home", which I already watched before when I was in Sec 2, but forgotten the name. It's a Korean movie, and it's my fave. =) So we managed to kill 3/4 of our day and went back to our class to slack for a couple more hours before we sign out. Crap a little, and msn the whole while, while others used a star cushion to play dodge ball... In the class! Sigh. How boring can they get huh. Hahaha.

When my mom fetched me at 530pm, she told me that Uncle Leong's dad passed away. So sad. [My deepest condolences.] Remind me of por por. Whenever I walk by the back gate, it really reminds me the funeral there 6 months ago. Exactly 6 months ago. I miss you, my dear granny.