Today is just not the day for me.

Life's a mess man.

Bloody sian.

Bloody no life.

Oh god.. This is utterly demoralising. I don't know what happened to me, but I know deep inside I feel like shit.

I feel as if I have nothing to look forward for.

I feel... like a failure.

shit. Apart from the top 10 guys I posted the other time, here's one more guy that I really like. Started to you tube about him today (: Gosh I seriously gonna declare myself... "mad about good looking actors". =X

This morning I was talking to jii and I showed her some websites about Chris and we were figuring out which was him. It's really difficult to identify cos he looked so damn different. Nevertheless.. I <3>

"Sap Heng Dai" is a really nice show and I'm so in love with one of the casts. If you take a closer look.. he's the one right in the middle.

He's soooooooo cute!

OMG <3>

adorable... (sheesh.. i think i'm sick.. up there la.)

THERE YOU GO! ah chris.

Went to Malaysia from tuesday to friday. Main thing was to help my dad in his shop at Pavillion. Apparently, the shop seriously is over-staffed cos there were 5 people plus me. And during these days, I did nothing but I gained three skills. Slack, shop and eat. :D

The girls didn't gave me anything to do, when I wanna serve the customers, they went to serve before me.. I don't know is it because I'm the daughter of the boss or they just think that I can't do anything. Oh well. I'd rather help my dad in logistics and admin. Although the words are like grass and its totally unreadable, it's better than to do nothing at all.

I bought a pig hp charm for my phone made of swarovski crystals for RM30 which is damn cheap. heh heh. And a lot of twiggies, nanos and ALMOND COOKIES!!!

Spent the entire day outside. Just came back about 10 minutes ago.

I decided to do something about my holiday plans so my mom and I went to People's Park complex to enquire about some tour packages. This time, it's for real. Heh. SA tours. Apparently the tour packages were damn freaking ex and we did some comparisons with other agencies. Spent about 45 minutes there. I must really say that the consultants were freaking rude, they do not have ANY CUSTOMER SERVICE AT ALL. Like when you take the queue number, they didn't even say "hi, good afternoon" or whatsoever, and just gave you a number and point to the counter. Then the uncle who served us didn't even greet us at all, just asked where we wanna go. Bloody hell. Still say until so sarcarstic like.. "You just open the tap then money will flow already" and "director (referring to my dad) already give green light liao waiting for you nia". TMD lor what kind of service is this manz?!! All tour agencies are one of a kind la.. Think already also angry. Egg.

So off we went to Suntec. Bloody hell. Another angry incident. Looked at the directory that 961 could go to Suntec and when I asked the driver can walk there, he told me to take 970 which I originally saw that it only goes to Shenton Way. So when 970 came, I confirmed with the uncle if he would pass by Suntec.. And he told me (he almost scolded me siao with his expression like he gave a dry laugh) "If I got go Suntec I ask you to board liao loh! I only go Shenton Way". Then I told him that another driver said 970 got pass by Suntec. WTF. Then ok. Decided to wait for another freaking 961. When it arrived, I asked the uncle if he got pass by Pan Pac or anywhere near Suntec. Then he said yes. Walao like finally la! KNS. Kenna pranked by that driver lor... Egg.

When we reached Suntec, I gotta admit, there were a lot of people. There was the Chan Brothers travel fair going on. Me and my mom practically stayed the entire at Suntec, which haha.. I managed to find my ten brothers dvd over there. Wanted to buy the vcd, but I think dvd is better. Cost me 60 bucks. "chih king chih king" Hear my money withdraw from the account not? Haiz.. Sian half.. But I really like that show.

Aiya, anyway the Chan Brothers travel fair is such a hassle.. I personally hate this tour agency. But it offers good value.. At least cheaper than SA tours, and prior to more advantages, for example, the cheap glass which they claimed they use "high quality glass" as refer to as "Swarovski", going to their factory in Austria. They also give away portable BBQ kits and a juice mixer (only for citibank credit card holder). I refuse to blog about the incident of the stupid mixer thing and the bbq kits la.. To summarise everything, my mom made a BIG BIG BIG fuss out of the free gifts which eventually they agreed to give. But actually we were entitled to have all these as the consultant assured us that we WILL have the bbq set thingy. My dear friends, I will invite you to my house outside for a mini bbq session =X HAHAHA

My mobile phone's batt died manz.. Seriously this kind of thing HARDLY happen to me when now that I changed to a new phone. Died like twice already. Stupid.

So me and my mom spent the whole day waiting for my aunty to come to pay the deposit in order to get the mixer.. So.. My trip is settled! OMG I can't believe this... Hahaha. Anyway, after that we went to meet my dad at Paya Lebar and went to Angela's coffeeshop and eat.. I didn't eat much.. Trying to abstain as many food as possible cos I'm trying to stay in shape. Heh.

Side track a little, my dad went to get his teeth implanted last tuesday, and now the screws all came off and he swallowed the metal plates. Reminds me of my braces. LOL. I swallowed one of the brackets down too. =X He's gonna go to the doctor tomorrow, and I'm sure that he's gonna gan him until damn jia lat.

Coming back... Hahaha. Guess where am I going? hehehe. I'm quite psyched about my trip, but feel kinda sad that my dad isn't gonna join us, so I was like hesitating whether I should go, cos it's quite expensive and stuff... But I'm really thankful to my dad for sponsoring me to go for this trip. I'm so gonna enjoy myself man. Hahaha tell you la.. Europe. One of the countries I'm going to is PARIS!!! YAY!!! ((((((((((: WOOOOO HOOOOOOO~!

Gonna go do some researching in what to do and where to go in Paris.. I got one day free and easy! hee!

I almost bumped onto him yesterday at l'alliance. Almost. Can you picture it? My goodness. And almost every Saturday morning I'd follow my dad and have lunch with his friends. HAHA. And after which Uncle Ong sent me to l'alliance. (: I was like telling my dad that I was scared cos my palms began to sweat.

lao dou: what are you scared of? tell me.

me: huh.. i dunno..

lao dou: tell me what you scared of? Got devil ah?

me: (thinking) Yea, probably.

Without further hesitation, as usual for the second week, I chionged to the lobby there and see if I could catch the lift. Muahahhahaha. Just made it in time. Wooo Hoo. I hurriedly put down my bag and ran to the washroom, and ran back to the classroom again. It was really a funny scene manz.. I saw him coming out from the computer lab before class started, and also in the sxxxx room after class ended. My god the period while I was waiting for my dad was like super long, cos I'm really scared that he'd come talk to me and stuff.. Luckily Evelyn and Nidaa was there with me, waiting for Paul (that idiot still no change, bloody hell, keep calling me an idiot and asking me to shut up when he started all the freaking pranks.. OH AND HE'S ATTACHED.).

When they left, my dad haven't arrive, and I called my mom to talk to her.. just in case. GOD. My dad arrived like after awhile at about 6 and I saw him walking of out the lobby when I was about to get into the car.. It was just metres away. He saw me and my dad and he turned away quickly. No kidding eh. VERY "the what" man. I tried to be nice and wave to him, but he didn't wave back and acted as if he don't know me at all. STUPID. Bloody hell man tt asshole. IT's not as if we "gao di xia qing", in the first place THERE IS NOTHING GOING ON!!! Sighs. I'm like losing hope.. and respect for this person manz. And... the fact that I don't think he deserves my respect in the first place. I took a few pictures in my mobile, I will upload it later. I'm going to People's Park already! Drivvvving~! See ya later!

Just how fast Saturday comes. It used to be my favourite day, but now, I don't know manz. There's a bit of confusion, actually. These few days I have been avoiding, not thinking about anything and I felt peace! I know I can't escape from reality forever, but let this be a short term thing and once it's over, it's over.

First time in one year and five months, this is the first time I did my french homework the day before the lesson start. LOL. I always chiong on Saturday mornings and wow manz.. I can't believe I did it yesterday. Feel proud of myself manz. Wooo~ I will not give up french!

It reminded me of something everytime I tell myself never to give this language up. The image is really undescribable cos it's really.. god.. I don't know manz.. I only can say that it is something unworthy of my remembrance. (Use the delete button and press it hard)

God. I still haven't start looking for a job. Neither have I gone on a holiday to destress from the projects and exams trauma last month.

I kinda miss the projects and stuff... I know this sounds crazy, but I just slacked my entire month through without doing anything eh. Useless.

The next thing to be happy about is that I'm really excited about the class chalet that we're having in April! Gosh!! Can't wait. Then... My classmates from French class are organising another chalet! Everything's still in the midst of the discussion, but I'm sure we'll come out with a good deal (: Can't wait to meet up with my classmates! Miss you guys manz!

Presenting to you... MY TOP 10 GUYS! *continuous drum rolls*

NUMBERRRRR 1:

MING DAO! He's my all time favourite (:

#2:

WU ZUN!!! I still like this picture HAHAHA (xuan xuan hates it.. he calls him "the idiot with the 2008 specs". WZ fans go get OW XUAN XUAN!! :P)

#3:

ETHAN RUAN JING TIAN!!! OH GOD.. HUNK! ( FYI he has a great body =X )

#4:

WANG SHAO WEI!!! He can be very mesmerising at times.. So that's why he's number four in my top 10 list. heh

#5:

Xiao Mei... I like him a lot.. Especially in huan huan ai with Yang Cheng Ling.. They look good together, don't you think so too? Hee.

#6:

Was deciding to put Xiao Zhong or Huang Zhi Wei as number 6, tough deliberation here.. In the end I chose him cos he's really cute. Hahaa ge you qian qiu (:

#7:

Huang Zhi Wei. I like him cos he is really good looking.. Got to know #6 and him when I was exposed to "Qiang Wei Zhi Lian" that they acted with Ella.. He's hot.

#8:

Oh God.. Sun Xie Zhi.. He's been my idol for ages! Since I was 13!! Too bad he dropped to #8. My mom likes him too! (:

#9:

Lin Feng! These few days I've been watching HK drama series, but he really caught my eye.. HAHA. Especially when he act in the "gu dai" drama series.. he's cute. hee.

#10:

LAst but not least... I can't miss this guy out.. Without him, there's no me. Bingo! My dad. Shuai not? Actually I feel really.. omg.. "proud" to put this picture up as him being #10.. But he's #1 in my heart! (Dad, if you EVER get to read this... YOU BETTER REALISE HOW MUCH YOUR DAUGHTER LOVES YOU OKAY.. AND BUY ME THAT DUMB CAR!) lol.

*drum rolls end* That's all people. Hope you have a good time wondering why I picked these 10 to be in my list. (They're HOT.. excluding #10. =X )

Yesterday I met up with jii and we headed to C.A to have our LONG LONG LONG AWAITED BAN MIAN!!! Still taste the same, quality DID NOT drop at all. Billions of thumbs up for uncle's ban mian!!! Upon waiting for the ban mian, I went to the drinks stall and get my favourite SOYA BEAN!!! WOO HOOOO~ Ban mian and soya bean drink... NICE (: Jue pei. hehe. The following are some ... muahahahaha ... pictures.. Keep your mouth close.. Otherwise you'll start drooling! Hehehe :p

The ultimate NICEST SOYA BEAN DRINK FROM C.A (:

this chili is superb! Can eat until you "liu bi ti" and without this CHILI it won't be nice.

LOOK!!! Ban mian is here!!

Mine with lots of pepper (: MY god... I can just go and eat everyday!

After that, we took a bus to Tampines and walked around, practically nothing to shop at at C.S. Walked over to TM, saw the CK guy that I worked at Taka the other time. I think he recognised me. HAHA. I saw that si char bor from Swarovski on my way down from the escalator. I saw Annice on my way in to Popular. And I saw one guy that is super familiar but I don't know him. LOL.

We walked around and around cos jii was waiting for her friend, so there's quite a lot of time to kill so I asked her to go arcade and play. LOL. Wanted to play the daytona, but in the end we played the other one... Located at one corner of the arcade. Can't remember what was it called.. But it was like must use the guns to hit the creatures. LOL It was amazingly FUN. I was like "let's go for another round" after the first round ended. We shot many innocents =X but in the end we found out that they were meant to die even though we did not shoot them. The fact that we were SLOW in reloading our bullets.. makes us die faster HAHAHA!!

Second round came... I got too excited and I was practically screaming and jumping up and down.. Fortunately there weren't any people around. LOL. If not I'd be embarrassed to death. HAHAHA.

jii and me with the guns. hahah *piang piang* -.-

Trust me, TM has this pasar malam and JL sale. The things there are going CHEAP. Like 2 packets of original size "Wang Wang".. It cost only like $2.80. Cheap right. And the Hello Panda.. Going at I think $2.20. I didn't buy.. I REGRET IT. Then I was telling jii that SALES PROMOTIONS GIVES RISE TO IMPLUSE BUYING. HAHAHA this is one phrase I will never forget while I studied for the IMC exam the other time.

TODAY...

MY DAD WILL NEVER BUY A 1:1 CAR FOR ME!!!!!! :( Talked to him about the car I found in the advertisement but he just do not care.. AT ALL! SIGH! I know it's good to have a already have a existing car to drive... (He said if I complete my uni then the'd get a car for me. SIGH. Hopeless. I have no hope in getting into any of the uni. :( ) *nag nag nag nag nag*

Got this flu that was passed to me by my mom. Haha Not exactly really sick, just that I had a little bit of a sore throat (: Trust me, it can never be from the ban mian. Oh gosh I'm like so craving for another bowl. Jiii when wanna go again?!!!

Might be blogging in the noon! (:

SIAN. TODAY IS SO DAMN SIAN.


Well.. Good thing is, I'm heading off towards C.A later, for my long long LONG AWAITED B.M (ban mian) treat. Gosh.. So can't wait.. I've been waiting for her call for the entire morning... Gonna call jii now.


(after a few minutes) Called her.. She told me that I told her to meet at 12 plus when I heard 11 plus. Well.. I must have seen wrongly cos the entire day I was staring at this lappy screen.. lol. Weird huh, when there's project and stuff that would require me to stare at the screen I'd complain. But when it's for leisure, I'm happily staring at it. -.- What has the world come to.. ? God.


Going to Tampines later cos jii's gonna meet her friend for dinner, and maybe I can go see the price of the vcds! hehe! Gonna go prepare now! I'll chiong out of the house when the phone rings! hehe (:

Aujourd'hui, c'est un jour ennuie.

Don't know what to do manz.. Just that I'm craving for what you call "Chawanmushi" that I will so gonna make my mom steam a bowl of steamed egg tonight. Sighs. Looking at some tour packages just now.. Can't decide where to go! Europe, America or Taiwan! These are places I wanna go! Jobless right now, been a useless bum for almost 2 weeks now. Still gonna continue to slack at home.

Don't know what to blog, cos staying at home.. it's just another day that passes by so quickly. Feel like chionging some vcds, but I'm just so lazy to do so. Jii will keep me company today.. hehe.. (she didn't go out today.. off)

Anyway I will update soon...

MY GOSH!! what on earth are they doing... I like kenna qiang bao sia.. hahaha..

That's jii and me.. Sorry manz this unglam pic was taken when jii was still preparing to pose and i just hit the button and the outcome was... err.. like this =X

YIKES!!!

Waited till 12 last night to check my results, but heck, the server's soooo slow that I had to go sleep cos I'm so exhausted! So this morning (I just woke up) I decided to check my results for the first time in my life (previously all not checked by me).

Well I can happily say that I'm satisfied with my results, cos some of them aren't what I expected. (: Hope you guys did good too, well... sure better than me. Haha.

Anyone watched ten brothers the hk drama? It's really nice. You Tube has the vietnamese version one hahaha and it sounds so funny.

Quite sian manz.. Didn't have the zest to come online to blog here, just so happened that I was checking my mails and decide to blog anyway.

Yesterday I met up with the girls in the morning and went K. Sang for almost 6 hours or more. Go singing is not really a daily routine for me cos I go there annually, or maximum twice a year. HAHA. I didn't think that money is gonna spent in this way, but sometimes to relax, why not? (: Anyway I had fun with them.

(For the first time yesterday I didn't spend a single cent on clothes nor any accessories :) *Proud* )

Been watching animal planet since the morning, and I was really amazed by the dogs. They give motivation for people who wanna CS and make them realise that there is a reason to go on with their life. Sighs! How inspiring. I should get myself a pup whem I'm older. Haha.

I'm gonna stay at home the whole day today! My favourite thing to do. hehe. homely person. I LOVE MY HOME!

Results will be out tomorrow! Scared-ed.

People!! Check this out!!! The crab we were feasting went on loose! Scared the hell out of me. =X

Disclaimer: some of the pictures may cause discomfort. Children below the age of 13 are not encouraged to see.

It was suppose to be inside the bowl... and.. it's not... So...
She (the uncle said so) fell into the sink and trying to break free and escape.

Look look! She untied herself.. Scheming crab... MUAHAHAHA gonna eat you up in the night... I was so worried that she would manage to climb out of the sink that I checked on her soooo many times!


Ahhhh!!! Poor crab.. Gruesome kill..
Struggling...

That's the end la. I forgot to take the pic of the final cooked crab.. hahha (:

Apparently after 2 days of blazing sunshine, tai yang gong gong decided to clear his leave again. I bet ECP is raining very heavy now, cos I can't even see the sea. (jii wanna go ECP and ride ka la chia? lol.) This reminds me of my skin.. My goodness.. It stings manz.. Especially on my shoulders.. Zhi ming shang sia. So damn pain.

This morning I followed my mom to the market wanting to do some miscellaneous stuff, but in the end I gave up cos I haven't got a clue how the bloody machine works. My hands are trembling now cos I carried too much heavy stuff just now. Ooh!! And I stored up the ice cream, heh. To be honest, I still don't like to go to the market. (my mom will "exploit" me by buying a lot of things and ask me to carry them and that she always steps on my feet without looking where she walks.)

Look outside your windows manz... It's pouring. Kept the clothes already :p

Anyway, last night was one night that I felt peace in me. Slept so soundly manz and woke up at 10. haha. Guess it's another day for me to stay at home and slack. Better cherish my slacking days before I go job hunting. Hehe.

Look at my skin! I'm burnt! hahaha got 2 colors. (: Thanks to tai yang gong gong hehe. My french teacher saw me and she was like.. "Colette.. Ca va ?" And suddenly everyone turned to me and like "yea.. she is so red.." My reaction was like,"Oui, ca va ca va.. j'ai fait du velo hier.. got burnt. hahaha." -.-

Just random (:

how should i say... f*ck. I've never been so stressed in my entire life. I really hate the response of asking me, "huh silence?" LIKE WTF! I really don't want to lose that... that respect I have towards him but he is so freaking irritating nowadays that I no longer want to talk to him... haiz, I will blog more when I get home from class later. So demoralised to go. Damn it.

I never understood that how difficult it is for me to master the tactic of avoiding, but today, I managed to avoid. Reached AF, climbed the flight of stairs madly, rushed into my classroom, went into the toilet and zoomed back into my classroom again. Heaved a huge sigh of relief. Seriously things has gotten into a mess. A big big mess. I don't know how to explain, but it was quite a challenge for me to avoid. Nevertheless, today was a successful day of police and theif.

Just remembered that the lift outside my house is in operation (like finally) since two days ago. Yea, I was so used to walking down 3 flights of stairs to 13th floor to take the lift (I live on the 15th floor) and forgot the existence of the lift outside my house. Took it yesterday though. It's quite fast.

Anyway, I hope he can stop pestering me manz.. Seriously I kept my fingers crossed today. SIGHS!

14th MArch:

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU tai yang gong gong!!! I MISS YOUR WARMTH like finally you managed to clear your leave. WOOO~ and THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME sun-BURNT!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!

This morning while I was still asleep, jiii called me suddenly and asked my mama if my area here rained. HAHAHA my mom was like xia dao cos she thought what happen. HAHA. I was also shocked cos normally I'm the one who always call her. LOL. She asked me to go ECP to cycle! YAY! One of our holiday plans (((: So we met at around one plus and made our way there. WOOOO~ we were like hoping that it won't rain. Cam-whored. LOL.

After cycling, we went to the hawker centre to have our really late lunch. Hehe. I had laksa which was not really appetising, and BBQ chicken wings.. WHICH WERE wow.. damn nice. HAHAH and a cup of sugar cane drink. NICE (: Jiii ate too full. HAHAHA SHE was really funny. The face.. HAHHA. Then erm.. we went to Parkway Parade, walked around, had ice cream, and after awhile, we decided to go Changi Airport to eat ban mian.. so we went to take the shuttle bus to Bedok and take bus to Changi Airport, HOWEVER.. I was telling jii that maybe shuttle bus operates on weekends only. We continued to wait for like 10 minutes, gosh.. and it haven't arrive, I saw the noticeboard and it stated that it operates during weekends and public holidays nia. -.- walaoeh sian. Walked to the bus stop then took a bus to Changi Airport. Wooo~ Took less than half an hour. Convenient (:

On the way to the staff canteen, there were 2 angmohs sitting at the bench there.. my god.. they took out their video cam and started shoot. AT US. And huh, they made the "chu chu" sound.. LOL we were like laughing so hard cos it was so damn gross! HAHAHA. REalised that canteen closed at 8pm. Sadded. 20 minutes late. Went to Sakae instead. Ate like very little. One california handroll, kani salad and a chawamushi. NICE!!! (: jii ate 2 plates of salmon. FULL. BUT DEEEEELICIOUS. Then went to the viewing mall and toook MORE pictures. LOL. BROKE A RECORD OF 200 PICTURES!!! Broke the record and jii's cam batt died too. LOL. Not bad eh? hehe.

I blogged this last night, but my lappy's batt is like way dead so decided to save it and blog this morning.

I just managed to finish my french homework, as usual, everytime last minute chiong french in the morning before class. -.- and I'm like dreading to go there. Not that I have no motivation.. Just kinda scared-ed.

Anyway, pictures will be up real soon! THANKS JII FOR THE WONDERFUL DAY YESTERDAY. Seriously, yesterday was the most satisfied day I had throughout my holidays. NO rain at all!!! and i'm so darn burnt. *scratch scratch*

Sighs.. these few days really got nothing better to do, so today I decided to emo with xuan xuan... Actually I always emo with him cos he's so so so troubled! Poor guy. I emo cos I can't get MY problem solved.. So it makes the two of us. SIGHS! Anyway, I came acrossed A LOT of nice pictures and quotes, so I decided to spend my time doing some collage...

.... And the one above is SPECIALLY dedicated to MR OW XUAN XUAN... Accumulated his thoughts.. I did my best though... hee. STILL trying to cheer this guy up who sighs everytime. You sigh more than I sigh manz... SIGHS! This picture is actually nothing much... Just trying to figure a way to cheer you up from sorrows manz! I know the mind.. is super horrible and difficult to control, i know manz, i know... I've been through this myself... but now the only thing is that you have to be strong!

JIA YOU XUAN XUAN!!! (((:

Daniel Bedingfield's song is stuck on my head since last night. It's just so nice.

Last night was a torture again, but not as bad as the one on Monday night. That's like super scary. I practically didn't sleep at all. Slept at around 1230 last night minus the tossing and turning, and woke up at 1010. Slept until my whole body started to ache. This isn't a very positive thing to look forward for. THOUGHT tai yang gong gong decided to emerge from behind the clouds and hit the earth with his super ultra-violet rays.. But who knows.. I think he wanna go on leave for a few more days before he officially comes out and get down to real business. Is there such thing as "on leave"? -shrugs-

Then started to watch TV instead of coming online cos the thought of online makes me think of unblocking. Damn. Tomorrow. HOWWW?!!! I really don't have a single clue about settling this. Can you imagine that someone you really really respect do something really inappropriate which could really get both of you into trouble? SIGHS. I really am speechless manz. ARGHHH this is making me go nuts manz really.. driving me up to the wall.

Seems like it's another day for me to ponder what things are to be done. Decided.

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

link: http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/

Check out this video people. Seriously DO CHECK IT OUT. Sabby was like telling us about this yesterday of cruelty to animals.

This video, I didn't watch it for long. I didn't have the guts to continue. All I have to say, IF ANY PEOPLE BUY ANIMAL FUR, THEY'RE ONE F*CKING ASSHOLE.

I watched it halfway, or rather not even half, and I'm so sorry if I offend any Chinese here but seriously just look at this freaking video. Don't you have another impression of the Chinese now? Heartless, brutality, cruelty... my god.. this is seriously so out of the mind. They actually TORE and SLAM the animals... Oh god.. that image is still in my mind... Sheesh this is seriously fucking heartless manz.. It makes my blood boil oh freaking god... SO PLEASE DO NOT LINK ME WITH CHINA OKAY. I really.. Argh -speechless-.. I thought the one in mak's blog about KFC is cruel enough.. BUT THIS!!! WTFH!!!

Be anti-fur. BE fur-free. PLEDGE TO BE FUR FREE by clicking that link below the video. Or else you will be the animal skinned alive for fur in your NEXT life.

DAMN the chinese. heartless fucking creatures.

Why has life become like this for me? Why can't I just be living in peace being single? Why must there be so much commotion and complications? Why why why?

Thousands and thousands of question marks, the questions of why and ridiculous questions surfaced in my mind the entire day. I suddenly thought of uncle clare. It's been a long long time since I met him. I'm lying down on my bed in this nice weather, enclosed with the four walls, outside pouring so heavily, yet still stoning at the laptop screen, and desperately seeking for an answer. I know I should not be avoiding reality, but to face it. God how I wish I'm so trouble-free. I've never been so pressurised. How can I persuade myself that this is acutally part of life? It's impossible. Gosh.. You can say that I'm living in fear for the moment.

Maybe I should really go for a real vacation rather than staying here to be facing all these... unpractical stuff.. Maybe I should study overseas.. and not come back... Maybe...

Good thing and bad thing at the start of the day. The good thing is, for the first time after my exams, I woke up at 10.10am. The bad thing? Argueing with my dad first thing in the morning. Damn it manz, I really don't know what the hell is with parents today. First thing he did was to nag at me, telling me to go overseas and study now that he accepted the fact that (assuming) none of the Singapore U accepts me. (Watching Ai Qing Jing Ji Yue now.. I think Alex To is damn HOT.) Fine.. The other time I was telling him I wanna go overseas, he said that try to get into a local uni (which I think was impossible). Forget it manz, I don't wanna go on talking about it.



FEEL SO RUINED NOW.



Damn manz. I feel so shitty. argh freaking god... I'm really moodless manz.

I can't believe I'm blogging again. Third time today. God.. I'm feeling so freakingly helpless.. Will anyone help me? SIGHS.

I can't believe that I'm in this state. Sheesh. I'm really like.. stressed out over Friday to whether or not to go. Partly I wanna "give face". Gosh manz. This is friggin' sian 1/2. I'm trying to force myself to sleep, yes I'm super tired, but I can't sleep because of things being hindered... HAIZ. Only I can save myself. When I look at my blog posts in 10 years' time, I will find this damn childish.

FREAKING GOD. I was telling xuan xuan that people were looking/staring at me. I thought I looked weird. Well hell yea, with the freaking dress that "tuo mao" and stained my beige coloured shorts. tmd. UNTIL I reached home like 20 minutes ago, getting ready to bathe and stuff, I REALISED MY SHORTS WERE TORN. WTF~!!! Not a very huge hole and I really hoped that no one took notice of it. Gosh man this is super freaking embarrassing.

Today the outing with the tous were super fun, until at around 4 I had to meet someone else.. WHOM I was quite reluctant to meet.. SIGHS! But I did after all, gave him my promise before my exams. Now he's persistant on asking me to go out with him again one of the next few days. I'm really paranoid. I don't want to meet him manz... I'm really scared-ed. I must admit, he's one of the nice guys I've met so far, has the $$$$$$$ etc etc I think he has 5Cs, but then he's not the one pour moi. And I swear that he's the weirdest guys I've ever met till TODAY. HAHAHA I think jii and mak should know the reasons. Keep guessing people. This is super private and confidential and I'm never gonna say it out.

SPEAKING OF THE ZIT THIS MORNING... I finally popped it out, on the mirror... twice. HAHA. It's very disgusting, blood and other goo-ey stuff. Ewww. It was so freaking itchy that when I was squeezing gently, it shot out. Aiya it's too gross for me to continue.

ANYWAY MY day sucked.. not totally but just the part where my shorts SPLIT. Damn.

Right. Blogging so early in the morning.. Not really my style but seriously i have no idea why i'm blogging so early. Alright shucks. Today is the day. The day i didn't really want it to come, came. sighs! I didn't sleep well last night, and have been tossing and turning, despite the exhaustion i had yesterday from walking the whole of CT. Part of it was due to me being hungry and the other half was that I was nervous.

I kept telling myself that everything's gonna turn out fine, but it looks like my brain isn't absorbing this 5 words. When I close my eyes, imagination started to appear and then run wild... My god.. the mind is something that is really hard to control. Xuan xuan is always telling me that but I told him that it could be overcome.. BUT now I know how he feels. Sighs. This is super irritating... I really don't want to think about it anymore. I wanna just go and get it over and done with. I don't know why am I behaving like this, but it's really "jin tui liang nan".

Mentioned that I wanna go swimming last week but until today I haven't even touch a drop of pool water. -.- It's best if there's a swimming pool downstairs, so that I don't need to walk all the way to the Bedok Swimming Complex. Well, there is a pool downstairs.. "a puddle of water" accumulated from the heavy rain last night.. Lucky furry friends.. they get to bathe. The weather looks quite good today =X=X or I shouldn't even talk about it. Later rain again =x =x =x

SIGHS! Stupid stubborn pimple still doesn't wanna come out! It's like bruised, but I think it's actually blood + toxins. I don't dare to go squeeze it out, especially when I'm going out. ARGH. My dad has been plucking his white hair.. my goodness.. damn vain. Last Sunday he threatened me to help him pluck his white hair.. otherwise I kiss my allowance goodbye. See where got father like that one?!! Idiot.

Walaoeh I'm like really so damn sian with the lack of sleep manz.. I've never slept past 10am ever since holidays started. SIAN.

i'm so bloody pissed with this freaking blogger la.. tmd... i tried like uploading pictures for 2 whole fooking days and it still appear in error... just what is freaking wrong with this freaking thing manz?!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

went to school this morning, and then to CT with jii. was hunting for my black shorts to go with my dress i bought last week. in the end i bought another dress. -.- cost me a total of 62 freaking bucks. there were so many great deals in CT manz, cheap stuff, affordable prices. Seriously. Just that my shoulders were a little too broad that the blouses can't fit me. Well they do but they're a little tight.

Speaking of CT, i think there are ALOT of "mentally ku-ku" people. got one walked past me and suddenly came back to me and replied me something when i was talking to jiji. the other one was like singing so loudly. -.- can't they be admitted to hougang chalet ? better right? omfg.

Bought the delectable egg tarts for mes parents. it's real nice. then went walking around and then i brought jii to the place where i told you guys that there's a shop house that sells damn nice zha jiang mian very long ago. ate only that bowl of noodles cos we weren't exactly really hungry.

well for the entire day i was like so stressed up about tomorrow... haiz. i really.. walao.. going to faint manz seriously. i feel so emo and feel so bloody upset. haiz. i don't wanna blog anymore!!! SOB :'(

i've been like hooking onto viwawa ever since i signed up yesterday, especially the mahjong and the mix and match. lol. came across with alot of people, and xuan xuan is damn pro in playing mahjong. even the people who are like above level 2 also lose to him lol!!

anyway i decided to switch to the mix and match game, damn cheem and requires alot of memory skills. hahaha now's a good chance to train my brain. i played with a 12 year old sia. can you believe it. HAHA. she was like, "lette (cos my nickname was ah_lette), u how old?" i asked her to guess. then she said 14. HAHAH!! SERIOUSLY LA. then i told her i'm older. "16? 20?" like BINGO! DING DING DING DING! hahaha. she said something like "you 20 le, still come and play ah?" HAHAHA AND I TOLD HER, "ya la now nothing to do ma, come here and train the brain." HAHAHA. Damn funny sia nowadays the kids.

Yea, this morning I was like still thinking if i should just give french up, but it's still like so sucky and i'm still thinking about it now... and i've decided not to give up! hahahaha! FYI i've already got my french test paper back.. Fast huh.. got a 55/80... i don't know if it's good or what, but still it's really hesitating cos i really cmi manz.

this afternoon, i reached AF quite early.. aiya i don't think i should be blogging this kinda thing here.. it's so irrelavent. anyway i should just keep mum about it la huh.. sorry manz people for being so half hearted. hahaha.

xuan xuan has been complaining how his ipp sucks and how hell was it for him everday in his working place. well, this is part of life manz! you believed that i was able to survive through the exams, now it's my turn to tell you that i believe that YOU can survive this ordeal. YOU CAN!! and about the KC thingy.. don't worry or think about it too much la. just let nature takes its course. most important of all, you must be happy manz. don't because of this you like wanna give up everything and go into depression mode k.. not worth it. (: I'll be there to play mahjong with you manz (:

PS* XUAN XUAN JIA YOU FOR YOUR IPP!!!

Holidays officially started for me. You see, the good thing about having holidays is that i can slack until i'm really tired of it, can do whatever i want as time permits and the downside of it is that, i get bored already. having to stay at home is yet a total dream come true.. for me. Before the exams I was so looking forward to this day, but it kinda demoralises me too. It meant that I'm jobless and education-less now. Wanted to like chiong youtube and watch my dvds all day long but i can't seem to do that. I feel that I can do something better. Watching all these are my favourite pastimes but really huh, it's just a waste of time.

Maybe i should get a job. it's no point slacking around the entire day at home doing absolutely nothing... SIGHS! BUT WHEN!!! I'M JUST TOOOOO BLOODY LAZY.

Had my french test yesterday, and i think it don't seem to be going too well. sighs. i'm thinking of quitting my passion for french, after that horrible session of oral. i couldn't even speak well, despite learning that language for more than a year. sheesh manz. how??? the thought of me speaking in french is like, insulting the french manz. oh my god. i'm like so badly traumatised by it cos the more i think of it, the more i feel like i SHOULD give it up.

Sian manz. Haiz. Later got to go for french. Haven't really put much effort into studying pour le test. heard that there's a script to read out, conversational like roleplay, mcq and short essay writing. they changed the format already. hopefully it'll be easy.

it's a super cold morning! gloomy sky, raindrops falling... gosh. how nice to sleep in! anyway i've really got to go MUG now. blog later (:

wah siao manz... the french test is super difficult. it's a goner anyway. but wu zun is so shuai. i LURRRRRRRRRRRRRRVE HIM MANZ. lol. and this show is so damn nice. hee.

i can't help but BLOG manz. gosh this is so happening to me. HAHAHA!!! HAVEN'T been like posting pictures and blogging long long entries for a long long time! hehe c'est un temps PARFAIT!!

YOU might probably thought that i'd be like you tubing and stuff, mais non, i'm still mugging for french.. REAL HARD. haven't really go in depth though, cos i've been like surfin the net like i've never surfed before, and watching TV as if i've lost connection with the world. Speaking of it, it's been quite awhile since i've watched the TV!

this morning i don't know why i had the urge to racky cars! maybe cos i caught the tyra show and went to check out her website and there was this advertisement on CHEVROLET!!! DAMN CHIO la the new chevy malibu. omg. here's some of the screen shots that i've taken from the websites.

well this is the BMW convertible... LOOKS DAMN SUAVE.
the z4 coupe!!! one of my FAVOURITES!
THIS ONE.. is the ULTIMATE car that i wanna own... omg i'm like melting.

THE NEW CHEVY MALIBU!!!!! COOL MANZ!!

PONTIAC CONVERTIABLE... aww gosh! POSH CARS!!

Seriously IF.. i said IF... AND I MEAN IF i've earned enough... I'D BUY ONE OF THESE CARS manz. omfreakinggod... really cannot the temptation.

i'm still pondering over which 6 guys jii is referring to. i'm just so so so curious. i only could think of 4. JIII WILL YOU TELL ME!!! MY HEART IS ITCHING!!!

walaoeh. it feels DAMN GOOD to be slacking at home after sooooo long manz. my goodness.. this is WHAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR! a la la.. i've decided to STAY JOBLESS AND FOCUS ON FRENCH. hee. here are the pictures! hahaha can be real funny...

THAT'S US.. Class of MK0502.. MB! Preparing to jump...

JUMP !!!

trying to take a decent class photo.. *discuss discuss discuss*

HAHA here's A class picture. Well taken. (:

Andy very focused trying to form the letter "B"..

still trying to figure out... it's not as easy as you think eh!

ok.. "B" half done...

Now LETTER "M"... as you can see eb is the sacrificer for the "v"...

AHH!! THERE YOU GO. MB!


THANKS MS GAEL FOR THE DONUTS!

HAHAA a pose with the donuts..

sorry ah andy.. i can't help but post this picture of you wearing the white socks with the formal shoes! lol.. it's damn funny...!

ALL TIME FAVOURITE UNCLE MIKE!!! OU XIANG!!! WOOOO~ *whistles*

my PEM uncle keng mun.. another NICE man..

MS CHEONG!!! IB LECTURER! I've always enjoyed her lesson, although it's damn tough... but she's also very nice! the very funny lecturer who's learning driving the other time i blogged about! HAHAHA! JIA YOU!!

IB GROUP...

that's our masterpieces.. (: I LOVE YOU MAK!

my girls. YOU gals are the BEST! here's a hug from moi a toi.