Can't get to sleep, so might as well blog.

SIGHS !

Suddenly I felt stress when I wanted to go to bed just now. I'm really tired but I think my results are haunting me. The pressure is on manz. After exams I felt the burden lightened. Now I feel it coming back again. It feels kinda heavy. Whenever I closed my eyes trying to sleep, flashes of the results and the expression on my face daunt me. I admit I'm a worried freak.. And that I'm worrying a bit too much.

Sometimes I wonder...

-what if I put more effort into what I do... That would seriously make a difference. Detective Taylor once said in one of the episodes, "Every little change is significant".

-what if my personality wasn't like this...

-what if I had more confidence...

-what if I have no exam phobia..

-what if I am born smart..

... And the "what ifs" list goes on..... Well, these are only what ifs. It's impossible that these would reflect on me.

I forgot to wish my friend happy 20th bday on the 20/11. I really want to go back on to normal terms, the fun we used to have, and we'd call each other almost everyday just to gossip. I think we haven't spoken for almost 3 years. My gosh. I didn't think that our friendship is so fragile that such things happen again and again. I was wrong. I didn't know what happened. You just stopped talking to me. See, the fact was that I don't know whether to trust you again cos of the other one. What a big influencer. I was really disappointed that our friendship seems to have come to an end, which I don't want to.

I've got a feeling that Saturday will turn out to be a disaster. EMO !!!