MY BODY ACHES LIKE MADNESS!!!!!!!!!

MY GOODNESS. I'm so glad that napfa is finally over. I failed my 2.4km run.. lol. My first time in my entire life sia.. Haven't failed before. Despite going to the gym earlier this year, it doesn't seem to help cos it's "earlier this year" which means I haven't run for like half a year? LOL omg this is so embarrassing. Other stations were okay lah, it's only the inclined pull ups and the sit ups. My goodness. That guy help me to pass. HAHAHA thanks manz. The shuttle run killed me. I had to sprint before 2.4 and siao liao lah, when I started running my legs were like "stop running". After one round, I caught up with mak tou yi, cos AHAHAHA she was in front of me and we just walk. LOL. DAMN funny. Stamina gone la. HAHA. I think quite a lot of people fail 2.4 huh.. or maybe it's just me. hahaha.

DYING FOR THIRST! After the "2.4" run, my god.. WATERRR! You should see the looks on our face.. uber red and tired and sian! hahahaha. Anyway. I even bought a can of peppermint greentea and ALLSWELL [haha] waterchestnut drink... Damn thirsty. Luckily my mom came to fetch me home.. I can't even stand still.. My legs were like so wobbly. My god la, just imagine when a person haven't done exercise for ages go take napfa.. the legs and everything sure rusty wan. LOL the "machines" all rusty already and then you must like, activate it again.. Quite difficult huh.

After settling down, I went to sit down in front of the tv and watch the vcds I bought from China.. Walao, I must say huh, the China is a cheat manz.. What the hell.. I bought the 183 concert CD in the end all are MTVs. WTH?~~?!?!?!??! Sigh, anyway it's okay lah, at least still got mtv to see. Watched a little bit of tv and then went to sleep.. at 10. Gosh manz, I'm so fatigue, and woke up at 8. But I think I'm going back to sleep already. Going for French later [I hope it's not Karen] *fingers crossed* and after french... it's shopping time!

-Je vais du shopping avec mon pere apres leçon-

LOL

Somehow, I don't feel like presenting tomorrow's GSC answers. I've been presenting- for 3 days! Entre, MR and tmr! Gees.

I don't even feel like doing the ppt and the questions. There's a sense of losing motivation, and I don't look forward for tomorrows.

Last week - baddddd week.

Was giving up my choice? No. I was forced to give up. I needed xx badly, but xx wasn't there. I was forced to give up, really. Imagine three weeks. Who can take it? UGL sommore. When I said those words, deep within me, I felt so depressed. I was hestitating whether to press "send". Eventually I did. I was thinking, what if I were a little more patient? Would there be a change or would it be still the same? Second chance didn't work. It didn't turn out the way I expected. It was about the same like the other time. It's been one month since I last saw xx. Okayyy those who know what I'm trying to say thinks that I'm stupid lah, but I really don't know manz.

I haven't been smiling, haven't been happy either. Happy occasions doesn't last long. I don't believe in second chances already, after this incident. Things had been too easy and difficult for me. I hate to be "busy-free".

Too free = tendency to think a lot.

Busy = No time to think but focus a lot more on work.

I haven't spend time with myself though. I just need to think through things that are troubling me. It just happened yesterday. I just started these thinkings. Harmful to health huh.

I suddenly miss the days during primary school. I used to go to school early in the morning and have netball training and have some friendly matches with my friends. Sighs. Those were the days. I wanna go back to yesteryears! I miss secondary school days too. Especially the teachers. I'll never never ever forget them. And also my principal. I remember he used to give me extra lessons on Sundays - Humanities.

I don't know why as we grow older by every single day, there'll sure be problems rising to the surface and we have to just solve it... Stress, depression are psychological emotions self induced by oneself. I mean that's how I think la.

I don't believe in second chances but.. I still.. je te manques.

Been feeling random. Sighs. I'll just shut up and do my GSC la.

Egg.. with double yolk. HAHAH.

BLOGGIE! I MISSED YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH! OMG.

Geez, I realised I haven't been updating for the whole week [and so many things just happened..], well, not because I was away but I was chiong-ing for a bundle of things - Entre and IM proj, French test and FTT. Sounds damn easy cos got three things to pia right? HAH. YOU ARE SO WRONG manz... Lemme tell you everything one thing at a time.

Last Thursday, I just decided that I wanna start on the International Marketing [IM] oh by the way that's EP's module and I really did, only on the background of the company [I did Starbucks], nothing else much. My goodness, I hate individual projects. They are really stupid manz. It's not even like group work and poor me have to find all the information. And guess what? The contents inside are like, PEST analysis of 3 countries the company is represented in, strategic planning, competitive marketing and positioning initiatives that the company applied and lastly, market entry and expansion. WTH?!?!?! For the past 5 days, I was practically chionging and chionging into the wee hours. I slept less than 5 hours each day. I don't wanna complain much, cos I know that there are still people haven't finish IM yet, and they didn't sleep the whole night too.

During the two weeks break, it was projects and more projects. We were re-doing our feasibility report for Entre cos we changed our idea, and yesterday was the presentation and when we drew a lot, our group was the fourth to present... Bad sign huh! "Si", we changed to the first group and I still think it turned out quite bad.. He was like shooting us with questions and I'm like, Oh shit, HELP people. I don't know but AY still don't think our idea will work, and we took more than 15 minutes to present, 25 minutes, to be precise. For the report editing part, my goodness, we just changed one of our group members' part cos I don't understand a single thing she wrote. Sigh. It was rather ridiculous and we edited until siao, seriously. "seh" already.

Oh yeah, our HRM project includes one french student manz. My god.. I don't know if we can communicate with her... Siao liao ah.. On the other hand.. I'm quite thrilled too HAHAH.

On Friday, the people from Hitachi came. AHAHA. NEW TV~! WoooO HOoooo~ PLASMA!! HAHAHA. Hang on the wall wan!! HAHAHA.

Processes haha and voila! It's done! hee.

Yea. Apart from chionging projects on a 24-hour basis, which I really really hate it uber much cos when I saw myself in the mirror, I saw myself looking yellow and with the horrible dark rings and eye bags. Damn scary I tell ya. Oh. There was french test on Saturday.. WHICH I didn't touch it since last Sunday I went studying with Kenneth and Paul. After my appointment with my dentist, I went to AF to meet them and do some last minute studying. I SAW CHRISTELLE! Gosh, I really like her alot. I really wanna declare something huh. I really hate that idiot a lot manz. He's an ass. You know huh, he was like, very 嚣张！ I don't like! If you don't know who the hell I'm talking at, err.. find out yourself lah. I don't wanna mention names.

I was like burning inside, I really can't stand his bloody fucking attitude and stupid 自以为是 style and mr know-it-all. He's knows NOTHING at all can?! We studied at the Olio cafe and when we raised a question not to him, he started to like explain as if he knows and NO? The whole thing was wrong and still want to argue that he's right. He was like chionging since 5 on that Saturday morning, and before the test, he was saying, "make sure you don't copy mine huh.." GUESS WHAT? He copied lor! In fact, everyone did. I did mention the last test we also discussed in the test. SO he was like, "eh what's that huh?" and "oh shit I forgot to apply that rule." -.- LIKE WTH?~~ TMD, I was like.. woah.. speechless la. That guy.. "zai" la.

The other thing about him was HE is a real damn KAY-POH bitch. That busybody ass. Walao, I remember I didn't ask him how to spell, I was asking my friend beside me. You know what he did? He overheard me and said "so easy why you don't know how to spell?" cos I wanted to clarify if got the "`" on the "e" or not. He put his paper in front of me and said "TSK, see". ?!?!?!?!!!! I don't need it lor, fooker! Just tell me yes or no will do right? He think he damn "hao xin" but I think he damn "hao lian" can. Basket.. Hate him to the core man.

The last part. Oral. Fook him again manz. By right I was with my friend as in we will go into the room together for the oral test with one of the french teachers. So two by two they went and that fooker went "IT's me and you , (my friend's name)" and I was like thinking, what about me? Another girl was like "what about her (referring to me)" and he went "opps.. she with her lah! (the china lady)". I stared like so hard at him.

He didn't know that I'm uber pissed. Just imagine when a person lacks of sleep and have so many things in mind and he still "ci ji" me.. I showed him attitude already. I really, can't stand it already. So after he came back from the oral test, it was me and the girl's turn. Actually she's not bad afterall, I judged her wrongly. She's nice. That ass huh, patted my shoulders twice! It's not like I'm being superstitious [well I am abit], but I don't like! He damn gross! It's like you talk jiu talk lah, why must you touch me? ta ma de. He's not my boyfriend or what lor! My goodness. And when I went down for the music festival thingy, he asked me "why am I so pissed" and I'm like "duh, guess who's the cause?" I went off and chiong home to pia IM. I told ji ji and Jan about it and Jan was like "maybe he like you" and I'm like "NOWAY". Siao ah, if I like him I think my eyes grows on my ass lor.

So 1 down, 4 more to go. On Sunday, Janis and JS came my house and pia the entre project, did some editing, layout of ppt and MORE editing.

Monday.. Still piaing. Chionged for ppt points and my FTT. My god. I tell you huh, I didn't even have time to study FTT manz! And speaking of FTT, that fooker.. he cursed me failing my FTT! He was like "You sure fail wan la". Like I got so many things to chiong and the only time I studied my FTT was when I was having toilet breaks and going school that period of time. I'm uber paranoid that few days. Goodness. It's been a crazy and hectic week. Really. It was really really nuts.

So yesterday was my big day for FTT, and wah, luckily I passed manz. I was really lucky. I need to thank my peng yiu XY that he tested me in the late nights at 2-3 am despite feeling neauseous, get well soon! and in the early morning yesterday at 8 too. Thanks so much manz. Appreciated it alot.

I double checked, I read the questions really really slowly and carefully, and I was shaking and my palms were VERY sweaty. It's really scary huh when the screen just popped out and asked you to typed in the password and the scariest part is when you press the "yes" when they asked if you wanna end the test. Scary. My heart almost came out, it was pounding really really fast. I took about 20 to 30 minutes to do it, and when I really sure, I plucked up the courage and ended the test. It took a few minutes for the results screen to pop out and "PASSED" was the word I saw! I just heaved a sigh of relief manz. I made it after SO long. I applied my PDL today, and gonna start practical driving lessons soon. Oh gosh, so thrilled.

the long process of getting the PDL. HAHA.

I'm so relieved that IM project has been submitted to EP. I still need to thank toodie to help me edit my ang moh, and he bought cweam puff and came all the way after work just to gimme cweam puff. THANKS TOODIE!! My goodness, I really can't believe that I actually spent nights chionging everything. I didn't even have time to like sit down and spend some time watching my new tv. And for the first time in my entire life, I finally have a DVD player. Gosh. I totally appreciate what my dad has done for me, cos he always asks me what I want to do when he buys things, like the TV. He asked me when I want the people to come and stuff, want to attach it on the wall or put on the table.. Yeah. THANKS DAD!

AND THANKS MOM FOR 炖-ING some 补品 for me!

This coming Saturday, I'm going shopping with my dad after french class! HAHA time to buy some electronic devices before GST officially increases by a whopping 2% on Sunday.

I power napped for 3 hours today manz. HAHAH. That's it for all (:

Baby, oh

Even in my heart I see

You're not bein' true to me

Deep within my soul I feel

Nothing's like it used to be

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time

Impossible as it may seem

But I wish I could so bad baby

Quit play's games with my heart

[Chorus:]

Quit playin' games with my heart (with my heart)

Before you tear us apart (my heart)

Quit playin' games with my heart

I should've known from the start

You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)

You're tearin' us apart (my heart, my heart)

Quit playin' games with my heart

I live my life the way

To keep you comin' back to me

Everything I do is for you

So what is it that you can't see

Sometimes I wish I could

Turn back time, impossible as it may seem

But I wish I could so bad, baby

You better quit playin' games with my heart

[Chorus]

Quit playin' games

Baby, baby the love that we had was so strong

Don't leave me hangin' here forever

Oh baby, baby this is not alright, let's stop this tonight

Baby, oh

Quit playin' games

Na na na na na na

Na na na na na baby

Na na na na na

Sometimes I wish I could

Turn back time, impossible as it may seem

But I wish I could so bad, baby

Quit playin' games with my heart

[Chorus]

Quit playin' games with my heart

Na na na na na na

Na na na na na baby

Na na na na na

[2x]

This two weeks break hasn't been a fruitful one. Loads of project hasn't been done up, tutorials too manz, what the hell. I totally forgot about it. Trust me, I'm not gonna leave the house if I really need to.

I was sooooooooo angry last nite... Was trying to find songs from imeem and gosh.. all the songs were just about 30 secs. Damn pek chek la. This morning also. I can't find the song I want. Now there's this horrible stench of durian smell.. Makes me wanna puke manz.

I don't feel well. I just woke up from my nap and this massive headache is killing me.

I went to Tampines this morning, and came back in the afternoon. Was messing with ji ji's lappy. Hahaha. Feel kinda gian to actually get one.

I think I'm quite screwed up huh. Last week of term break already, and I still haven't get anything done up yet. Haven't even start on IM. Entre is GOING to be ALMOST okay SOON. My FTT's up next week, IM's also up next week, Entre is also next week, FRENCH TEST is this coming SAT and freak, I haven't start revising much on the passe compose, and everything, oh gosh.. I'm uber paranoid now la. Sighs. I guess I'm gonna start revising tomorrow.. I feel so so so unwell now la. As in kinda "xin ku". Don't know whether it's stress or what. SIGH.

I went to Funan IT mall yesterday evening with ji ji, cos we're thinking of getting a lappy. Yeap. Don't think I'm getting so soon, but sooner or later I'm gonna get it. HAHA. We went to a shop and there's this clip on the lappy, and guess what????????!! IT'S the trailer of FANTASTIC FOUR!!! OMG! I told ji ji that I want this clip damn bad and asked her to help me ask that salesperson if he could save it for me. HAHA. But eventually before leaving, I asked the person where he get the clip from, and asked him if he could save for me. YAY! I HAVE THE CLIP! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm uber happy! First EP, now CHRIS EVANS~!!!!!

The world.. is full of surprises, no? YES!!!!! hahaha siao liao ah.. lol

I SAW EP JUST NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO~~~

hahahahaha...

I'm in school now, at this time of the day, and we're waiting for the rest to arrive. We're supposed to meet at by right 1015. Well... Yeah, never mind people, we got used to waiting for you guys HAHAHA. Okay lah, I'm not trying to sound sarcarstic but haha where are the donuts? HAHAHA. Nah, just joking. :p

Couldn't really sleep well last night.. I was totally fumed up actually. Damn it. I feel damn f up for... Aiya... Now you know the bloody world is full of surprises. Good and bad ones. To the hell with the problems. I don't know why you know, I can't seem to be sleeping well= insomia = eye bags are bigger than my eyes = mood ruined = f up attitude. I want everything to just stop lah. tmd.

The curry puffs from Cheers.. Quality sucks to the core manz. WTH I mean it sucks like sh*t manz! It was cold, hard and the potato was RAW. WTF is that thing manz? Damn it lah. Everything is so damn bloody screwed up. WTH WTH WTH!!! Argh~! Ass.

Today's uber fun manz! hahaha. I went studying french with my french classmates in a Mac between City Hall and Bugis.. The two storey McD. HAHAHA. Shiqin wanted to come, but she last minute said that she's going to Johor, so it's the three of us - PL, Kenneth and me. Sad lah, being the only girl... That stupid PL keep teasing me.. Call me what.. Saliva girl, stalker, etc etc... Kenneth came about 3, and the situation was like damn funny! HAHAA he was like "hi guys" and I went "hi tuna" cos he was wearing a red shirt with the word "tuna" printed on it. He was "seh" lah, cos he drank the Japanese wine "sake" or something lah I dunno. The both of them were super funny and lame!! HAHAHA I haven't been laughing like that for ages manz!!! HAHAHAHA... Okay lah, I admit I'm easily contented. I like laughing. HAHAHAHA.

Then while our PL went cheers to buy some bread, and instead of studying french, I was like talking to Kenneth all the way until PL came back.. He took a long time huh! *must break the ice* HAHAHA! We went back to yester-years.. and talked about old school days and stuff.. I realised that the systems in my sec school days were totally different from his! LOL and another thing - the three of us actually have one thing in common - WE all are an only child. WOW.

I started cam-whoring myself due to stress from the french.. Guess what? I've been staring at the books for like 5 hours! My god, that isn't me studying so long for french! Gees. Like what they say, no pain, no gain. Anyway, yea, I started to take pictures, candid shots, pictures of papers and books all over the table, sweets, reflections, and the guys with the "serious" and "hardworking" looks on their faces HAHAHA but aiya, they just "pei he" and posed for me wan lah.. Thanks guys! HAHAHa. Oh!! And I took a video of us speaking french! DAMN FUNNY!!! HAHAHAHA. I feel very bad cos it's like they have to put up with my nonsense lah, but overall, I still had fun! Geminis are crazy people (((((: They bring craziness in this world. HAHAHa.

After some cam-whoring, it's time to hit the books again, and Kenneth had to go to church and said will return IF we're still there. Yeah we were still there, and he texted PL and said that he's not joining us cos he's tres tres fatigue?!!! And guess where he went? Dinner with his dad. Lucky kid manz. My dad didn't even bring me out for dinner la. :( So we ended our french studying session today officially at 7pm!

I feel damn ku ku cos I ate bread when I brushed my teeth already. Now must brush again -.- Sian. HAHA but I enjoyed myself!

I still manques you.

I have been spending hours.. TWO hours just to do two pages of french homework. It's a killer. I was discussing with PL, and walao, I felt damn screwed up la. Sians. The one should conjugate he say no need, then the one don't need to conjugate he say must conjugate.. Aiyo.. Gosh, French is so killing me. Damn.

Okay, apart of me feeling so screwed up is, one week of term break is officially almost over. And what have I done? N-O-T-H-I-N-G. Later come home still must choing the entre report and send it to Janis so that Monday we can meet and amend some work.

Seriously, I don't know.. Am I just wasting my time, or just hanging on.

-reactionless-

Just came home, and had dinner - my mom cooked mee hoon kuey. Hahaa. Power manz. Long time since I ate any home cooked food. And after dinner, it's time to chiong my entre project. I have to die die finish it by tonight, cos tomorrow I'm out studying FRENCH! YEAH!!! I am starting to like my relief french teacher. HAHA. He's nice la.

Pooh!

Today = tough day. Goshie. Was in school around 1015, and due to the massive JAM at PIE, my god, and it was pouring heavily... Anyway, managed to meet ji ji just in time and we went KOU FU - she wanted to have her tomyam noodle. Hee. Suling jie jie, Uncle Henry and my 2nd aunt came to my school too! Haha, cos they wanted to go Tampines, so they waited at KOU FU for my mom cos she was like heading back to the east so can "shun bian" send them there. Yep. We had our very nice brunch therE! So it's only me and ji ji today, Jan called up to say that she just woke up at 11 when we were supposed to meet at 11.. LOL never mind lah, I also haven't do the report. The rest.. MIA. HAHAA. HS didn't even know that we had to meet today -.-

After that, we went down to the lab and gosh, do up the SPSS.. IT'S TEDIOUS WORK! From 11 something, we worked our way through 1445 and we stopped. THAT'S IT - we/I said. My eyes were practically shutting up fast manz! Oh my god. Cross tabbing, inputting the data, blah blah blah.. Aiyoh! Sianzation manz! Wanted to get some fruits from North, but they closed up for some renovation? Gee, I have seriously no idea about it manz. Anyway, we walked to the MRT - was thinking to either go out for another movie [heh heh] or just go straight home. So, we arrived at a decision, go catch a movie, again, despite watching one yesterday. We went to Bishan, to see if there's any slots for the movie "Zodiac" cos ji ji has always wanted to catch that show really badly. And it's such a pity that when we arrived at J8, there weren't any show slots. So we decided to head our way down towards the central.. Yep, correct! Somerset- Cine. Gees. There were three timings, and the earliest was 1615, and guess what? they only have the front row left?! It's like sticking our faces onto the screen, like hello?! Didn't watch that lah. HAHA. Walked allll the way down again, to LIDO. FINALLY. There's something you call a movie. NO Zodiac, but OCEAN'S THIRTEEN BABY!!! WOO HOO~~~

The show.. was quite nice lah, but I almost fell asleep at the very beginning of the show. LOL. IT was so cold manz! Gosh. I had nachos, and it was freaking good. I almost finished the cheese! HAHAHA. -thumbs up- The very last part of the Ocean's 13 was really nice. I like. Brad Pitt is DAMN AMAZINGLY HOT~. But.. I still rank Chris Evans the top. Brad Pitt second and EP third. HAHA. And Matt Damon.. Hmmm.. Okay lah.. Pas mal. Gosh manz.. I'm insane!

Then we went to the supermarket at Isetan, and I shared sushi with ji ji.. LOL. Wah, now huh, not only my pocket got one really big hole, my bank also got one. Sia la.. Must save up already, cos there's more great movies coming up! Start saving!! Woo hoo~

Took a train home and sighs. I really huh, sometimes cannot stand my mom. She's really what manz.. Don't know how to describe her. Gees. When I reach Tanah Merah then she tells me she going out to that someplace... If she had called to inform me earlier, I wouldn't be... Sighs. Forget it. Damn. I think I'm gonna sleep soon.. Haven't been sleeping soundly lately, and haven't been seeing much of you too. Sighs.

I thought I wouldn't go out today, but yea, I did. Took a train down and walao, I saw some "material" girls la.. Kns. Anyway, I went to Marina Square initially to buy the top from D.P, but I can't find the color that I really like, so I didn't buy it. Instead, we went lunching at Asian Kitchen and I had my zha jiang mian without mango sago! :( We were like gobbling down our food like 20 minutes? Gosh, haha that's because we've got a movie to catch! We watched the FANTASTIC 4: Rise of the silver surfer! WALAO THAT SHOW IS UBER [read my lips..] UBER NICE! I love it manz! Everytime after every show I watched, I have the tendency to go watch the second time, well.. from dvd already. DAMN nice manz the show. I love Johnny! He looked somewhat familiar manz.. CASEY JONES FROM TNMT!!! OMG!!! and HE'S a HOTTIE! Woo hoo~ Hahahaha. The silver surfer also very shuai manz. HAHAHAHA. Well.. At least he has a hot body. LOL.

my favorite! <3

FF @ 2005 and 2007

After that, we went walking around that that's when we saw fy working in JL. Walao. I tell you huh, today is a really coincidence day for everyone. Then we saw Janis. Ji ji's friend from Cheers was working at the Cavana, and saw another of her friend outside JL! And the final person.. the one that Janis hates the most.. LOL that guy who wanted to overtake her at the printing shop at SHS from SBM. LOL. We were at HMV when we saw him.. Janis's expression was so funny.. hahhaha.

Well well, nothing much happened then, I truly appreciate my friends, for being there, whenever I need them most. Thanks people. (:

Walao, can you like imagine I've got 7 freaking projects on hand...? One which includes an individual assignment that is due 2.5 weeks later? OHMYGOD. I am so gonna screw it, cos I haven't even started, like, what the hell?!

I had been in school early this morning 1030, and stayed till 1830 before I met my cousin at Admirlty to go to my another cousin's house. LOL. I saw the long-missed Pepper, the stupid doggie.. Hahaha.. She's still as adorable as ever. Love her manz. Went there cos my aunt and uncle from Malaysia was here, and my cousin gave me 2 hairbands she bought from Korea! Hahaha. She's an air stewardess, by the way. Hahaha. Red kerbaya already sia.. Chief stewardess, I think. Woo~

During the project, oh gosh, I went to do some quizzes out of boredom.. Seriously the projects are really a killer. ICA 1 part 2 of entrepreneurship is really gonna screw me upside down manz. I'm so tired of going to school so early in the morning and home in the evening, and like, IT's TERM BREAK! WTF!! Goodness. I'm so worn out! Anyway, the quizzes were really fun and made me realise things that I haven't been noticing myself. I mean, some are not true la, like the previous post.. my god.. Risk of cheating=100% ... LIKE really, WHAT THE HELL!!? Sia la, cheat manz.. how to? Argh. LOL.

I'm so glad to be home. At least today I don't feel as depressed like 2 days ago. I sound more cheery today! What a pleasant thing. HAHA.

You Should Be With an Air Sign!

Your best match is a Gemini, Libra, or Aquarius Why? You crave excitement and playful banter Only an Air Sign can match your wit - and keep you on your toes As for fun, an Air Sign guy will show you plenty? with tons of surprises Just be sure to introduce him to some new playful experiences as well!

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

HAHAHA. my ideal bf. LOL.

NOW everyone knows. LOL. About EP. and quelques chose. HAHAHA.

Anyway, am in school now, took like 1 hour to force myself outta bed cos I was supposedly to be meeting ji ji at 10 to do up the feasibility report, mais, je suis en retard. C'est pas bon, oui? Je suis tres tres fatigue, parce que je n'ai pas domir bien pour 2 jours already. LOL half english, half french. HAHAHAHA. I don't even know if the sentence structure is correct or not. Supposedly to be the passÉ composÉ I didn't Écrire. HAHAHAHA. Ohmondieu!

Ah, our dear janis is here. Time for project! Blog later (:

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Sia la.. this is scary.. It's NOT ACCURATE OKAY. wth. lol

Muahahahahaaaa.. My french classmates! These are the peeps who made SATURDAY my DAY! Karen is the one in the middle. HAHAHA.

No I'm not feeling good AT ALL.

I've been getting mosquito bites all over and I'm dying of itchiness. Whatever. This is not the main point I'm driving about.

It's raining. Definately portrays the way I feel this very instant.

I cried myself to sleep last night. The tears just flow uncontrollably out of my eyes. I felt really really lousy for the past few days, and the reason... for me to know for you to find out, actually. I went to por por's room in the middle of the night, sat there, think, watch every single aeroplane fly by, look at the night scenery across my house. Sometimes, I just wished that how good if I were to be a tree. A bird. A fish. You fly and swim freely. I finally slept at around 3.

This morning, I woke up. I don't even dare to look in the mirror. I can feel that my eyes are pretty puffy and swollen because of the crying. I think something bad's gonna happen real soon. My senses are strong!

Whatever it is.. I still think that xxxxx's xxxxxxe xxt xxxxe xxxxxxly xxxxxing xx.

I won't complain. Really.

I ended my project meeting this afternoon around 4 something, and Janis went to ECP with Andy they all to attend Joshua's birthday barbeque session. I was invited, but I didn't go, cos... I didn't have the mood. So it's better for me not to go to ruin the atmosphere. But anyway, happy birthday josh. I headed down to Tampines after we splited, cos I went to return my birthday present to change the chain cos it was too short. Thanks for the very expensive necklace from Soo Kee manz. Gosh.

I really felt depressed today, and so I went shopping alone. I bought 2 hairbands and 2 pens. Buying something really cheers me up. Saw Nick in the MRT station earlier. Haha. Such coincidence. Then called Ann and she came to meet me with her boyfriend after their jogging session at the stadium. For me, I had been hanging around in TM at the Popular for like an hour, choosing pens and reading some books.

I felt like crying? Had been emotional for quite awhile already. I feel like an idiot. A real big fat moron. Why aren't things working out the way I wanted it to be? Damn. Sometimes I really wished that I could differentiate the difference between "hope" and "hopeless". For now, I think I'm hopeless.

je ne sais pas.

I can't complain and I WON'T complain. Trust me.

I am really beginning to think that I'm useless. I'm not into anything now. Nor whatever. Okayyyy whatever.

Today's french class... 6 people were present. Replacement teacher was Jerome. He's really stern, didn't really smile or laugh at all.. Neither did he makes the class lively. But he's still better than Karen. We just sat there really quiet. I was like making a fool out of myself la. Sighs. Another thing: My french class classmates all KNOWS about EP thanks to this spreader MR PAUL-LOUIS! That idiot. Called me a stalker. LOL. I told him if I were a stalker I won't be appearing in the picture already. LOL. Okay la, that guy is uber lame wan.. During the break he so called spreaded this EP thing and we talked about him and everyone was like counselling me.. saying that cannot "shi-sheng lian" now cos the lecturer will be fined or something.. Wait until I get out of poly then can. And I'm like... dots manz. As if I'm gonna marry EP la! My god. No way manz. He's just my idolising character. Until now they are still taking about it... hahhahaha. Gosh.. This bunch of people really are funny eh! Imagine one group of them talking to me about an unknown character to them.. These people are damn nice. [They think I "zou huo ru mo" too]

After lesson, I met ji ji at Newton MRT and we headed down to Bugis to meet XY, to haha celebrate his birthday. Saw Nick working there hahaha... Funny laa. Anyway, we three ordered fish and chips and I shared sticky chewy chocolate with ji ji and muahahahaha.. we had a slice of ice cream cake for xy! Then one of the Swensens staff came and asked the three of us who is the person celebrating the birthday and I'm like, SHIT. 破功。I pointed to xy and he asked "may I know your name please" lol. The group of 4 swensens staff plus me and ji ji sang the birthday song for the birthday boy! Hahahaha! Although it's a belated one and it's not much so of a good meal, I do hope you enjoyed yourself! The drawings on the card are a little.. erm.. LoL.. So don't hiam ah.

He told me to post only one pic.. AND I REALLY DID! ONE!!!! WOO HOO~ ENJOY!!

je te manques tous les jours. tu sais? Mais, tu n'ai pas temps pour moi. je compris.

Read on... It's a little fuss over Eugene Pang between Alex OW "xxxx xxxx" and I. It's so funny that I can't help but post it to share with everyone. LOL.

1st.. read on..
2nd.. read on..!
finally!

-CRYING-

I'M SO UBER SAD! I'M DEPRESSED!!! EUGENE PANG IS NOT GONNA TEACH US ANYMORE! SOB. I am just so gonna miss him. He's only with us 6 weeks! He left cos he said he had to prepare a new module or diploma thingy and will have the last revision lecture with us. Gosh! That would be weeks without him!! All my motivation gone!

-crying even louder-

I still remember the first lesson he was like really late and Hilda and Janis were wagering on how he looked. I felt sinful and guilty cos I didn't actually do his tutorials every week.. at all! Only the first tutorial that our group had to present. He wore white shirt almost every week, and today, there's a change! He wore grey today! He still look as good as ever. My goodness. TOday, I think my "love" for him 展现出来了。 LOL. You won't believe how crazy I was today. I can be named the crazy EP fan after FY. I think what I did during the tutorial was that I kept looking at him more than I look at the tutorial. I listened to what he said manz. I couldn't help it. I kept telling Janis how shuai he was and blah blah and she went "I'm so sleepy" -.- He's way too good looking. Okay lah, you people reading might be thinking that I'm really crazy, YES I AM! AHAhahha I don't deny that. But I'm not exagerrating though. He's one lecturer that I go goo-goo-gaa-gaa after Mike Cheong, my ex PEM, but he's still okay la, I think I 疯 EP more. I think he has the charisma, and he is really really nice! When he smiled, he looked so SO SO UBER ADORABLE! OMG! SHIT. I'm like 走火入魔了啦。Sia la, I have to seriously get a grip manz. If I continue like this I'm so gonna die and people will say I'm siao. But it's like you know.. It's like how I 迷恋 Ming Dao [183 Club] and this is how I feel for EP.. I don't mean the "love love lovvvve" kind but the very 欣赏 kind. I really admire him manz. He is my idol!

It's a shame that I didn't get to take picture alone with him, but I'm so gonna do it the very last lecture. [Steady ah, FY] I was telling ji ji, that I might just fall out with FY because of EP cos we were saying "he's mine". HAHAHAHA. [NOTE TO FY: HE'S MINE TOO! HAHAHA.

During tutorial, I tried to secretly take some shots of him but I didn't dare cos I scared he find out. LOL. You know huh, he was like gonna announce that he won't be teaching us anymore after term break and Hilda went "somebody very sad" and he replied, "Yea, someBODIES are very sad". After class when he was taking attendence, I 很猛烈地 click the camera button to take as many photos as I could. Ji ji was like telling me that maybe he knows that I secretly take his picture in class. HAHAHA. Ohmygosh.. This is so funny. And I finally get to see how his handwriting looks like! Woo hoo~

Oh and special thanks to Jenelle who 假假 pose for me in for me to capture EP!

LOOK!! he got the 魅力 !

After class, I gave my cam to Sabby I think she took some shots of me and EP together cos I went to ask him about ICA 1. Hahahaa. And then Guan Yi came and asked if they could take a picture with him... I think for the sake of FY huh.. LOL. I felt so embarrassed too! I wanted to take with him!! 我不够大方啦。。。I was blushing madly and couldn't stop giggling when I wanted to ask him about the ICA thing. And I finally took a picture with him!!!!! With ji ji and fy! But later in the pic you'll see that I cropped them away lah. Hee. Sorry huh. Hahahaa. I felt SO happy just now you know, practically jumping for joy! Hahaaaha. Shit manz. My god. I think he somehow knows about me.. or rather us[me and fy] 单恋-ing him. LOL. Oh goshie. I feel so pai seh now la.

EP's looking at me!!! HAHAHAHA! I don't even dare to look at him sia! SO pai seh! hee. Ji ji so ma ka ji ji sia! LOL.

special request from ji ji to ask me to crop her away! Here it is! :p

the original pic. lol.

Geez. I really had a lot to blog but I really really really feel so sad because of his absence for the next 6 to 7 weeks.

After class, ji ji and Jan went Bugis to wait for me cos I went to TPY with Uncle Weng to the interior design place to check out the new style of my new wardrobe. DAMN nice! Made my way to Bugis and I couldn't help but think of EP. When I see white shirt, I see EP. HAHA. REally jia lat hor. Then, we went to NanXiang Man Tou Dian to eat the very nice xiao long bao from China, but still... It's not as nice. The ones at Shanghai still rocks. We spent around 11 bucks and yea, satisfied. Haha. Janis was the most satisfied, cos me and ji ji gave our almond jelly to her cos the smell is too strong! I don't really like it, more interested in the longan! hee.

The food that we had. Yummy!

the original portion of almond jelly and longan...

And the over-filled almond jelly with longan.

Jan and me. The over-filled and the purely only longan bowl of dessert.

Okay... I think I'm gonna stop here. If you wanna read more, maybe you can try fy or jan's blog for EP and food+ farm trip respectively. I'm not thinking straight at all seriously. I'm thinking of my idol. Hee. He's my fave. (:

I was talking to ji ji just now, and read the conversation. [Click to enlarge]

I'm SO gonna miss EUGENE PANG! hehehe.

EP and me [after cropping] The real pic of the both of us will be posted some time in August. Keep a lookout yea? lol

How I wish he's still teaching us. -Sighs-

Okay, I admit. Doing up a simple yet powderful resume and cover letter are indeed killers. It's no difference from studying for ICA! Just that I don't need to read from lecture notes. But writing a resume and cover letter are rather.. Sigh.. I'm speechless.

I'm making use of this time to blog while waiting Mr Goh to come online. My god. He's taking his own sweet time and I swear that I'm the most lethargic person you've ever seen. This week is indeed hectic, 2 ICAs in a row, and now this. My god. I don't feel good today.. Not good at all. I felt giddy in school I don't know why. Maybe cause I panicked too much about everything and being uber paranoid and even felt like puking on some occasions. I feel week, my legs went jelly, my head's spinning. There's only one conclusion to be made: Lack of sleep. True enough, class is starting in a few hours' time in the morning, and I think I'm gonna be late.

My resume and cover letter are not exactly done up yet, and I don't think it's appealing AT ALL. I think I'm gonna so fail this 10%, just like the quality paper. It's 15%. Damn. After 12 hours, I'm gonna really really really make use of quality time to sleep, to make up for the time that I lost sleep.

Today's [I meant Thursday] is my buddy's birthday. Well. I didn't get to blog just now, but I still wanna wish you a happy birthday manz. Live on strong! Haha. Alrighty, I will blog another time. I'm really really zonked out.

WOO HOO~!! I'm ICA-FREE!!! YAY! Oh my freaking god. This day has finally come. It's still not over yet, I've still got a resume to hand up this Friday and heck I'm gonna leave it aside first and enjoy my moment now. I felt SO SO SO much relieved when I handed up the paper earlier this earlier this afternoon. Gosh manz. It WAS a killer, but I swear Quality killed me more than Marketing Research. I seriously hope I get some good grades for this ICA cos I skipped a total of 5 classes, lectures and tutorials included. My god. I was so so so nervous when I took the paper [with my notes still on my hands haha..] and when it's time to flip it, gosh.. I was doing the paper with pespiration manz. I don't know what went wrong but I have this phobia called "Yu Hui's exam/tests/icas phobia". My palms turned real sweaty, no kidding! I always turned out to be in this state no matter how calm I am in exam hall.


This is wonderful manz. Finally I can sleep in peace for now! I still need to worry for the resume lah, so the real "peaceful" day I can really sleep is on Friday. Waking up in the middle of the night to study is killer manz. This is like so last minute studying and I nearly died. Heh. My mom's so nice. She 炖燕窝 for me! Hee. DAMN nice. I want more!!


my "yan wo"


Oh yea, I just came home and I noticed this small little chair that's so adorable and I didn't see it when I went out just now!? Too stressed up. hahahaa. I think my dad took it home.

isn't this adorable?

Ah. I remembered. It's been a month since.. heh heh. I'm hungry! I'm gonna go food hunting for now. Will blog again! :p

I've been feeling random lately. MR is driving me nuts.

I suddenly found out people are really realistic? Yea. There's no one really you can put your trust totally in him/her. You'll just be the one losing out.

How I wished I'm still TEP-ing now.

I screwed my quality paper okay? Damn. All the questions I studied came out. What I did was to screw it up. I completely forgotten what I've studied. All the questions are all the give away kind and I didn't manage to grab the points. WTF.

I'm such a loser. I'm useless. I'm demoralized. I'm an ass. I'm nothing. I'm hopeless. ARGH! FARK! Damn DAmn DAMN IT!

No one can help me except myself. My IPP is a goner- I didn't submit the form. DAMN. Today's the closing date. I felt that the world shunned me, suddenly. I'm a gone case. GONER OKAY!!! G-O-N-E-R! READ MY LIPS! ARGH!!!!!!! :(

KEEP away from me or I'll just f*cking bite you into pieces. [apparently I'm not in a good mood.]

I'm UBER STRESS! STRESS!!! STRESSSSSS!!!

Today is the most, MOST fatigue day in my entire life. I shan't blog it now, but when ICAs and things are officially over then I blog about today plus pictures.


I find it hard not to think of you. -sings- "you were always on my mind...." by Elvis. HAHHAA. Okay la, I shall stop being lame.

TELL ME YOU MISS ME TOO OKAY!!! GOSH.

JE TE MANQUES aussi~! PAS UNE PEU MAIS BEAUCOUP!!!

DAMN the mozzies. I've got SO MANY countless bites on my legs and the itch are driving me nuts! Gosh seriously.. Why things that are supposed to extinct don't wanna extinct and the ones are gonna extinct are going to extinct? ARGH!!

Anyway, I got back my GSC ICA and yeaa, I sucked.

E.P's lesson was great manz.. Absolutely wonderful. I'm beginning to like him even more manz. His lessons ended 1 hour early.. And he called me "RED"! Oh my gosh. My heart was like beating super fast.. Goodness. He is so damn shuai la. hahahaha. He was standing beside ji ji earlier before tutorial, and he was standing in this position that was like... omg.. like a model manz! Woo~ Hahahaha. Okay la I admit I'm going crazy already. LOL.

I "crashed" myself during HRM lecture. I went out to give "xuan xuan" my assets.. And while I stood up, my notes and stationaries all fell off and I hit Sabby and her notes dropped. LOL. [PS xuan xuan: see la, YOU owe me big time manz. Because of you I sacrifice so much manz.. lol]

Speaking of this morning.. I was like almost late for lesson. Reached there just in time. I forgot to bring my HR lecture notes la! Sigh! No choice I had to turn back and take it. Nothing much happened today though.

It's just that I missed the outing with you on Wednesday so much.